Sanity
fragile
My mind devours
& cowers in place
Of reason
Of forgetting
Another Bad Day
& I'm off
& gone again
& again I can't breathe
But I have someone with me
this time
To keep at bay
what monsters
have hid away
Help me apathy
Help me hero War
Help me to be
Keep away the thoughts
the suicide
the unholy matrimony
of sanity
and the reason
beyond reason
Treason of the brain
Goes like this
Slit the froat
Go like this
Shake the breeze
Go like this
Eat the ****
Go like this
Go like ******
Go like fleas
Go Away
A mocking gesture
& words like me
Freak me out
Anxiety of today
Go like this
Aug 19, 2018
Aug 19, 2018 at 9:56 PM UTC
I feel the sky
Parting in so many ways
My life hurts my
ears
Oh madness
If I could tear
you open
see what's inside of you
If I could **** myself
I could be fine
Sweet agony &
apathy
These words speak
wisdom
Steer dreams
Apathy
If you could be
If you could see
Mockery
Despite knowing
this I hold it together
I hold for years
dreaming of the
sea
Oceans dark
& antipathetic
I wish it could
rain on days
like this
But I'm afraid of
water
& it hurts my skin
Kiss
Disease
freedom
Why can't I live
another day like this
another day like this
Beauty
hurts
Wisdom
Goodnight
Aug 19, 2018
Aug 19, 2018 at 9:42 PM UTC
I feel so out of
my element
around you
& I can't understand
how a memory of a
thought
of an idea
could steer me
So wrong
Hate filled dreams
my eyes can't touch
Steer me wrong
But now the dream
Shallow & strong
comes
or close
or away
Breathe
Be gone
Aug 19, 2018
Aug 19, 2018 at 9:37 PM UTC
I hate myself
Agony
Wicked, rotten corpse
of past
Be gone
And speak wisdom
to me
God or Goddess
Speak Strong
Help me see
what angels fight
to believe
Aug 19, 2018
Aug 19, 2018 at 9:34 PM UTC
Wen you are in pain
I'll carry you out the flames
I'll carry you home
And when you are home
I'll carry you once again
Til our joy attained
I love you in pain
I love you in joy's domain
I love you always
For eternity and a day
May 27, 2018
May 27, 2018 at 5:32 PM UTC
There were once dreams
Such sweet dreams.
A fantasy designed
To guide through
The endless fog.
‘Twas but a ruse
To escape the sorrow
That life can bring
The evanescent freedom
The facade of the mind
Gone were the chattels
The bleak tendrils of serendipity
Cascading on the shores
Of unforgiving night
A fortunate flower into life
Gifted with wealth
A filthy cheat
To the tangled woods
Of agony
A false tale is spun
A beautiful lie
Destroying the very fibers
Tearing the soul from
The weakness of the heart
May 21, 2018
May 21, 2018 at 10:18 PM UTC
I'm drunk on your lips
Addicted to your passion
Hopelessly wasted
May 21, 2018
May 21, 2018 at 10:17 PM UTC
I've sought after you for so long
Years bled from my mind
As I drudged from wrong to wrong
Years bled out my eyes
I dreamt every night
Hoping every other one was you
I dreamt every night
Would jump off the train
Tear myself apart
Rank with a sickness
**** myself
And lie to all else -
just to meet you
And I did
Again and again
Another gun to my head
White whiskey
****** and salacious
For nothing but the hope
That I never thought would be
The hope of you
And then I stopped
Looked up, crawled out - crawled up
And ran to you
I found you sitting next to me
And for the first time you weren't a shadow of a dream of a hope that would be - that it was
You were someone I knew once from a life or two passed
And now you're here
And now you're not
And I love you as I always did before
May 13, 2018
May 13, 2018 at 3:24 AM UTC
I want to disappear in your arms
Let you cover up my ears and my eyes
Never have to see or hear anything but you
I call to you every night and hold your hand
As I try to fall asleep
But every breath every moment speaks your name
And I can feel nothing
But everything
I feel
I feel for you
May 13, 2018
May 13, 2018 at 3:15 AM UTC
Everytime I see your face
I melt more and more
Everyday without you is an open sore
Because when you're not here
I feel too alone to ignore
Everyday with you I feel you more
Because when we're near
And when we touch
When we touch
I melt a little more
&
More
I want to feel you amore some more
Because without you I'm alone too lone
And understand why I can't think or sleep
And wonder why you aren't here amore
Or more yet still why you are too far
So close so gone so here and more
And more I get the feel that without you near
I won't last long without your touch
Without your look
Without your soul
Without you more and more
Less your touch
Less your hope
Less your soul
I'll sink more and more
Amore, oh more I must speak more and more
But horror when the mind wants what it wants
Moi, that ***** for foul smoke and tar
Oh more and more I need not smoke
Nor bore of boar that ***** I must 'gnore
Because tis thee I crave, amore
Tis thee beyond reason or doubt
Tis thee for ever and thee without
Because, I know
Apologies but
Tis thee I need, amore
So so much more
May 13, 2018
May 13, 2018 at 3:14 AM UTC