i won't talk about my depression
it'll only bring you down
you'll get that nervous look in your eyes
the second i open my mouth
if you only knew how much energy it takes,
for me to take that step
how much fear i feel,
and how little hope i have left.
if you knew that it feels like lava,
burning through my chest.
someone wraps iron hands,
on the the few words i have left,
and it takes everything i am
to scream
and
scream
them out.
they come out like a whisper,
and now its your shout
you sit and say your sorry,
that you hope i'll be better soon.
maybe i should have an early night,
or watch a movie
like
you
do.
my love, no, you do not understand.
mi not just tired
im through.
i've long accepted shallow understanding
i just didn't expect it from you.
Mar 9, 2018
Mar 9, 2018 at 3:15 PM UTC
hello
are you there?
Im trying not to stare
but I guess I caught your glare
I smile a little
you smile back
you hold my hand
as if
we were bland
i texted you for nights
i had a fright
because with no reply
i wanted to die.
i wanted to say goodbye
I know I didn't want to
so i didn't
because I was strong
I smiled
you smiled back
and then my world turned black
A little broken heart like mine
is really easy to find
im leaving you
worst words to say
because now I really want you
to
stay.
Dec 3, 2017
Dec 3, 2017 at 12:07 PM UTC
What do you mean he is going to sleep forever?
Can’t he wake up and get better?
I can't understand?
I'm only 8?
What's that supposed to mean
Why does he need to go sleep
He likes to eat
He’s not eating?
No
I fed him this morning
You gave me little warnings?
A little hint?
You should have printed some fine print
Why the vet?
I bet he’s a little upset
He needs a long rest?
Why can't he stay here
I'll be dear
I see
He has to leave
Cause he’s sick
I knew it was coming
But i didn't think so quick.
Can't you see what is happening?
Why doesn't anyone help
He can't leave
Not now.
It's hard to say goodbye.
Why.
Dec 3, 2017
Dec 3, 2017 at 11:57 AM UTC
I look up at stars
I've always wanted to see mars
Pass the dark sky
Should i say goodbye?
Not yet
I see a jet
Every star has a thought
Which one has one on me?
It’s like it's gazing down on me
I hear the waves crashing down like it's telling a short story
Some come
Some go
Which ones will stay?
No one can ever know
The sand is everywhere
I was never aware of the little grains
Oh look,
Its starting to rain
I regain posture and stand back up,
I just realized that my time is up
….
Dec 3, 2017
Dec 3, 2017 at 11:56 AM UTC
A sun and moon cross like a heart
But are far apart
But always near
And very dear
They bond
They bond
Like how the grass is green
And the sky is blue
They all come together
Like 1 and 2
They will bond
Till forever more
And beyond
….
Dec 2, 2017
Dec 2, 2017 at 5:07 PM UTC
Do you have to leave?
Stay.
It feels like my world is turning grey
Stay.
Me and mom can't do it without you
Stay
One day i will look back at this day
Stay.
Please don't walk out the door
Stay.
Please
It's almost christmas day
Why don't you want to stay
I see mom crying
No
He has to be lying.
Why are you walking away?
Can't you see my mom crying?
Tell her you're lying!
I guess he's gone now
Why was mother so drawn to you
I would rather you stay
Then go away,
Alrighty then,
I guess he didn't want to stay
I'll just pray so one day,
someone will stay.
….
Dec 2, 2017
Dec 2, 2017 at 5:06 PM UTC