everyday you see this smile
thinking its real
thinking everything is okay
if you only saw the inside
you would understand
Jan 30, 2019
Jan 30, 2019 at 5:17 PM UTC
im a teen, of sorts
17 years and still told to speak up
but I cant tell you to listen
told to speak
but all thats heard is a long drawl
"but you need to stop
grow some thick skin"
shut the F*** up
listen to me
cant you see me
cant you hear me
I tell you that hurts
I tell you my pain
but where is the change
"you arent old enough to understand"
im old enough to have a heart
old enough to speak
im old enough to feel
why do you think
every time you cry
I try to help you feel better
ive been there
and if not
ill walk right next to you
for you
so shut up and listen
Jan 17, 2019
Jan 17, 2019 at 11:26 AM UTC
holding my hand
i was on top of the world
the lights all around
defining what surrounds
the feelings that I have for you
in this monthly dream
walking down the street
never thinking about the reality
look at that smile
the happiest girl in the world
im the proudest man alive
I never knew what was coming
this month thats coming
the coldest ever recorded
Nov 28, 2018
Nov 28, 2018 at 5:46 PM UTC
beautiful clouds so shy
why do you have to be so high
so pleasing to the eye
couldn't you just help me fly
Nov 13, 2018
Nov 13, 2018 at 3:25 PM UTC
I remember being young
careless, not a worry in the world
I was so happy
I was that kid running around
trying to race everyone
never feeling alone
I didnt know right from wrong
but what was wrong with that
one day
I remember my mommy
she was listening to the phone
I had a really good day
except for when that teacher
called me over
"why do you have that bruise dear"
gasp and that cut
I looked down
"oh, I fell yesterday"
she sent me off to play again
so, my mommy on the phone
she covers her mouth
I asked what was wrong
but she didnt say a thing
over the next few days thats how it went
me talking to the teachers between races
and my mom listening to her voicemail
one day I came home
a nice lady in a suit
wanted to talk to me
I thought she was cool so we talked
she asked me all sorts of questions
how much do you eat
when
what do you do for fun
have you ever been hit
I told her everything
not a single care
it was fun right
she left while talking about me on the phone
give it a little while
and an hour later
she came back with 4 police officers
I could smell cologne
They smiled at me and on walked me over to a squad car, asked if I wanted to sit up front. "sure." Who could say no? The nice lady sat with me fro a while and talked a lot. A little while later, she took me in her car. We drove for an hour. I forgot to ask though, "Wheres mommy?"
Nov 5, 2018
Nov 5, 2018 at 8:26 PM UTC
She had galaxies
In her eyes
And her tears
Were falling stars
I lost that girl
not in a way that it all ends
but where it totally changed
I still love her more then the best friend we have to be
is it my fault
is it me
I lost the last bit of hope in finding someone,
to live with forever
I cant love her like that
it is forbidden
I gave my life to her
she didnt **** me
but someone else did,
her mother
took that love away
that girl love me
I love her
whats wrong with that
I was always there for her
even in my worst times
I was still there
what is wrong with me
am I that bad
did I **** up that bad when I was ten
thats when I ****** up
but I am still held back 7 years later
I gave everything
I know that I am better than every other,
woman or man
I am the best for her
I became better
lost so many things
so I can have her
I gave everything
I dont know what to do now
do I give up?
thats an option.
should I go,
an option too.
I ****** this up before I even met her
isnt that like discrimination or something
wouldnt that be illegal or something
if not it should be
I have nothing now.
I just need some love
something to help me live again
I was alive for a year,
but I am dying again
what can I do
I gave everything
for her
for our love
was I wrong
to ever fall in love like this
to smile again
I hurt now
because I know we will never be anything
I gave everything
...
and its all gone
Nov 5, 2018
Nov 5, 2018 at 11:44 AM UTC
The pain
It comes and goes
A startled shame
That nobody knows
Oct 31, 2018
Oct 31, 2018 at 1:47 PM UTC
my beautiful angel
I'd give you the world
nothing in return
all for you
not a day goes by
that I don't think of you
after all this time
my love still grows
baby
not a day goes by
I am amazed
how our hearts collided
and created this image
this beauty
that is so unique
only we can see
my first hour that I was away
I already missed you more than I did anything else
just imagine now
how these feelings are
my beautiful girl
I constantly think of you
Oct 31, 2018
Oct 31, 2018 at 11:31 AM UTC
why do I keep relying on people
it seems like every time I do
its just another letdown
another heartbreak
tell me tomorrow
do I believe that too
ha, you know I do
just keep on telling me those lies
watch me fade away
out of existence
into oblivion
watch me go
watch me leave
pretend to care
this is so unfair
I will stay at your knees
believe everything you say
be your slave
as I fade away
I fall to you
I love you
and you destroy me
I do all my good
for you
keep pushing me away
I will stay for you
until I am gone
I am at your quarter
I am all yours
until my forever doesnt exist
your words are like a knife
sharp and deadly
but at the same time
safe and comforting
so I will say at your mercy
I will be yours
when I am gone
please forget me
I am not worth remembering
I am nothing
a ghost thats what I am
I am yours until my heart is blackened
decayed
destroyed
I will give you my all
and I return
I will have nothing
Oct 17, 2018
Oct 17, 2018 at 11:45 AM UTC
my words are like a sharpened sword
providing the ultimate protection
or destroying everything it touches
I know just where to strike
I can ****
or it can save
I am deadly
dont touch me
for what happens next is unclear
every little pain to me
erects a newer weapon
each more deadly than the last
sharper and more precise
with every use
I become more vilified
when I leave
there will be scares
there will be tragedy
a master of my art
a devastated lonely assassin
I am a trained killer
Oct 17, 2018
Oct 17, 2018 at 11:31 AM UTC