why does it never ever ******* work out
why can't it just stay
in place and
stable
for once
Jun 18, 2013
Jun 18, 2013 at 9:55 PM UTC
don't expect me to be there
when all i get is the shaft
when i try to help
you speak to them and give them your all
like they put the ******* stars in the sky
but maybe they did
but i'm too tired to research it
goodbye
May 30, 2013
May 30, 2013 at 7:49 PM UTC
such a sad, sad lesson to learn
trying to understand the overwhlemingly true sense of isolation when it
hits
you that everyone
leaves
no matter how much you want them to
stay;
they can’t
May 27, 2013
May 27, 2013 at 6:04 PM UTC
i’m such a sad excuse for a person
i’m too much of a ***** for anyone to stick around
teasing and taunting and hurting and cursing
until my lungs run out of breath
but when i’m all out of air
and you’re already on your way
my eyes
allow the tears to fall
and speak for themselves,
“please, stay with me.
don’t go.”
May 27, 2013
May 27, 2013 at 5:59 PM UTC
why can’t i make up my mind
why do i take such things for granted
when they are simply within my grasp?
why do i not feel, nor possess the need to express emotion?
why am i so ******* weird and indecisive?
i guess the future does not have itself planned out in some faraway world,
for if it were, i wouldn’t spend every night crying myself to sleep;
even in my dreams.
May 27, 2013
May 27, 2013 at 5:58 PM UTC
I sit here and contemplate why I feel the way I do
Why I feel so alone,
so useless.
When the truth is
I’m just a closed-off,
over-clingy,
*****
nothing,
no one.
And I get sad for a few minutes,
and drown in a swollen case of over-thinking;
but then I just smirk
and keep
moving
on.
And the process repeats
and repeats
and repeats,
over and
over
again.
May 27, 2013
May 27, 2013 at 5:58 PM UTC
i don't think i'll ever
be a good candidate
for marriage
i'm either getting bored of you
or being afraid you'll find something better
never happily gripping your arm to steady myself
or smiling under the shining moonlight
but the pale, soft skin
losing all of it's color
in the dawn of mess ups
or failed attempts
to try and establish something worth
breathing for
May 25, 2013
May 25, 2013 at 2:24 PM UTC
i'm either not feeling anything
or simply forcing myself to not feel
to grasp my own throat
until i feel i'm about to pass out
and let go as the veins are strained in my neck
and take in that big gust of air my body begged for
as my lungs begin to pump and work again
as my heart leaps and lurches
into all sorts of action, trying to make me feel
but i simply ignore the accusations
of trying to ignore them
altogether
because i just honestly
do not feel
or refuse against the very thought
May 24, 2013
May 24, 2013 at 11:49 PM UTC
i don't know what i believe in
i don't know what god or religion i follow
or whether i believe in love at first sight or not
but i believe in the circumstance of miracles
and the healing of my scars
but what i believe in most,
will forever and always be you
May 23, 2013
May 23, 2013 at 3:06 PM UTC
although i can't hear or feel your heartbeat
i hope your words have been true
because if not, for all this time
i have only led myself on
and have become the ruination of myself
through the crinkled dog-eared letters and the
tangle of these sheets
i let myself get lost in something that
never existed in the first place
May 22, 2013
May 22, 2013 at 6:49 PM UTC