when I think of you
I want to lay down and let flowers grow over me.
like the love you had for me, it never existed.
Jan 2, 2023
Jan 2, 2023 at 11:39 PM UTC
going home isn’t always
returning to a place.
sometimes
it is returning to yourself.
Sep 6, 2021
Sep 6, 2021 at 10:32 PM UTC
I don’t know which is worse,
continuing to day dream and think about you..
or stay with you and hear your lies…
both are torture.
May 30, 2020
May 30, 2020 at 10:21 PM UTC
I pick you up like a book
Open, close, repeat.
The same words, same actions
No new stories,
Exactly the same since the day you published yourself.
Why do I continue to read you?
Mar 4, 2020
Mar 4, 2020 at 5:35 PM UTC
When I dream of you, sadness surrounds me like a thick fog.
The sadness allows me to run, through the fog and into your eyesight.
Over the hills, through the woods, I chase you passing rivers and rocks.
You are only an arms length away.
The way you run convinces me I will catch you,
but then I realize you control the chase, with the pace I run and the thoughts I think.
So no matter how hard I try I cannot win this game of tag
With every twist and turn you take me on, I fall behind farther.
I stop in the path that never ends, out of breathe and exhausted I begin to fold and bend.
You look back and stop in your tracks, to wait for the chase that I cannot, will not win.
The fog rolls away as I am awake remembering where we left off again.
Jan 29, 2020
Jan 29, 2020 at 4:31 PM UTC
i don't know why somedays i'm completely over you.
but others it's like i'm laying face down in quicksand, being consumed by the memories of you.
the more i struggle
the worse it gets.
so i lay still
as you pull me
under.
Dec 15, 2019
Dec 15, 2019 at 11:48 PM UTC
Someone asked me to draw
Draw what heartbreak looks like
I finally got tired of drawing a broken heart
And I started drawing you
Dec 15, 2019
Dec 15, 2019 at 5:32 PM UTC
one day i am going to write something so deep about you
my heart will explode from rereading it.
Dec 14, 2019
Dec 14, 2019 at 4:35 PM UTC
Sometimes I sit and wonder about you
What you do, what music you listen too
What time you go to bed
What runs through your head
sometimes I try to believe we’re still connected
But distance is the awakening and I’m the only one affected
the day you decided to leave
Was the day you got rid of me
my dreams allow me to escape reality
In my dreams I am a new me
No more you and I can see
The beauty I forgot about being free
Letting go of everything heavy
Letting go of everything I loved
I feel shoved out of my own heart for a minute
i look and my love for anyone else is acute
Why is it so easy to dream about being free
It feels good, it feels right for me
But I cannot go forward to save my life
I don’t know why this is such a fight
To let you go
Is to see me grow
In a lot of ways, I feel like I'm moving on....maybe I'm just afraid of emotional attachment in my current state
How it makes me finally feel awake
who we were and who we are now create a storm
The warmth I feel, the calm before the perfect storm
Nov 25, 2019
Nov 25, 2019 at 3:47 PM UTC