aleatheplaya - Hello Poetry

Clap as I destroy, Laugh as my flames rise higher. You love beautiful liars, right? Is that who I have to be now? Make you hate yourself Become your enemy. I don’t want to, But you’d love me more that way. You love me most When my worst emotions show. When I scream, When I yell, You kiss me then, Or do both… Never questioning why you fell. This love feeds your deepest wounds It’s all or nothing. I couldn’t hate or curse you before. I hate that I ruined your fun. It’s too late to fix, But I’m not done “trying” I’ll do you wrong The right way. Maybe we’ll get the chance we deserve. Yell at me for my regrets and mistakes. Tell me I’m on your last nerve. Love me unconditionally Especially when I make you cry at night. I’ll remind you of the other girl Who never made things right. Say you’re disappointed in me, in love, Sure, you hate the bad things I do. But then I’ll get on my knees, Say the rehearsed apology I owe, Then do a unique wrong Harder than my last low. I’ll say sorry again, Awaiting your apology too For loving me While I forcibly destroyed you. But you’ll still love me. I just have to deny you, Right? You’ll love me this time, And not like before, When I didn’t know your heart, That it yearns for the naturally cold one.

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Aug 10, 2025

Aug 10, 2025 at 11:35 PM UTC

All or Nothing

Clap as I destroy, Laugh as my flames rise higher. You love beautiful liars, right? Is that who I have to be now? Make you hate yourself Become your enemy. I don’t want to, But you’d love me more that way. You love me most When my worst emotions show. When I scream, When I yell, You kiss me then, Or do both… Never questioning why you fell. This love feeds your deepest wounds It’s all or nothing. I couldn’t hate or curse you before. I hate that I ruined your fun. It’s too late to fix, But I’m not done “trying” I’ll do you wrong The right way. Maybe we’ll get the chance we deserve. Yell at me for my regrets and mistakes. Tell me I’m on your last nerve. Love me unconditionally Especially when I make you cry at night. I’ll remind you of the other girl Who never made things right. Say you’re disappointed in me, in love, Sure, you hate the bad things I do. But then I’ll get on my knees, Say the rehearsed apology I owe, Then do a unique wrong Harder than my last low. I’ll say sorry again, Awaiting your apology too For loving me While I forcibly destroyed you. But you’ll still love me. I just have to deny you, Right? You’ll love me this time, And not like before, When I didn’t know your heart, That it yearns for the naturally cold one.

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Do you hear how loud it gets when the silence devours the sound? How lonely you really are, when there’s everyone imaginable around? How weak you become when you fight against yourself. How you're your own best friend, and worst enemy, but still, you want to be someone else. The poison your demons give you, somehow brings you life. They tell you that you have deeper wounds than those birthed by the sharpest knife. It’s the continuous decisions that trap you in a cycle of regret. You tell yourself that you like the dark, but you just haven’t seen the light yet. You tell the shadows that you’ll do better, when you promised yourself that you won’t. You convince yourself that you’re the only one that understands yourself, when you know **** well, you don't. You like the way you bite love. Maybe you like the way love bites. You crave the pressure, the pain, the game The way it excites. Crying feels like happiness. Living, yet yearning to die Balance is the key to destruction. The truth is just a lie. Blow out the candle. Look into the mirror It’s the only way to see her. She’s not afraid of you. She’s afraid of reality, and what you’ll see in her. She sees you when there’s no one. You see her when there’s everyone. But every time you approach her, you realize gratefully… That there’s no one. No one… except you.

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Dec 24, 2020

Dec 24, 2020 at 12:04 AM UTC

Love Bites

Do you hear how loud it gets when the silence devours the sound? How lonely you really are, when there’s everyone imaginable around? How weak you become when you fight against yourself. How you're your own best friend, and worst enemy, but still, you want to be someone else. The poison your demons give you, somehow brings you life. They tell you that you have deeper wounds than those birthed by the sharpest knife. It’s the continuous decisions that trap you in a cycle of regret. You tell yourself that you like the dark, but you just haven’t seen the light yet. You tell the shadows that you’ll do better, when you promised yourself that you won’t. You convince yourself that you’re the only one that understands yourself, when you know **** well, you don't. You like the way you bite love. Maybe you like the way love bites. You crave the pressure, the pain, the game The way it excites. Crying feels like happiness. Living, yet yearning to die Balance is the key to destruction. The truth is just a lie. Blow out the candle. Look into the mirror It’s the only way to see her. She’s not afraid of you. She’s afraid of reality, and what you’ll see in her. She sees you when there’s no one. You see her when there’s everyone. But every time you approach her, you realize gratefully… That there’s no one. No one… except you.

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Your warmth My habitual coldness Skin to skin Fast heartbeats Unsatisfied hands Soft kisses Now passionately racing Delicate touches Now desirous grabs Our bodies pressed together Your hands tangled in my hair My hands wrapped around the curves of your shape The very shape you don’t know is perfect You use harsh eyes to critique the beauty Your eyes roll when I acknowledge your art It’s okay, you don’t know yet You haven’t looked outside to see the heavenly grace You can’t see how you make sunsets jealous Or how the waves quiver next to you But that’s why i’m here. So my lips will trace every line of you A painter adoring their masterpiece Until the day your eyes soften And you feel what my hands have been saying all along That you aren’t just a perfect picture You’re the gallery, the sunrise, the ocean, the song. And here I’ll stay… To worship and to burn.

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Sep 2, 2020

Sep 2, 2020 at 6:42 PM UTC

Physical Art

Your warmth My habitual coldness Skin to skin Fast heartbeats Unsatisfied hands Soft kisses Now passionately racing Delicate touches Now desirous grabs Our bodies pressed together Your hands tangled in my hair My hands wrapped around the curves of your shape The very shape you don’t know is perfect You use harsh eyes to critique the beauty Your eyes roll when I acknowledge your art It’s okay, you don’t know yet You haven’t looked outside to see the heavenly grace You can’t see how you make sunsets jealous Or how the waves quiver next to you But that’s why i’m here. So my lips will trace every line of you A painter adoring their masterpiece Until the day your eyes soften And you feel what my hands have been saying all along That you aren’t just a perfect picture You’re the gallery, the sunrise, the ocean, the song. And here I’ll stay… To worship and to burn.

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Share your secrets with me And I'd keep them from the world Dream your dreams with me So that I could catch you if you fall Tell me your fears And I’ll be your armor Whisper your deepest, darkest thoughts And I’ll save you from yourself Show me your insecurities And I’ll give you my eyes so that you can see your perfections Love me with all of you And I promise I’d do the same

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Jun 30, 2020

Jun 30, 2020 at 12:25 AM UTC

I promise

Share your secrets with me And I'd keep them from the world Dream your dreams with me So that I could catch you if you fall Tell me your fears And I’ll be your armor Whisper your deepest, darkest thoughts And I’ll save you from yourself Show me your insecurities And I’ll give you my eyes so that you can see your perfections Love me with all of you And I promise I’d do the same

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If you listen close enough, you’ll hear my ocean of sadness Crashing my joy with its waves of pain Under the moonlight of desire

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Dec 15, 2019

Dec 15, 2019 at 7:35 PM UTC

Waves

If you listen close enough, you’ll hear my ocean of sadness Crashing my joy with its waves of pain Under the moonlight of desire

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You could break me twice if that’s what you desired You could have brought me to my lowest low and I’d still put you higher You could rip my heart out and I’d believe that it’s right For loving you whilst you hurt me is how I brought my heart delight

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Nov 14, 2019

Nov 14, 2019 at 3:27 PM UTC

My Heart's Delightful Sorrow

You could break me twice if that’s what you desired You could have brought me to my lowest low and I’d still put you higher You could rip my heart out and I’d believe that it’s right For loving you whilst you hurt me is how I brought my heart delight

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One day someone will read my life in these words and fall in love But what they won’t know is that this person is no longer here and now above

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Nov 14, 2019

Nov 14, 2019 at 9:08 AM UTC

Self-Awakening/Death

One day someone will read my life in these words and fall in love But what they won’t know is that this person is no longer here and now above

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You’re in pain I know Partially because I’m to blame I’m why you sit in the dark replaying all your faults and all your mistakes I’m why you’re remembering every “I love you” and picking out which is real and which is fake And they’re all fake. Don’t ask me how I know. That’s just the way it is See, I wanted to love you, but I didn’t want the burden that comes with it The burden of carrying something more special than my hands were made to hold So when I’m done repenting, I’ll turn over my life for you to scold But you’re not going to. You’re going to hug me and say it’s okay You're going to say that you love me and I can't change that, no matter what I say Because it’s who you are. Perfection at its finest Next to your kindness is me, a shadow in my wrong Knowing that I feel for you, even when my shortcomings feel long I know you feel for me too. You love the code to your destruction I bring balance. In some twisted way, you need me to function I knew that, and yet I watched you blindly walk on the road to your innocent love’s end I watched you dance in the dark. I saw you fall in love with heartbreak’s friend I knew it didn't have to be like that. I knew I had a flexible position Instead. I denied my love for you, and for your emotional death, I started the ignition I'm sorry that I said I loved only her and not you It’s just that my love was blinded by another She dried my tears. You healed the wounds in my mind. Somehow neither the perfect lover I let you meet the friendly stranger. The one known for its addicting danger But that’s what you like, and that’s what you desire Beautiful liar You go deeper in the water and you love messing with fire

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Oct 23, 2019

Oct 23, 2019 at 11:01 PM UTC

Beautiful Liar Pt. 1

You’re in pain I know Partially because I’m to blame I’m why you sit in the dark replaying all your faults and all your mistakes I’m why you’re remembering every “I love you” and picking out which is real and which is fake And they’re all fake. Don’t ask me how I know. That’s just the way it is See, I wanted to love you, but I didn’t want the burden that comes with it The burden of carrying something more special than my hands were made to hold So when I’m done repenting, I’ll turn over my life for you to scold But you’re not going to. You’re going to hug me and say it’s okay You're going to say that you love me and I can't change that, no matter what I say Because it’s who you are. Perfection at its finest Next to your kindness is me, a shadow in my wrong Knowing that I feel for you, even when my shortcomings feel long I know you feel for me too. You love the code to your destruction I bring balance. In some twisted way, you need me to function I knew that, and yet I watched you blindly walk on the road to your innocent love’s end I watched you dance in the dark. I saw you fall in love with heartbreak’s friend I knew it didn't have to be like that. I knew I had a flexible position Instead. I denied my love for you, and for your emotional death, I started the ignition I'm sorry that I said I loved only her and not you It’s just that my love was blinded by another She dried my tears. You healed the wounds in my mind. Somehow neither the perfect lover I let you meet the friendly stranger. The one known for its addicting danger But that’s what you like, and that’s what you desire Beautiful liar You go deeper in the water and you love messing with fire

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I celebrate myself and sing myself Yes, me, the one living to fulfill her own expectation The one who laughs, and sees the fun in the worst situations With a fear of being scared, and scared of being alone Alone, I was born... and yet alone, I am scared Scared of things I can not control, and things I can not predict Yet I live for unexpected opportunities and people I can die with I don't need anyone else, and for that, I celebrate myself But I want the presence of somebody else, and for that, I celebrate myself For there was a time in which I couldn't separate my wants from my needs And in that time, I remember a world of toxicity and greed Life of the party I am And eager to post about myself on the gram But not the self who comes from a broken, lost world Not the hesitant truster who dances among elements of confusion How is it that I like being alone, but I hate when people leave I've looked happy since the third grade and mentally aware since the eighth I used to laugh, hoping my happiness would stay and become real It was easier to joke around and so I avoided every chance to feel Sports became my tattoo for happiness Before the thrill, I used to think That if I could smile through the rain and get over my problems Then the storm, the rain, and the clouds will pass But that's definitely not how I think now, and hopefully not how I'll think in the future Because I've learned that it's okay to not be okay And that after every missed catch, there is always going to be another So I'll be better than I was Now I acknowledge the past, live in the present, and hope for the future And for that, I celebrate myself and sing myself

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Sep 26, 2019

Sep 26, 2019 at 11:38 AM UTC

I celebrate myself and sing myself

I celebrate myself and sing myself Yes, me, the one living to fulfill her own expectation The one who laughs, and sees the fun in the worst situations With a fear of being scared, and scared of being alone Alone, I was born... and yet alone, I am scared Scared of things I can not control, and things I can not predict Yet I live for unexpected opportunities and people I can die with I don't need anyone else, and for that, I celebrate myself But I want the presence of somebody else, and for that, I celebrate myself For there was a time in which I couldn't separate my wants from my needs And in that time, I remember a world of toxicity and greed Life of the party I am And eager to post about myself on the gram But not the self who comes from a broken, lost world Not the hesitant truster who dances among elements of confusion How is it that I like being alone, but I hate when people leave I've looked happy since the third grade and mentally aware since the eighth I used to laugh, hoping my happiness would stay and become real It was easier to joke around and so I avoided every chance to feel Sports became my tattoo for happiness Before the thrill, I used to think That if I could smile through the rain and get over my problems Then the storm, the rain, and the clouds will pass But that's definitely not how I think now, and hopefully not how I'll think in the future Because I've learned that it's okay to not be okay And that after every missed catch, there is always going to be another So I'll be better than I was Now I acknowledge the past, live in the present, and hope for the future And for that, I celebrate myself and sing myself

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I tried ignoring you. Pretending you didn't exist. That we never happened. It didn't work. It doesn't make sense, but it's harder to leave you alone I wanted you in whatever form I could get How are you blinded from what your poison does to me It's like you don't care Why are you so quick to cut me off? Do you not love me? I want you for who you are You say one thing, and do the next If I only chase you, why are you worrying about those I chased? Why is it so difficult? What do I do now? How do I act? Why are you so worried about them and not us? You know I care about you when I hate myself You know that I pay more attention than you do to yourself But why is your pride so big? Why do you care about caring That's your problem Love shouldn't be like this.

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Sep 13, 2019

Sep 13, 2019 at 1:16 AM UTC

Poison

I tried ignoring you. Pretending you didn't exist. That we never happened. It didn't work. It doesn't make sense, but it's harder to leave you alone I wanted you in whatever form I could get How are you blinded from what your poison does to me It's like you don't care Why are you so quick to cut me off? Do you not love me? I want you for who you are You say one thing, and do the next If I only chase you, why are you worrying about those I chased? Why is it so difficult? What do I do now? How do I act? Why are you so worried about them and not us? You know I care about you when I hate myself You know that I pay more attention than you do to yourself But why is your pride so big? Why do you care about caring That's your problem Love shouldn't be like this.

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