What a tricky topic to write of
How does one encompass all that this is?
I could use numbers to speak of my love for you
With numbers that extend above the sky
and past our imagination
Intricate and never-ending digits and decimals
To show the amount of which
I love you
But even then
Infinity would never match
To the quantity in which I adore you
Because there is no quantity
Maybe I could use actions to show I love you?
Sing to you and hold your hand
Kiss your lips and hug you dearly
But then…
There are mute people
Whose love shows no bound
And the paralyzed
Who still love like there's no tomorrow
So then, actions can't express my love for you
Because actions are too simple
No matter how big they are
Perhaps I could compose letters and sonnets
Speak and have my words flow like wax
Type thousands upon thousands of words
Each meaning one thing
I love you
But I can't put how I feel about you
Into words that do them justice
No number of pixels on a screen or words on a paper
Even compares to the feelings
The complex and conditional emotion
I have for you
So, I say my dear,
My love for you is
More than a number any man could conceive
My love for you is
Greater than any action anyone could or couldn't do
My love for you means more
Than the books on the subject that have been written or will be
Because my love for you is
Bountiful
Unmeasurable
And so vast in its own way
I end this with three words
And I hope you think of them fondly
Yes, my one and only
I love you
Apr 12, 2018
Apr 12, 2018 at 2:10 AM UTC
I never meant to hurt you;
But the temptation to play as if you were a puppet on a string was there.
I’m a monster
With a face of a flower but the smell of disgust that lingers under my intentions.
Don’t trust me;
I warned you and begged you to not fall for such a creature yet... here we are.
With a grin;
I’ll call you babe and say you’re perfect without a second thought.
And with a generic smile;
I’ll say I like someone else because the risk of love is far too high.
Move on to the next toy;
My growing collection of broken toys lay at my feet waiting to be fixed.
But I’m broken too;
Because we’re all toys in the beginning. I wish I could be fixed
Feb 19, 2018
Feb 19, 2018 at 7:24 AM UTC
nothing
I'm not
Special
I'm
A loser
Not
Number one
I believe that I'm
An insecure girl
Not
The one of the best and brightest of my kind
I am
Dumb and ugly
No, I can't be
The child my parents hope, wish, and want
Because I'm
Not good enough
Never am I
Special
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Nov 21, 2016
Nov 21, 2016 at 1:37 AM UTC
Hello, my reflective enemy
Whispering to come see
See how different I look from the rest
Put my self-esteem to the test
Look at my insecurities and flaws
Mirrors tear me to shreds with vicious claws
“Just look how big you are”
“You’re never gonna go far”
“You shouldn’t even try
“Oh, boohoo don’t you dare cry”
“Imagine what others think”
“Get the suicide drink”
Sleepless nights and a knife at hand
blood appearing, I can’t take a stand
Hide it, don’t let anyone know
Just smile as sanity is let go
But pleas fall on deaf ears
For, even people who see, are blind to the tears
In the end, it’s me and the mirror
And my choice doesn’t become clearer
Pulling me in
My mind will always win
Because this is a fight against me and my enemy
The terrible mirrors who say to come see
Nov 5, 2016
Nov 5, 2016 at 1:49 AM UTC
Everything is so huge
Alone in a desert with no refuge
No matter how far I go, I stay in one place
I can't think straight
What a cruel twist of fate
I can't show my face
I am so small
I feel like nothing at all
They all smile without a care
Behind a mask, I cower
Locked away in my high tower
With a sigh, I ignore the tear
Thousands of waves crash and churn
I'm whisked away, air is what I yearn
Water is in my lungs, mind, body, and soul
I'm so cold, shivering in fear
No one has come, no one is here
The fire in me dies from lack of coal
Help me, I'm drowning in air
I feel as though I'm not really there
What do they think?
Everything is a blur
I have caused this to incur
Give the suicide drink
Heaving and crying
Smiling and lying
I'm not safe on land or in sea
Claws pull me down to hell
Into my special torture cell
"Help, I can't breath."I plea
The fear and the dark have settled in
No, never will I win
Unstoppable, invisible forces knock me down
Air, land, sea, and sky
**** me as I yell why
Feel the elements pull and drown
It's all one storm
The worst has come in an angry swarm
I see safety as I take my leave
No more tiring nights
No more one sided fights
Sighing and taking a heave
Breath
Jun 13, 2016
Jun 13, 2016 at 8:33 PM UTC
What a gorgeous shade of blue
I would stare at them forever, it's true
Though I would probably never be noticed like I notice him
Oh, love is so dumb
Yet, you make my heart beat like a drum
Guess you changed me on a whim
Another round of lovely lies
Eventually, I'll say my goodbyes
You'll think I have a stupid little crush in you
Alas, you never truly know
I'll reach a rock bottom low
All because of gazing at your eyes that are a pretty blue
Please, leave me and my shattered heart alone
On the subject of love, let's postpone
I don't want to be hurt but you draw me in
No matter how hard I try
No matter how many tears I cry and dry
You and your stupid, awe inspiring blue eyes will always win
I'm sent into a spiraling whirlpool
Is it me or you I'm trying to fool?
I'm running around trying to solve a mystery
I think I am getting sad
Or maybe blue as some may say, is that bad?
Are you my lock of a heart's key?
I'm trapped in an unsolvable maze
Trapped in your gaze
Did I mention they're like stars?
I wanna be complete again
I'll probably be further damaged, but when?
How many battles? How many lost wars?
May 23, 2016
May 23, 2016 at 12:16 AM UTC
The stars call me
They plead to come see
There's Orion
It's Leo the lion
I want to touch the stars
Be the first on Mars
Gears in my mind churn
My oh my, look at the rings on Saturn.
Just HEAR them glisten
For hours, I could listen
So peaceful and calm
I wish to have them on my palm
I see the sun peak over the hill
I am sad, I haven't had my star fill
Oh bye big, beautiful Selene
Your show was mighty serene
Now I must play with the sun
Until he has had his run
Then you plead me to see
From up above you'll call me
Don't go away
Promise to stay?
May 23, 2016
May 23, 2016 at 12:10 AM UTC