There we were in three
But you should've seen me
I was one in that crowded hallway
I was one when we walk down State street
I was one when I saw him
The nutcracker.
I took him from the Christmas tree.
He looked funny.
Or scary.
White hair, wide teeth
What else-
He wears the red coat,
Looks like an English soldier
Looks proud, strong
Bold, brave, never wrong
Did he know I can snap him in two
Smash him to broken, wooden, pieces
Throw him out my window to
see him crumble, helpless, falling
But why should I?
He's my sweet tiny darling.
Dec 8, 2018
Dec 8, 2018 at 7:04 PM UTC
It’s too hot in here don’t you see,
Turn the lights off please,
Heat from the lamp is killing me,
I try not to be a tease
I promise.
Hmm, can I sit on your bed?
Oh honey you look so afraid
Come,
Help me take my jacket off,
-Good.
Now you see my red satin dress
Don’t I have excellent taste?
Come I’ll let you have it
Take my dress off of me,
-Excellent.
Do you like what you see?
You look hungry
Just,
Rip my purple bra off of me,
-Wonderful.
Wait, what?
Are you stopping?
Took off my jacket,my dress
my last piece of lingerie
Now you are spaced out
Just staring at me
Why did you stop peeling?
There’s more beneath my skin,
There’s my heart, my feelings
My soul and my brain
Jul 30, 2018
Jul 30, 2018 at 2:28 AM UTC
I could tell you all the things I see in Budapest,
but nothing I see is bigger than myself.
but let me try, I'll take you into my world,
this place I temporarily call home,
this place where my see ya, is goodbye
but their Czia (see ya) means hi.
That time when I walked down Rakoczi,
with the awkward smiles they gave me,
it must be the sneakers I wear,
or the hijab on my head,
but I will never know,
because I do not speak their language.
That time when I took the train to Deak Franc
where they have stations with yellow lamps,
and every letter has dots and dashes,
how was I to know tickets should be validated,
well, my existence here wasn't.
That time when I thought rolled up pillows
are quilt,
and that time when I close up
from people without guilt.
I tried, smiled once smiled twice,
smiled the third time but nothing- still closed.
That time when I found the vegan Goulash,
while I was trying to find the vegan Goulash,
Paid 4 dollars in a 4 star cafe,
But she smiled at me just the same,
Although I was thrifty and left them none.
Feb 2, 2018
Feb 2, 2018 at 1:21 PM UTC
I lived in the winter
Where its cold outside
And colder inside
So I ran to the safety of
Shahira’s couch
My desk became my home
And my house became a
hole in my wallet
I am dysfunctional
But you dysfunction me
To the point of destruction
I tried to be nice, be kind
As what humans do
But you’re not human
You must be a martian
Didn’t they teach you loyalty in Mars?
Didn’t they teach you that
knifing someone could ****
Not sure what your diet is,
But here on Earth,
We don’t eat our friends
Jan 14, 2018
Jan 14, 2018 at 10:19 PM UTC
I was in a nightclub
I saw under wears
and people drinking from tiny glasses.
I saw no food and only drinks
but people gets thirstier after each one.
I saw laughters and energy
but no smiles or warm hugs.
I saw love,
but towards another's body.
I was in a nightclub
and it was not where I want to be.
Jan 1, 2018
Jan 1, 2018 at 12:56 AM UTC
When I close my eyes hard
I can feel it again,
Your cheeks against my eyelids
And I’m blinded by your skin.
Once again we’re riding that waves
On our way back from the island of women
Where a woman like me was loved
By your playful smiles, cheeky laugh
And your sweet soft stares.
I miss your warmth, your puffy fingers
Swolen and big against mine
I want those fingers to touch my face and hold me,
Watch my tears and wipe them dry.
But I watched you bring those fingers
thousands of miles away
On that plane with a red maple leaf
I shed my tears and let them dry.
Dec 12, 2017
Dec 12, 2017 at 7:16 PM UTC
I saw that crinkle
in her eyes
When she smiled
with a smile
that is meant to
make me smile.
Nov 23, 2017
Nov 23, 2017 at 5:17 PM UTC
One day,
when we're alone
I will tell you
What I've felt, thought and endured
in those days when
we were with each other
but never together
One day,
when it will all be
too late.
Nov 23, 2017
Nov 23, 2017 at 5:15 PM UTC
From where I stand, I understand. What it feels like to feel something but not knowing what it is. It's just a feeling, but yet so compelling. It's somewhat disturbing, but I crave for this feeling.
This feeling is like a bird. It's there, perched on your mind, beautifully. The second you walked, closer, it flew away, and you don't get to choose your next meeting. It chooses you. So, you sat there, waiting. And waiting.
Nov 23, 2017
Nov 23, 2017 at 5:08 PM UTC