As i sit in my room,
after the sound of shattering tungsten
darkness envelopes
i lack eyes that can see anymore
lack ability to hear in the audible silence
lack everything but the ability to feel
and so i feel
Oct 9, 2018
Oct 9, 2018 at 11:19 PM UTC
pick your poison, is how the adage goes
no one toxin is identical
they all accomplish the same deed
ground by each decision
you wither away to no more than a fine dust
worn from the stress of painful repercussions
those of work and relaxation
those of love and isolation
those of life and death
i gaze into the wandering eyes of others, and wonder
how hollow are they
do they have substance or
are they solely a shell
held together by the laws of conformity
never daring to commit that felony
i guess that makes me criminal
as I choose to crumble visibly,
at least without a guise
i can be reborn into
myself
Oct 9, 2018
Oct 9, 2018 at 11:10 PM UTC
when you write a poem, you own it
you give it your life, you give it meaning
it is your thoughts; it is you
yet as soon as that poem is read by another
it is no longer yours
your meaning — gone
its a redefinition
for the one who reads
it is their work
Apr 27, 2018
Apr 27, 2018 at 5:48 PM UTC
cinder rains from the sky,
a past life immolated.
my soul was ignited,
by the fire in her eyes.
the structure built is now aflame,
crumbling to oblivion.
and like all change,
there is accompanying fear.
are her feelings real? are mine? does she regret asking? why did she ask? how do i act? am i not caring enough? am i too caring? am i scaring her off? does she really want to spend time with me? am i fit for such a blessing? can i ever meet her expectations? leave her satisfied? happy?
i don't know
i don't know
__i don't know__
but what i do know,
is that there is a sulfuric cloud looming,
ready to engulf me,
if i am to ever fall
Apr 18, 2018
Apr 18, 2018 at 11:38 AM UTC
every footstep taken
sinks slightly more
into this marshland, into life
into fear
can i cast my hand out
and have her catch it
or will even the attempt
be yet another misstep
Apr 16, 2018
Apr 16, 2018 at 11:06 AM UTC
This is the end of eras,
time pivoting, slipping on ice,
*people dying, people crying,
lost all sense of foresight.*
Yet with the crumble of this world,
a new light may begin to shine,
rising up like a phoenix,
we must not be blind.
So where may I fit in,
in this dance of loss and love,
you took my hand,
pulled me to your side.
Saved me from the void of isolation,
casting it to the side,
I am brought into the sunlight,
your love making me burn bright.
*This is the end of eras,
and I have not died,*
*bring me with you through times of sorrows,
help me rebuild a new life*.
Mar 23, 2018
Mar 23, 2018 at 11:04 AM UTC
saline drops,
concealed scars,
forever rending into our hearts,
//until we inevitably fracture into the stars.
Mar 13, 2018
Mar 13, 2018 at 10:45 AM UTC
my muscles frozen;
my legs locked;
my eyes fixed;
my mind inert all from;
my imagination of you;
my love
Mar 11, 2018
Mar 11, 2018 at 7:33 PM UTC
The timer started long ago
counting every day—every night
cycling between
time he lives in fake bliss
time i live in real depression
resets at four
hard to track
and when they look
the clock ices over
and cracks
and my heart breaks
as they come to hate me
see me as egocentric
narcissistic
complaining
as i fracture
inept in interactions
pathetic at reassuring
Well
it's four
time to take my medicine
time to hide
until i
no
longer
can
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Mar 4, 2018
Mar 4, 2018 at 11:50 PM UTC
How could you expect me
To dive into your heart
When the water is shallow
And filled with the reefs of your pride
Often…..
I got hurt
With bruises and cuts
When your rough wave
Hit me hard
Wish you could see
That I’m tired
Of fighting the tide
Wish you realize
That I’m not floating
Nor I try to swim
Because….
I’m waiting for you
To save me
From drowning
But seems like
You just wanna let go
And watch me ….. sink
-Jess
Feb 27, 2018
Feb 27, 2018 at 11:52 AM UTC