I once told you I could fly
That, for you, I could and would do anything
I promised you everything that I could think of
Rubies, gardens, magic, and rings
I even said that, for you, I would live my life over again
That was a long time ago, and yet the memory remains crystal
I can't seem to remember what I ate for lunch, yet I can remember those promises
And that's okay
I once told you I would never run away
That, no matter what, I would not give in to the black
I promised a world free of shackles, just for us
A world of love, truth, and possibility
I even sang you the song I would not sing for anyone else
A long time ago, I once told you I could fly and you believed me
I lied
My wings were made of paper
Apr 8, 2013
Apr 8, 2013 at 12:30 AM UTC
Fire spread upon the heart
And you, well you tor mine apart
But just because the song won't start
Doesn't mean that we have to give up
And since the thought of you, it makes me weak
My lips are moving but I can't speak
Now the hope has fin'lly reached it's peak
We just have to let go and see where we fall
For now I know
That I can't let go
But maybe
Maybe
You can
And that's alright with me
Time is fleeting in my chest:
A cavity where birds make their nest
And yes, I once said it in jest
But believe me now when I say
That I'll follow you through blood and smoke
And your eyes are enough to invoke
My heart to laugh, although it's broke
The spiral ends in a pit
For now I know
That I can't let go
But maybe
Maybe
You can see
That now I am
A stronger man
And somehow
Somehow
You see
The good in me
Jan 29, 2013
Jan 29, 2013 at 8:11 PM UTC
The men they circled round about,
their fates in hands of rock
A crouor pool of heated hate,
attracting ore to dock
And blood got tossed the meteor,
the sparks they flew askew
For death befell the monarch's nest,
though Queens lived life anew
And maybe they'd been living in
a casket full of lies
Or possibly they were not braced
for crimson, blood-red skies
But either way the sheet of flame,
upon the shallows fell
A claret ring of bitter gore;
the gateway into Hell
Jan 25, 2013
Jan 25, 2013 at 10:12 PM UTC
As I sit waiting in my lonely castle, gripping onto the parapets, I pray that I can keep myself away from the fringe of reality
And though I am not lost, it still drives me bonkers that I cannot raise myself up as some sort of merciful avatar; some sort of pillar that cannot be driven into a tailspin as gravity falls around it
Yet, I find that I have leverage in this scenario—that my choices do not fall on pale wings supported by goodfeathers
Somehow this calms me and keeps me feeling supported in a world of alphas, and I know that my final words—even if they do not end with me yelling eureka—will have the effectiveness and power of the big bang theory
And I carry on in thought, yearning for some sort of fairy tail that doesn’t need to begin with “once upon a time,” but that can still lead to a grassy meadow where I can my lay my hands on just one firefly
So I pull on the cape that I was given from this King of Queens, ready to chuck myself over the ledge of the tower, fearing that these pocket monsters I carry with me will do nothing to save my fall
And even though I’m mad about you, and even though I feel like I’m stuck somewhere in the middle, I trust that my life will be saved solely on the fact that I am a person of interest to all
For now I see the end and fear the worst, surrounded by freaks and geeks, by a full house in dire need of home improvement
And despite the fact that family matters, I find that I would give it all away to help a lost girl if it meant saving me
In the end I grab the block of black and, with regret, I end it all with the click of a button
Jan 24, 2013
Jan 24, 2013 at 4:32 PM UTC
You say no to writing, to speaking, to thought
Yet this evening you laughed as we bantered and talked
My heart is aflutter, my shackles are cracked
The guards have dispersed, my odds fairly stacked
The walls I constructed to keep me alive
Are no longer hiding the fear deep inside
I'm yearning for something I once thought oblique
But now fin'lly realize its linear streak
You once told me that there was no way to win
And to start life all over, to refresh once again
I've told you I love you through poems, books, and song
And now I will prove that, for once, you were wrong
Jan 21, 2013
Jan 21, 2013 at 12:12 AM UTC
A positive outlook on a situation so bleak
The words fill my mouth, but my voice will not speak
I yearn for the comfort of wanting what's right
But fear that I don't have the will left to fight
A shaken foundation that stands ten feet tall
Can be toppled by nothing, yet I pray for its fall
A passive suggestion that holds no grounds base
But I dream every night of that look on your face
And I know that the chances of happ'ning are slim
And that your sight on the end goal are nothing but dim
You can't blame me for trying, I know what I need
So 'til then I will hope for a spot to take lead
Jan 20, 2013
Jan 20, 2013 at 1:00 AM UTC
So now the moon sets down
The once bright sun burns out
Can all this come from one lie
Why did I have to hide
And now I know what I was all along
As I kneel and mourn for the loss of love’s sweet song
But now I’ve faded
I become the hated
I’m lost
And as the end draws near I accept my empty fate
So full of fear, of loneliness and hate
But now I let
My soul turn to regret
I’m dead
But if there’s hope upon an empty throne
I know that I’ll wear it so sad and all alone
For you’ve discarded
My broken heart and
I’m fault
I know I fooled myself
I’ve made it my own Hell
By saying that it’d be alright
If I simply mingled in the inky depths of Night
For now the stars give up
My white intents were not enough
All of this came from the blackness of deceit
And the burning fear that slowly raised its heat
Now I say goodbye
I know that she truly tried
The pain I feel in the fading of my heart
Is not alive, for after all my soul’s been ripped apart
Jan 20, 2013
Jan 20, 2013 at 12:44 AM UTC
Why is it that when the Sun goes down
All the lights in the sky don’t stay around
Well the Moon is there and wears his white clothes
And he shares her light that much he knows
And why is it that the Sun returns to the sky
But the foolish Moon decides some nights to hide
The Sun never fails to shine her light on the earth
So why does the Moon chose to hide from her
Well the Sun never sets it just shines elsewhere
But it’s true that the Moon might just disappear
And the Sun won’t complain she’ll just lend him her light
So if he comes out he can shine bright at night
Yes it’s true that the Moon wears pure white clothes
For the Sun cleans them well so that he can show
How much he loves life even if he is scared
So he shows her his love and the life he’s prepared
Now the Moon has stepped up, he shines bright all month long
And all because he lives off her sweet song
Her rays warm him all through the day and the night
And he vows to forever be her true satellite
Jan 20, 2013
Jan 20, 2013 at 12:44 AM UTC
Sometimes I forget what you look like
And it scares the hell out of me
Other times I remember your smell, and nothing else
But no matter what, and without fail, I think about you daily
A girl of hope
A woman of beauty
A lady of love
Sometimes I remember things that I shouldn't
Small things of little consequence
Like when you lent me your pencil because mine had run dull
And you told me to keep it after
Other times I remember things I wish I wouldn't
Like when I told you, ''No,'' and said I had no interest
For I was simply too scared of you--scared of how amazing you were;
I paled in comparison
But no matter what, every night, I wish I had spoken sooner
I didn't know that you were oblivious
This was never a game to me: the prize was too precious
I should have taken the chance
Then I'd find hope
Then I'd find beauty
Then I'd find love
Jan 19, 2013
Jan 19, 2013 at 3:08 AM UTC
I'm not over you
Not yet
Maybe never
Is that really that bad?
Jan 18, 2013
Jan 18, 2013 at 6:04 PM UTC