I see them every day.
Following me everywhere I go.
Always through the corner of my eye.
They disappear before I can fully turn.
These mysterious dark shadows lurk.
Almost as if they wait for the right moment.
Waiting to take me away.
Always waiting.
I see them every day.
Sep 14, 2020
Sep 14, 2020 at 2:40 AM UTC
You left us.
Not a single care in the world.
We stood here as we watched you drive away.
You left us.
Don’t even hear from you much anymore.
You only decide to make your presence known so you don’t look bad.
You left us.
It wasn’t the fact that you stopped loving me.
It wasn’t even the fact that you chose to run off with someone you barley knew.
It was the fact you left your kids that needed you the most.
You left us.
I guess we were better off without you anyway.
A father never quits.
Sep 11, 2020
Sep 11, 2020 at 9:42 AM UTC
I walked away.
It wasn't because I'm selfish.
Its because I could no longer suffer the abuse.
Constant attacks that were physical and mental.
I couldn't function properly.
My kids suffered because I wasn't happy.
It became a game of hiding behind a smile.
You still blamed it on me.
Afraid to let everyone know who you really are.
So I became the outcast.
The one all looked down on.
Not because of something I did but because of something I should have done a long time ago.
Open up to the world
Apr 15, 2019
Apr 15, 2019 at 3:25 PM UTC
You claimed that it was my fault.
Told me that it was the neglecting of affection.
You said that I was at fault.
You accused me of being unfaithful.
Hearing you say I was with a mistress.
That all my love was given somewhere else.
Truth be told, I did neglect your needs.
I knew what you wanted.
What was I supposed to do?
I worked twelve hours shifts.
Never got to rest.
It was work, errands or something else.
My mind was gone.
My body was weak.
My heart got broken.
All because you couldn't see that the reality was, I was the one who truly needed help.
Jul 9, 2017
Jul 9, 2017 at 11:12 AM UTC
Free your mind
Forget what your preconditioned about life.
Everyone has a view but dont let it become your anchor.
Set sail and journey the vast sea of your heart.
See the world through your eyes.
Find who you truly are.
Discover the you that has been stricken away by the world.
Not everything is gloomy and dark.
Look to the sun, the moon, and the stars.
See the horizon for what it truly is.
Always remember that no matter how dark it gets, there will always be a sunrise that follows.
All I ask is that you don't write off the world as a bad place.
See it for the beautiful wonders it is.
Free your mind.
Oct 7, 2016
Oct 7, 2016 at 1:59 AM UTC
My mind is infested.
Plagued by the echos of the past.
I want to be cleaned.
Wipe away all my thoughts.
...
I don't know why I have this feeling inside.
Why can't I forget what has been done?
Must I truly crave that feeling again?
The affection of someone who loves unconditionally?
...
I guess I just needed to vent.
Maybe that's just it.
Hopefully.
...
Sep 30, 2016
Sep 30, 2016 at 4:53 AM UTC
I forgive you.
I let go of all you did to me.
I forgot how you criticized me.
I looked past how you put me down.
I let go of all the negative things you said to me.
Why?
You wonder why do I do it?
It's because in the end, you were my wife.
It's because your kids where my blood even when we weren't.
It's because no matter what you did or said I still loved you all.
Why would a man go so far for you?
The reason is because I don't look at what I will lose when it's over, but because I see what I gained in the end.
Good bye my love.
Good bye my kids.
It's time I gave up on what you saw pointless.
Sep 24, 2016
Sep 24, 2016 at 4:39 AM UTC
Forgive me old friend for i didnt know.
I wish it didnt end that way.
I cant help but look at myself in disgust for not realizing it sooner but you were too good at hiding it.
Looking back now i see the signs so clearly.
They say that the ones who smile the greatest are the ones who hurt the most but yet i didnt see it.
How could i have called you a friend if i could not even save you from yourself.
I basically gave you away without a fight and all because i couldnt see what you really felt.
You deserved much better than this.
Now look at you.
Rotting away.
What have you done?
I should have done more.
If only i stayed true to myself instead of letting this world change me.
Im sorry my old friend.
Sorry that i gave up myself instead of holding on to you
Sep 21, 2016
Sep 21, 2016 at 4:33 PM UTC
Time runs by slower every day.
Crickets fill the night with their songs.
The moon and stars shinning through my windows crack.
Tossing and turning but sleep keeps eluding me.
What has become of my mind of late.
Filling itself with fear and hate.
Anger clouds this weak minded fool.
Drowning myself just like a pool.
Please give me an answer for all this.
Why have you chose to betray me?
I know what is right but my heart refuses to forgive.
You chose the path you did but I am the one who is being evolved.
I become what I need so that no one has this leverage on me again.
Sep 20, 2016
Sep 20, 2016 at 3:18 PM UTC
Today is my birthday.
A time of celebration.
House filled with music.
Kitchen smelled of aromatic food.
Fridge stocked with the coldest drinks.
Cigarette flowing through my body ever so smoothly.
Today is what I waited for all week.
The anticipation was so unbearable.
A time to enjoy myself with family and friends.
What more could I have possibly asked for?
Company was all I really wanted.
Today is my birthday.
Today no one showed
Sep 19, 2016
Sep 19, 2016 at 4:27 AM UTC