Why do I feel so alone?
Why do I hate being in this home?
Why do I Just want to run away?
Why do I wish I would just die today?
Why do I keep people out?
Why can't I say a word when I'm trying to shout?
Why do I hide myself from people?
Why do I feel like this for no reason?
Why can't I feel happiness?
Why do I see only darkness?
I try to open up but I feel like no one hears me
I try to speak up but I feel like no one cares for me
I try to let people in but them I can't see
I just feel so lost I forgot who I'm trying to be
Why do I sit alone in the dark?
Why do I feel like I don't have a heart?
Yet when some one asks how I'm doing I say I'm okay
Lost in my head no black and white only gray
Why does everyone say I'm so blessed?
Yet I only feel so depressed
Dec 5, 2019
Dec 5, 2019 at 6:44 AM UTC
You ever just sit there and watch your girl get ready?
Just there, admiring her beauty
Or when you're in bed and hear her breathing
While you stare at the ceiling
And all you can think of is how lucky you are
Finding someone that shines brighter than any star
Someone that gives you that natural high
Making you feel like you can pass the sky
Gives you an adrenaline rush
With just a single touch
Someone that can make you happy
That can make you smile without even trying
Someone that seen you at your weakest moment
And still loves you, even tho you're so broken
Someone who has accepted your past
And still tells you "my love, you will always have"
Someone who believes in you more than you do
Someone who isnt afraid to tell you what's true
Someone who can put aside your faults and flaws
Your imperfections and broken flaws
That can break down the walls
Someone that got through
And sees the good in you
Someone that gives you meaning
Someone that gets in your feelings
An angel that can save you from your demons
Nov 13, 2018
Nov 13, 2018 at 12:49 PM UTC
I saw you, yeah I see you
In the gray, you came out of the blue
I'm so lost
But I had to get you, at any cost
Spent hours and days
Trying to see you in any way
Just want to make you happy
I'll give you all of me
I saw you, yeah I see you
I just wanted you to see too
And I knew you where starting to get to my head
Looked at you and said
Dont start what you can't finish
But you never listen
Yeah I'm so scared of losing you
But I'll be fine alone, I'll get through
I cared for you, yeah I still do
I'm still here for you, yeah it's true
I wish nothing but the best for you, you deserve it
And I'll admit, I still got love for you, a little bit
I just wanted to make you happy
But I was the one you couldn't see
I gave you the best of me but don't get it twisted
You didn't get the best of me, there's a difference
I wanted you, yeah I thought I needed you
How much I cared, you knew
And all that I gave to you
I'm a find someone new and give it to her too
You hurt me but you didn't break me
I've felt hurt before, so I know how it can be
I just hope nothing for the best for you
And hope you get everything you've been wanting too
Jun 6, 2018
Jun 6, 2018 at 6:33 AM UTC
I began to lose sight of who I was
Everything just fading away in the dust
I began to question everything about life
And I felt as if I began to die on the inside
Angry at the world without a reason
Agreeing with my demons
But then you came into my world
Just a small girl
But made the biggest impact on my life
And now I'm trying to make you my wife
You gave me my vision back
And I know I'm not perfect, there's a lot I lack
But for you, I'm trying to be a better man
To make you happy, I'll do everything I can
My dreams began to die
Now my dreams are to make your dreams come true, no lie
You're what I have been looking for
And everyday I want you more and more
You are the woman of my dreams
You showed me there's a lot more than what it seems
You got me thinking about you 24/7
And every second spent with you is heaven
It's you
Only you
I want you
Yes it's true
Believe me when I say "I love you"
May 5, 2018
May 5, 2018 at 5:19 AM UTC
At night I can't sleep
Even if I count sheep
Tossing and turning
But all I feel is the pain that is hurting
You had me believing I was the one for you
I told you nothing but the truth
I had my issues of letting people in from before
So I don't know how you got through that door
And the same door you came in from
You decided to turn around and walk out of
For you, I tried to give everything
For you, I would've done anything
I gave you all of my time
You where my light with a special shine
So now here I am with nothing left to give
And it's starting to feel so hard to live
It's hard to breathe
But I hide it all underneath
With a smile on my face to cover up my lies
Hyperventalating at night with tears in my eyes
It's like it was a dream and I just woke up
Maybe I just wasn't good enough
May 5, 2018
May 5, 2018 at 5:17 AM UTC
Let's run away for a day or two
No one else just me and you
We can do everything you like
Let me treat you right
Everything will be alright
Apr 27, 2018
Apr 27, 2018 at 5:39 AM UTC
I've felt the pain of losing love
And trying to get through it is rough
But we learn to live with the pain
It never gets easier, it still hurts the same
Sometimes it feels worse
It always hurts
But we learn to live with the pain
And we always feel like we're to blame
And then we close everyone out
Trying to talk but no one can here us shout
But we learn to live with the pain
It still drives us insane
Years can pass and it'll still feel the same
Like taking a knife and cutting our vain
And letting our love drain
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But we learn to live with the pain
Mar 19, 2018
Mar 19, 2018 at 4:20 AM UTC
My boy told me "don't let it get to you
I know it's hard but you'll pull through
And I know it's driving you insane
And at times it's hard to maintain
We're all humans, we all feel pain
But from the pain we learn and gain
I've been there before, I've felt the same
And I get it, it's on repeat going over and over in your brain
Feeling like you're losing control
Feeling like you lost your soul
Just give it some time to heal
I know exactly what you feel
My ***** you've been through worse!
My ***** you ain't cursed!
I know you're better than this, you're much stronger!
The pain won't last much longer"
Mar 1, 2018
Mar 1, 2018 at 5:32 AM UTC
I'm going out every night
Why did we even fight?
What was it about?
All I remember where the shouts
But I'm trying to forget you
But I see you in everything I do
Who didn't love who?
I was all in
But maybe this was suppose to end
Now here I am by myself
Feeling like I'm going through hell
Putting my heart in a dark cell
I ain't gonna lie, I miss you
Do you miss me too?
I told you you're all I want
The memory of you still haunts
But you weren't honest
And I didnt speak up on what this is
We where scared
And that bond we had, began to tear
When you needed me the most, I wasn't there
But is this really fair?
I work long hours
While you where alone crying in the shower
Maybe we both had our reasons
Maybe it was only part time, just for the season
Do you miss me?
At night, you're all I see
Your in my dreams
Put you on that pedestal and made you my queen
I miss your affection
But I didn't give you the attention
Was I giving enough?
I'm not the one that gave up
Was it suppose to end like this?
I just can't act like you didn't exist
Feb 10, 2018
Feb 10, 2018 at 6:51 AM UTC
You see that man standing on the wall
Acting tough, thinking he's tall
He got a gun with 2 grams in his pocket
That old lady got 5 keys for her door just to unlock it
Scared someone gonna break in and steal her gold lockets
That's the corner where my boy got shot and passed away
That house they raided, took my other friend the next day
That house has been shot more then we can count
This is the place they make hood movies about
In these streets you can pray for the Lord but he can't hear
It's been a daily routine, there's no more fear
They broke into my neighbors house and stabbed him
Only to steal his car for his rims
I've seen mothers cry
I've seen sons and daughters die
I've seen fathers lie
Saying they'll come home before the sun rise
But instead get a call saying they're not coming home
Saying their last goodbyes over the phone
Every night you can hear gun shots or sirens
Around here, there is no silence
It's a place where people struggle to survive
Where inocent kids get caught in drive-bys
It's where it's rare to see someone pass 25
Where dreams never stay alive
It's a life we try to run from and hide
That's what it's like growing up on the south side
Jan 30, 2018
Jan 30, 2018 at 2:38 PM UTC