I've stopped fearing death
long ago.
However, that is not to say
I quite adore life.
No, I've died many times.
You've broke my heart,
suffocated me,
and stabbed me.
And when it's all over,
you'll resurrect me once more
by whispering your quiet
reassurances.
Nov 27, 2022
Nov 27, 2022 at 8:23 PM UTC
Isn't this basically enough?
Even being average's pretty tough.
Even if greater existed, at the end of the day,
wouldn't have the courage to try for it either way.
Never wanted to be perfect,
maybe I never had that option, in retrospect.
Anyhow, I just want to live for the "now",
and no one will be able to tell me how.
Jul 24, 2022
Jul 24, 2022 at 7:01 PM UTC
Existence's puzzle paints a scenery
describing happiness,
knowing delight,
describing sadness,
feeling plight.
Every piece is in place
to portray such a full, diverse life.
But as I hold my own,
I begin to realize it has no place,
and can only exist outside.
Jan 16, 2022
Jan 16, 2022 at 9:45 AM UTC
It's something
you can't just laugh away.
Unease engulfs me
and I can't face the day.
I lay awake,
late hours of the night.
Knowing I've, once again,
done wrong,
how can I make things right?
Dec 29, 2021
Dec 29, 2021 at 6:57 PM UTC
And again
I made the mistake
of holding you.
Smokescreens of
unattainable luxury
dissipate.
Like tears you can't wipe away,
my feelings
were here to stay.
It's disappearing
and rotting
and the world will stop again.
In a tale like this
my happiness
is unheard of.
"See you then, okay?"
Please don't go away.
"I really had fun."
You were never just "anyone".
"Things will be the same, see?"
I didn't want to be...
Dec 26, 2021
Dec 26, 2021 at 8:22 PM UTC
There's a
hole in my chest.
Looking into it leaves me
with unwavering fear
and unrest.
It doesn't go right through,
and I can do naught but lament
the fact that inside
there's only a whirlwind
of torment.
Fueled by the
fragility of my brain,
it tears me apart,
leaving me
barely sane.
Dec 26, 2021
Dec 26, 2021 at 3:49 PM UTC
It's got nothing to do with logic
or emotions.
As I am now,
I need to become someone else.
If I could take on
the personality of another,
I'll never have to feel
inadequate again.
Dec 24, 2021
Dec 24, 2021 at 11:18 PM UTC
Tomorrow
I will still be the same
as always.
Laughing and
trying to joke with you.
I always knew
the things we feel
are different.
But since you
showed up in that dream of mine.
I haven't been
honest with you
at all.
Dec 24, 2021
Dec 24, 2021 at 10:20 PM UTC
I know it's okay
if you don't need me,
but I always wanted to try
and help if need be.
It's hard for me to do it
without making mistakes
and I wish I could hear you say
"it's okay".
You might never know
how I feel,
but it's better this way.
I'll keep doing my
best
every day.
So, I know you don't need it,
I just don't want you to feel alone.
Even if I'm only me,
I can at least say
you're not on your own.
You might not ever see this,
and I don't mind,
But if you do,
please just know
I only want you to be fine.
Dec 24, 2021
Dec 24, 2021 at 4:59 PM UTC
I want to
give you a reason to
look my way.
I want to do
something,
anything,
and yet I have nothing
to say.
Surrounded by
so many people,
I've nothing special for you.
And even though I'm here,
I'll never be special
no matter what I do.
Dec 23, 2021
Dec 23, 2021 at 9:24 PM UTC