Lets make up tonight
Let the storm alleviate the pain
I wanna wake up next to you listening to the rain
I love the way the sky lights up at night
The lightning illuminating
The rain rejuvenating
Never out of mind, always out of sight
Staring out my window watching the sky
Imagining the day I get out, and say goodbye
I wanna make up with you tonight.
May 23, 2014
May 23, 2014 at 6:24 AM UTC
Cigarettes.
Why are they so soothing when were alone?
The quiet of the night air...
The burning fizzle of the paper is the only sound
If your listening you can hear them.
Your lungs.
But why should you listen?
When you listen to your heart where does that get you?
Broken.
It's just another *****
and you're just another man.
Only difference,
I dont need you in my life.
May 19, 2014
May 19, 2014 at 3:43 AM UTC
One day I'm gonna forget all about you and this place.
The second I see you its all gonna come back.
And I'll remember why I wanted to forget...
But for now I still think of you once a day
soon that will dissipate.
To think I could have loved you...
Silly me.
Why?
You're not worth what I have to offer.
My standard of myself has lowered
therefore so has what I feel I deserve.
But I will regain my confidence,
my strength,
my respect,
and my dignity.
I will not let this town win.
I must stay strong and true.
I have to get back on track.
If not I fear the right path with soon become overgrown with the roots of my poor decisions and misjudgment.
And all that will be left is one dark road to a predictable future,
a light at the end.
Keep my roads clear.
Keep my skies open.
Save myself,
save my soul,
save my dreams...
May 19, 2014
May 19, 2014 at 3:26 AM UTC
If he ever once asked his people
what it is they wish to believe in
the answers may surprise him.
Maybe they would wish for an absolution in death...
Why are humans so fascinated with death?
We fear it, we crave it, we provide it,
yet we can never experience it.
We can only become death.
Once we become death where is our life?
Death is the gift of life, its never an end.
Only a new beginning.
Apr 12, 2014
Apr 12, 2014 at 12:23 PM UTC
Its over
I'm free
you really never wanted me
now I can finally see
it took me a while, but I can finally see.
Where to go from here?
I must leave, I have no fear
I know you'll miss me my dear
but there's nothing left for me here
all I wanted was you near
now after I'm gone maybe you'll feel
I was the only one that was real
you made my open heart seal
you'll go on living not seeing the big deal
all I ever wanted was to make you feel
but you never will
not with me at least.
Apr 12, 2014
Apr 12, 2014 at 12:12 PM UTC
Ignorance is bliss
yet for you ignorance is a dish
you eat it for evry meal
walking tall thinkn your real
calm down honey
I'm not in it for the money
I want you time and your energy
your ******* me up mentally
I stick around for the affections
its obvious you don't feel the connection
why sleep alone if I can sleep with you?
trick myself for another night that what I feel is true
as soon as I'm gone
I'm gone
but when will I leave?
I guess ill wait and see...
Mar 27, 2014
Mar 27, 2014 at 2:20 AM UTC
Just because I'm an open book
doesn't mean there's nothing left to see.
The secrets that lie behind theses eyes...
...the secrets I keep locked deep inside.
Things you'd never imagine dwell in me.
The doorways I've opened...
...the thoughts that came threw...
If you could see them.
If you only knew.
The secrets I hold.
The reasons why I'm always cold.
Why some stories I leave untold.
The ones you'll never hear...
the ones I keep locked away.
In fear of when those thoughts break through to the surface,
break through my fortress...
The devastation that will ensue?
My emotional regress?
So go ahead and take your best guess.
I dare you.
I will confess.
I'm sure you have secrets too.
We all have secrets we will keep until the day we are laid to rest.
Jan 28, 2014
Jan 28, 2014 at 12:38 AM UTC
I'd never dreamed of anyone more than I did you
almost every night I dreamed you were mine
and then when the time came for it to be true....
you tossed me aside...
and now I dream of leaving you
never wanting to be in the same room as you
never wanting to see you
you have broken my heart yet again
after I am the one who apologized just so it wasn't the end
and you still left
after everything you said to me
you became everything you promised you'd never be.
So goodby
and good riddance.
I wont be seeing you soon.
Jan 27, 2014
Jan 27, 2014 at 6:58 PM UTC
Stop telling me that one day I'll end up like you.
27, trapped in a dysfunctional relationship.
23, no job or schooling.
25, hating the life you wake up to.
51, asking where the **** did my life go to?
52, resentful of everyone and everything.
An alcoholic like your grandmother,
a dropout like your brother,
a burnout like your mother,
a **** up like you always would be.
Always will be.
As if it's my ******* destiny
That's the way you make it seem to me.
I'm tired and I just want to sleep,
but I hear my potential futures in the other room... Screaming at each other with slurred words....
Making no ******* sense.
Why do u think I leave when the bottles arrive?
Because the other side of you that you keep locked inside,
comes outside....
I don't like that side.
So I'll leave until the real you arrives.
Please just be safe for me in the meantime.....
Jan 11, 2014
Jan 11, 2014 at 5:43 AM UTC
You make me feel like I'm sinking...
Drowning in these pent up emotions.
I would love to show you how amazing you are
if you'd only teach me how to swim...
Yet you can't swim yourself.
While I'm catching my breath,
you're sinking to the bottom.
I want you to break the surface with me.
Take my hand and ill show you the sun.
Don't loose sight of the sky...
because I may never find you if you do.
...Ill be waiting for you at the shoreline...
Jan 3, 2014
Jan 3, 2014 at 1:37 AM UTC