When beauty comes in your life unannounced
Getting shivers from just your name being pronounced
Traveling emotions will always be scary
Even though some is pain that you needed to bury
Holding back is not the melody I would want to play
I’ve been waiting to love someone till i'm old and grey
I might not be a complete human piece
But after all this searching, your heart was released
I am on time’s side, hoping this could be it
My heart could fully be fixed, only if we do not quit
Your eyes were just enough to draw me in
Hoping craving your body is not a sin
Waiting might crawl up your spine
But my apologizes, I think you’re supposed to be mine.
Sep 3, 2019
Sep 3, 2019 at 2:06 PM UTC
Tired winded soul passing through,
Feeling safe, feeling content, even when head was at brew
Percussions get judged, no matter the sentiment
Feeling different, feeling lost, even when heart feels at tenement
Music bleeding from one voice to another
Being brave for things you cannot control, what you can smother
Seeing the change, seeing the destruction never feels tamed
But every single second of negativity was just you being framed
Walking around like you are full of mystery
Clenching down of the lust for courage that time has made blistery
Fighting the temptation of going fully dark
But waking up everyday just to breathe, just was not a special spark
Jul 26, 2019
Jul 26, 2019 at 8:35 PM UTC
Darkness lingers through and through
That is why I hide, in my bedroom
Lightness stands so far away
No matter how close I get I can never stay
Dimness that I have felt for so long
I can do my best and just stay strong
Dappledness as I grow to be this tall
Never made me feel at home at all
Jul 26, 2019
Jul 26, 2019 at 8:34 PM UTC
When the boneless have no soul
You eat the sympathy it uncovers
Guilt is your only friend, the only real goal
Your mind and the actions are lovers
Bleeding temptations that do not sink lust
Carving the wishes in skin, for an always reminder
Not even your own being gives the clenching trust
You said no evil but lost connection, loss of a binder
Love was a questionable quench, but never a surviving light
Making dreams live in a vivid historic moment
And the morning and disgrace is such a bite
The death looks so pleasing, so delightfully foment
Being in the same mind space, just never felt right
Oct 29, 2018
Oct 29, 2018 at 9:55 PM UTC
Blurring out the intentions make you want more
When all you do is wait for the next open door
You shut yourself out from society but you do not forget
The pain was not your crave, but it is what her body let
When you can not take it anymore, you have to feel free
She does not want to budge, to leave
Having the need to change or be fixed
But your mind and your soul do not mix
Are you okay ?
Oct 28, 2018
Oct 28, 2018 at 6:15 PM UTC
Mixed personalities stuck within one
You are only scared of yourself, the faithful in none
Vision getting blurred with your mind turning always
She never gets better, no thrill with her days
She craves the sight of blood, it meant control
Begging if one day she will become whole,
Cleaning and scraping the darkness gone from your sight
She could look up and see the hazzy psychedelic light
Getting out of bed is a chore of its own, like breathing
But not even herself can give her any meaning
No one can handle the weight the soul brings her
Licking her lips tasting nicotine and liquor
Her identity is faded, and she wants to lose control
Courage was foreign, and her happiness she stole
There is something that will always not be okay
And the notion of her whole body being wrong, she cannot stay
Caged but her second soul, she never had a good life
People say it is easy to turn off, but the toxicity will strife
Forever will she be confused,
Forever she will be used.
Oct 28, 2018
Oct 28, 2018 at 5:16 PM UTC
It's okay if this takes time,
You're safe to feel hurt
The smiles you receive it is not a lie,
Life is just twisting the emotion you inverted
May have thoughts like you lost so much
Nothing seems to be the same, so fast
The soul combined with affair and war
But your mother never heard of such
No one gets out easy
Time seems to be the essence
But it just played no show ******
You're wrong to feel certain
Appreciating the the magic you seem to hide
Pinching at the word wrong like a burden
But you'll get out alive
Because for some reason he wont let you die
Jun 3, 2018
Jun 3, 2018 at 8:57 PM UTC
When life makes you find out who you really are
You get twisted with no recognition of the wars becoming
But I believed that the devil made me look like a star
Drowning in your own misery and grasping for the challenging
I cant let her breathe if I want the chance
Pulling my under with the warmth of a thousand promises
But hearing the steering temptations are in a urging trance
Anger and lust is what the problem is
I froze into the thought of an actual beginning
The bruising of worry that is killing you
The struggle is not being within sinning
The demons are choking the fears out, through and through
The cuts in your soul will never heal unless you have it
You are never the normal, but way too off line
Getting higher than the world you want to be, too high to admit
They want to hide me and have a leader to call mine
Oct 13, 2017
Oct 13, 2017 at 2:41 AM UTC
Wondering how your life would be if you did not mess up
It is the epitome of my heart and what I can give
Scrapping pain ache at my veins but I dont stop
Not enough time to even feel like I live
Questioning if you even deserve being loved
It is the screeching screaming that you always hear
Looking down knowing you cant give your feelings a shove
But I am insane and that's okay because WE are
May 25, 2017
May 25, 2017 at 2:29 PM UTC
Another kiss you step away from because you feel it's wrong
But realizing it is your heart getting ripped out, not his
There is something about love you can't have, but you try and stay strong
And trying to wrap your head around care never works
Another hug you feel attached to
But realizing it won't be the same one after amount of time
There is something about the warmth you crave, the pain you chew
And knowing the struggles you have to overcome and climb
May 18, 2017
May 18, 2017 at 2:21 PM UTC