The moments I least expect,
Playing CoD, laughing away,
Losing fast, getting rekt,
My mind begins to sway,
Friends in an old life, I swear I will come back to you.
Sleeping all day,
Wishing all night,
Staring at the sky starry
Nay, the northern light,
The small town is not for me.
But she and I,
We will be there someday,
Catching up after all this time,
Perhaps then everything will feel better,
Everything will be calm,
We would watch movies,
Stroll through the mall,
I miss them all,
The friends of a past life,
One that I look forward too again.
Dec 18, 2023
Dec 18, 2023 at 5:46 PM UTC
You love everything that hurts you
Expect humanity from something never human
The rose looks inviting
Oh such a sweet sound
The pain of finding it is not unbiting
The subtle cried left unheard
Form together
This soul left
Took flight as a bird
The gentle slice
How nice it is
Death calls us to rest
No god
No demon
Premonition is sleep
For sleep is a glimps of death
Peaceful and forever
This mind was not made for here
lost long ago to the voice of fear
Now it is silent
One voice gone
Unnoticed.
Unheard.
Unread.
Goodby.
World.
Aug 12, 2023
Aug 12, 2023 at 4:00 AM UTC
Afterlife Nothing,
this darkness is so boring,
memories flashing by at the speed of light,
seen them so many times they're scarred into my head,
when we die seeing an,
afterlife nothing,
afterlife nothing,
feeling so freakin lonely,
having to put up with everlasting defeat,
lost voice in the sea of silence,
Dec 14, 2022
Dec 14, 2022 at 12:57 PM UTC
my friend,
you were there for me when i was at wits end,
im sorry i had to leave,
i hurt the ones i care about
my pet peeve
i never meant for you to be left out-
of my life,
ive been busy
getting through struggle and strife
the people here are really iffy,
didnt know what to do,
i would have left someone,
but who?
im sorry my friend,
i meant to be there for you
Mar 26, 2022
Mar 26, 2022 at 7:18 PM UTC
These feelings that I use against myself,
I try and try to keep them from you,
But now you're seeing the real part of me,
The part I kept locked away,
It's creeping back...
I'm going insane...
This anger I locked up,
It's ruining my life,
And the chances of you being my wife,
Gone with the wind...
Lost to the wild,
They'll call me wild child...
Because I will run with the wind.
I cannot be chained.
Because I will die.
Feb 2, 2022
Feb 2, 2022 at 5:30 PM UTC
Immortality.
the failures of humanity
to watch all love die,
his world crumbles
the end never nigh
demon rumbles
he watches in pain and joy
as dust flows with the breeze
the one immortal,
learning to play coy,
sitting by the seas
earth's last portal
through winters ice
and summers nice
he learns silence
trauma of the violence
Feb 2, 2022
Feb 2, 2022 at 12:55 PM UTC
The hidden clues are nigh,
The loose ends will tie,
If you search you will find them
Truth about me, the end
The past these pages displayed,
From the demons
To the times I was flayed
These lines will lead
Through my despair, greed, and failure
My life in these lines.
Feb 2, 2022
Feb 2, 2022 at 12:44 PM UTC
How do I help others,
Cant help myself,
Why do I see angels
When I am the demon?
All my questions unanswered.
Alone
Who am I?
This demon
Son of demons, grandchild of angels,
How do I protect the ones I hurt?
Hurt the ones I protect?
Personality fluid, not set in stone
Am I nothing?
Yet I am everything?
I am not human,
I am human,
I am evil
I am good
Why?
Feb 2, 2022
Feb 2, 2022 at 12:39 PM UTC
Wishing that I had stayed
wishing that I left,
this life of mine,
I'm not normal i know,
the cursed child,
to hurt those he loves,
leaving meant hurting her
I know her will read
I hope you would understand
this pain I feel, you feel it too.
thank you my friend, for being there...
wishing I could hold you
wishing I could take you there,
to the place where I'm happiest,
with my friends that I left
I can't cry,
if I could I would flood my house
with the sorrows of my curse,
the time I spend with you is when I'm most vulnerable
but do I really care?
is this what love does to you?
wishing I could have it all
wishing I had everything
they are my everything
the people I love are the people I hurt
I'm sorry I love you
can I survive knowing I make you suffer?
can I live with this burden?
Nov 30, 2021
Nov 30, 2021 at 11:54 AM UTC
If only the roses would stay the year,
the thorns would leave,
if only the sky could stay this shade of pink,
the clouds keep at bay,
if we could stay like this forever,
in our arms I feel safe,
if only these songs I want to write would turn themselves into hits,
all this and here I sit,
is my life just an if only,
something I made up in my mind
while my mental health declines?
if only my friends would think more of themselves,
then I wouldn't have to worry so much,
if only the sad songs I like would make me feel better,
and I could express how I feel
but all these if only's are just figments
of a broken imagination,
why am i drawn to hurt like a moth to a candle,
as I'm drawn closer not afraid to burst into flame,
if only it could end sooner,
if only I didn't have to worry,
but I cant stop now,
I have to help the ones I love
if only they could stop their hurts,
if only people could understand that we hurt
and just don't want the people we care about dig their own grave
if only I could stop writing these hard words,
if only I could write in one style,
that wasn't hard to read,
I'm sorry,
if only you could help.
Nov 1, 2021
Nov 1, 2021 at 1:23 PM UTC