You don’t have to sit on the throne 24/7 for them to know you’re a queen
You can take your crown anywhere
You can cry, with your crown still on
Work on yourself, with your crown still on
You can rest, you can walk, you can wander
Get lost, find yourself, break down, build yourself up again
All with your crown still on
Your throne can never be threatened
You will always be the Queen of your Queendom
Aug 13, 2018
Aug 13, 2018 at 9:50 AM UTC
"I'll probably miss you"
"You are." he said with a smile
"Allow me to grieve for him" I told my heart.
Nov 21, 2017
Nov 21, 2017 at 4:24 PM UTC
And just because he didn't know what it was
that doesn't mean he never felt it
He'll remember it for the rest of his life
He'll get glimpses of it in people he falls in love with
Otherwise he won't fall in love
I hope his heart doesn't sink at the thought
I hope the nostalgia that comes with it makes him smile
God, I wish him so much happiness
He saved me from myself
He was the idea of a God come true
He denied me what I wanted, knowing
it was not what I needed
I will forever be grateful for the stars that brought us together
and pulled us apart when we got too close
Now I know when to set my heart free
and when to simply let it be
God bless his soul and those of the hearts that recognise his beauty
Oct 29, 2017
Oct 29, 2017 at 11:32 AM UTC
Someday ... I'll find it
The sparkle that got lost inside my eye
Someday I'll be able to look back
When someone looks into my eye
I'll be able to laugh with no fear
Of things that haven't come
I will allow myself to feel emotion
If not all, at least some
I'll be able to say "I love you" when I really do
I will be free to be who i want to
The feeling of falling will not come with
The feeling of not being able to stand tall again
The sun will come but it will not blind me
The rain will come but it will not drown me
Someday
Life won't be perfect, but my heart will run free
Unchained by the pains of yesterday
It will learn that today should not have to pay
For the mistakes of yesterday
And tomorrow should not take up space in today
For we should not dwell too much in promises
Life will be easier and I will be stronger
And someday
I'll walk with no fear of getting lost
Someday it will not be so hard
The universe is in the process of mending itself
and so is my soul
Sep 24, 2017
Sep 24, 2017 at 3:11 PM UTC
You know the feeling that you get when you miss a step
That feeling when you turned right when you should’ve turned left?
When everyone has left, that’s not the type of feeling that you should get
Doctors say it’s not normal to feel like you’re falling
While lying down in bed
Then say the drugs will make you stop feeling
And it won’t be all that bad
I do exercises that help me with my breathing
And I listen to what is said
But
You know that feeling that you get when you’ve tried something for the fifth time
And it still hasn’t worked
That feeling when everyone is telling you to stop worrying,
And still that feeling lurked
Doctors don’t know what causes that feeling to stay longer that it should
They say it’s a chemical problem
Do they understand that they haven't really made a breakthrough yet
And I’m afraid I know the problem
This can only be understood by those who have felt it
Doctor, this guessing game, is not working for your patients believe them
When they say it’s hard to wake up, it’s not just physical fatigue
When they say it’s hard to cheer up, it’s not just a chemical lack of harmony
When they say it’s hard to go on, it’s not just the brains longing for the happy pill
The soul is ill
Sep 13, 2017
Sep 13, 2017 at 5:01 PM UTC
forever lost and wandering about this earth fearful
What if, we never find home?
Sep 3, 2017
Sep 3, 2017 at 5:40 PM UTC
Last time I kept it in
It nearly killed me
So now I crawl to a quiet place
Where no one can hear me
And I let it all out
Sep 3, 2017
Sep 3, 2017 at 4:25 PM UTC
Let’s say the words now
We’ve shown it all off
We’ve took it all off
We’ve done it all
We’ve seen it all
We’ve broken it down
We’ve built it up again
We’ve experienced the pleasure
We’ve experienced the pain
We’re still here
We’re so bare
In the count of three
Let’s say the words
To each other
Together
Let’s say, “I love you”
Aug 26, 2017
Aug 26, 2017 at 12:49 PM UTC
Why does the pain shock you?
You asked for this heartbreak
You begged for it with your eyes
with your hands
with your life
You opened the door when it knocked
You let it in
You lent it your ear when it spoke
You hugged its insecurities away
You healed it scars
You made it feel wanted
You made it stronger
You knew it was going to break you
So why does the pain shock you?
You asked for this heartbreak
May 3, 2017
May 3, 2017 at 4:46 PM UTC
You can get addicted to a certain type of sadness
And me, sometimes it consumes me
Sometimes it is the only place I know
It’s a place that does not allow me to grow
A place that praises wet pillows
A place where I feel all my deepest pains as if I were receiving them for the first time
The heartbreak of years ago, like a fresh cut wound that strangely enough
Heals, but gets cut open again
I feel the pains on my brown but pale skin
The knife in my heart coming out for just a second to show the rest of my body what this type of pain feels like
Find peace! They told me.
I tried to find peace in other human beings, but they didn't have any for me, only for themselves
They pushed me away in annoyance, I felt guilty, who did I think I was? ******* the peace out of everyone I met?
maybe they have seen the darkness I always try to hide and God I admit, it’s not pretty
“I have to go” they always say, leaving me alone to fight my demons…
Those who like me are those who don't understand me.
So I crawl back, back to myself,
and the demons come out
and the stitches snap open
and my wounds gape at me, leaking from them bits and pieces of me
and the pains resurface
and I’m not at peace
and I'm not happy
Apr 22, 2017
Apr 22, 2017 at 11:51 AM UTC