Dear Myself,
It's been a long time coming,
I never wanted to have this conversation,
To admit the things I did to us after she left were wrong..
I tucked you away and treated you as a secondhand citizen in our shared mind.
I wanted to protect you, to save you, to keep you from being hurt again.
Dear myself,
I buried you and burned memories I had no write to destroy,
I did everything I could to help keep you from reliving those moments,
It is now that I realize,
I never helped move forward instead I forced you to sit in the memory of what had happened,
I denied you the ability to move forward, to grow, to become the man you will be.
Dear myself,
I believe it is time for you to come out as I take a backseat,
You will find the good in people where I couldn't,
You will see life for the adventure it is,
You will show me how happy we can be,
I've forgiven everyone else and allowed them to move forward with their lives,
Somehow I forgot to allow us to move on,
Dear myself,
I will always be here,
However you never needed me,
I needed you,
I needed you to stay in time with me because I felt alone,
Dear myself,
I pray for only the best for you, for us,
I know with time you will find what I could not,
I know now that a cold heart and a numb soul do not protect you,
Rather they keep you from love, passion, friendship.
They keep you from living and all I want for you,
Remember me?
I will always remember you and this journey we took.
Good-bye Myself.
Nov 4, 2018
Nov 4, 2018 at 11:31 AM UTC
Maybe, it's the way you smile,
Or maybe, its the way I could get lost in your eyes,
Whether it's soothing sound of your voice,
Or the way you care for so many people.
There's something about you,
About your mind,
About your soul,
There's just something that I ____.
I'm not the man you deserve,
I'm not even the idea of him,
Just because I'm not something,
Does not, mean I can't become something,
Maybe, It's the way you say my name,
Maybe, It''s the way I feel ok being myself around you,
Maybe, It's the way that you are carefree
And yet always worried,
Your soul is so unique and dangerous,
I ____ the idea of you,
I ____ what you stand for,
Maybe, It's the fact that even she knew what you meant to me,
I can't count how many times,
She stopped me from talking to you,
Because she was afraid I'd leave for you.
I'm a fool for telling myself all that time I didn't ____ you,
When the truth is I think I've ____d you since I first saw you.
Maybe, I'm being stupid,
Maybe, I'm just realizing that I don't care and I want this,
Maybe, What I'm trying to say is,
That I'm terrified to say,
That,
N.L.K, I love you.
Jun 17, 2016
Jun 17, 2016 at 1:05 AM UTC
Call me what you will
I understand that the things you say are just words
I never understood the phrase actions speak louder than words
Until I was 19, heart broken and looking back at my life
You see I have a lot of great friends
Friends who are there for me when I need
Friends who worry even when I don't want them to
So call me what you will
Say what you want
Say that I don't care
Say I'm bad for her
Say I'm wrong
I don't care what you say
You see the problem with this world is we hang on what people say not what they do
I am not perfect in fact I am far from it
But I have one thing
One thing that most guys don't
I'm old fashioned
I make a vow or a promise and I keep it
So even after everything has gone and I am left
I will hold that promise
You see even if she calls 10 years from now
Even if I'm on the other side of the world
If I have a career
If I haven't spoken to her since that day,
The moment she calls I will be there because I promised I would be
I promised to always love her
To protect her
To be there when she needs someone
To be the thing that pushes her to do better when everyone else gives up
Call me stupid and childish but those promises mean something
They aren't words
They are actions
And your **** right I will push her
I will be there
I will love her
And I will protect her until the day I die
Doesn't matter who you are you will not hurt her without answering to me
May 28, 2015
May 28, 2015 at 1:31 AM UTC
Do you know what the word fine stands for
Fine.
Freaked out
Insecure
Neurotic and
Emotional
Now I just want you to know before you read any further
I am fine
So let us begin
I am sorry
I am sorry that I was so closed
But I was only closed because I felt like if you saw my demon you'd run
Because the truth is since the day we met I have thought about suicide
You held that demon at bay without knowing it and I never wanted to put that kind of pressure on you
As it was
I was scared to lose you
To fail at a committed relationship
Before you I had never had one
I mean a true commitment not just where I say that a girl and I dating
I'm sorry that I didn't keep you happy
I'm sorry that your family lead me to believe they liked us together.
I'm sorry I wasn't the man your father would want you to marry
I am sorry that I was childish
Sorry you thought I wasn't committed enough
I am sorry that I missed my chance with you
Of all the things I could be sorry for.
And I know how long that list is
I want you to know..
I will never
Be sorry
For the fact that I love you the way I do
I will never be sorry
For that fact that I would fight for you any chance I got
And I will never be sorry
For the fact that I still hold hope for us
May 23, 2015
May 23, 2015 at 3:06 PM UTC
"Give me one last chance"
The words he will say
The words he will type
I am sure that he is not the only one to say them
Bound by this force,
This power
It draws them together
It holds them close
They are the things stories are written around.
The seemingly impossible
They have what others spend their entire lives looking for
They have love
In its purest form
Love does not mean that emotion you feel towards someone
Love is the commitment you have made to someone
It is that forever,
The until death do us parts
And the I do's
Love is not a noun
It is a verb an action that can not be anything but an action
To love someone with your entirety
To love and know that you are loved
To hear the words of hate come from their mouth and understand that they are not hate but compassion
They yell these words because they care about you because they love you
Time will pass
People will change
We will wish we lived in a fairytale
Unexplainable things happen everyday
Stories come to life in their purest form
The girl who just wants a man to chase after her gets it
The boy who wants to give the woman of his dreams the world gets to
When you love though you look past these things
When you love, material possessions mean nothing and all the chasing in the world will get you no where
Unless you truly understand this
It is not the memories that you make or the things you have
But rather people you have with you
For love there is no greater gift than the person who loves you by your side
As with all the greatest gifts in life
You must be patient and wait for love to come to you
May 20, 2015
May 20, 2015 at 5:26 PM UTC
A long road
A long winding road
Ever changing and shifting
Our past is more cluttered than most people's future
Our relationship is beautiful and powerful and threatening
We failed the first time
In that time apart we grew and we matured
We became better people
Finally time drew us together again
We failed a second time
Not because we are destined to fail
But because we are destined to be better
We have yet to mature to the age where we grow as one
We still live seperate lives and we still have goals that are similar
But we are traveling through this life at different speeds
I believe in the phrase third time is the charm
So like the movie goes
I will wait
I will write
And I will hold faith that what is meant to be will be.
I have faith that this is not our ending
This is our growing
You will explore the world and make it your own
When you are ready
The white house with blue shutters will be waiting for you
May 20, 2015
May 20, 2015 at 4:59 PM UTC
The smell of burning rubber
The sight of tail lights
The echo of the fading acceleration
That's what I want
I want to hit the freeway at 120
And leave it all behind
It doesn't seem to matter what I do
Because if I leave you behind
I'll be dead on arrival
Under these stars
You fall asleep
So you lay in your bed
You think about your perfect life
While I'm a hundred miles away by now
I can't leave this behind
You lay in your bed just quiet and content
Now you think I'm mad
I wish I could look in your eyes and show you how I felt
Unwrap my soul and feel the heat it once had
You'd see that I can't be mad
This soul is burning cold
Lost in a world without a light
Reality sets back in and I'm 2 minutes from your house.
Apr 23, 2015
Apr 23, 2015 at 9:10 PM UTC
The way to her heart,
Is through respect,
You want to love her,
You need to love her friends,
You need to love her family,
Before you ever ask her,
Ask her father,
Show him,
That you are the man that respects him,
That you respect his daughter,
Get his permission to date,
Get his permission to be serious,
Get his permission to marry her,
Wherever life takes you,
Wherever loves takes you,
Respect her,
She is fragile,
She is precious,
She is the most valuable thing that you will ever have.
Love her as if you would never love again,
Kiss her as if it is your last,
Hold her as to comfort her,
Look her in the eyes when you tell her you love her,
Respect the things she says,
Her heart only trusts so many times,
Don't use all your chances to make her happy or she will find someone who will,
As the quote goes,
Protect her like a daughter,
Respect her like a mother,
Love her like a wife.
Be
Responsible,
Empower her,
Support her,
Personalize her problems,
Enrich her life,
Communicate,
Together live life
Apr 2, 2015
Apr 2, 2015 at 12:58 AM UTC
Whether it be for a day
A month
A decade
Or eternity
He will wait for her
Those relationships you hear about in songs
Those relationships you see in movies
Those relationships you dream about in fairytales
They don't exist
In those stories you only see the good
You never see the tough
The hard
The parts that destroy relationships
You want a relationship to work
To thrive
To live in eternity
You have to work on it
You have to show the other that it means something to you
I know a lot of people who say that they want a relationship not a job
I'm sorry but a relationship is part job
You have to work at it
You have to practice
You have to get better
If you never work at it you won't succeed
If you don't succeed you will never know true happiness
trust me that it is worth the work
Worth the job
Worth the wait
It is worth all the things that you are scared of
It is worth risking everything for one person
Because true happiness doesn't just appear
You work for it
You prove that your worth it
And then it happens
And it makes you fall harder
So he will stay
He will wait
He will be there
Because she makes him happy
Happy in a way that no one can ever make him
Happy in a way that no one can ever take from him
I waited once
I will wait again
M.L.G
Mar 30, 2015
Mar 30, 2015 at 2:01 PM UTC
Roses are red
Violets are blue
This poem is stupid
But I love you
Mar 29, 2015
Mar 29, 2015 at 12:55 AM UTC