i offended you?
because i call you up about your name
for being absolutely filled with zero knowledge in your brain
for having zero guts
zero follow up to the **** that you spew
trying to keep me around
to see some bewbs, yeah you're kewl dude
you are a ******* fool
you want me to take accountability for making you feel sad
when everyday i call you
every day you reject me
for some ******* game on the console with your friends
youre ******* rad
for making ME feel insecure
when im ALREADY insecure
but knowing well enough
im more than you could ever endure
a disgrace to your culture
to your hometown
to your roommate
oh my mistake
that is your mom
its not her fault
you grew up to be an ingrate
you just dont understand
complexities of emotional intelligence
or the integrity of a man
but thats okay
now ive calmed down
already blocked
psn friends down
im over it
i know enough,
i know when its time to call it quits
i put myself out on the line,
gave you a chance to win the lotto
but i wont give myself up to a stupid man,
that is my motto.
May 24
May 24, 2026 at 12:10 AM UTC
crushing, begging
expecting, just letting life pass me by
years of stagnant nothing
npcs living better than me
asking, thanking
apologizing
antagonizing
life so bleak
i dream of a better me
but i cant move
my feet stuck to floor
a shell of who i was
beautiful no more
Apr 8
Apr 8, 2026 at 1:35 PM UTC
Gaming and thinking of you. Fantasizing.
How come these feelings are building up, how come they're rising?
Am I seeing clear enough, do I need some visine?
Can somebody pinch me please and let me know it's not all in my mind, see...
...See I think that and suddenly you appear
With the illest reassurance washing away my fear.
I wanna repay you in acts of service,
words of affirmation, pleasure in these curves, yes;
I'll let you drive the course but occasionally I steer...
...you into clarity, bring forth reality.
Our minds like to split,
We know duality.
Black and white,
In thinking and physicality,
Choosing this over insanity,
I want you as bad as the sativa I hit.
Dec 19, 2025
Dec 19, 2025 at 1:41 PM UTC
we havent even met yet
just videos chats and audio texts
instagram likes and telegram types
a little freestyle here and there to keep us hyped
too soon to fantasize but still...
oof ... these thoughts
im held against my will
im craving you, craving me
reciprocity, intensity
you ain't ready
sensing both good and evil
tread lightly, thread the needle
throw out the cloth, ***** the process
come see me, make me your princess
prove to me, make me feel
show me love is real
Nov 29, 2025
Nov 29, 2025 at 5:13 PM UTC
its all the same.
if you flip through my pages,
its all the same.
repetitive thoughts,
behaviours,
endevours and dreams.
pulling petals off daisies
asking the fabled question
to whoever my latest victim is
or am i the victim
i always seem to think i am
a broken piece of a puzzle i wont be able to put together
i dont ask for much
except for that one grand thing
that i wont settle for
i deserve more
i deserve more than more
my story
is waiting
for you.
Apr 28, 2025
Apr 28, 2025 at 3:09 AM UTC
an afterthought it seems
that love isnt what you describe it to be
of it lust or narcissictic tendencies
to lie to me..anwhile i fall each time
passes in your arms, embraced
by the falsehood of this love
you too, you say
everything i want to hear
out of your lips into my heart
beating slower as i lose faith..
fully capitvated
devastated
alone.
Apr 28, 2025
Apr 28, 2025 at 3:03 AM UTC
craving you
craving lust
your arms around me while you ******
confusing it with love and trust
craving you
craving deep
passionate daydreaming, sleep
thoughts of a man ive yet to meet
tears fill up my eyes, water in my sheets
craving who
no one is here
alone forever, my biggest fear
afraid of who ive come to be
ashamed
recluse
anxieties
close your eyes and pretend you love me
that you value no one else above me
that i am more than my past
that your love for me will always last
is what i say
to you in my dreams
you who do not exist
you who do not know me
Feb 27, 2024
Feb 27, 2024 at 5:32 PM UTC
Mind racing
Heart pacing
Did I do something wrong?
The silences and pauses
Are my least favorite songs
Rationalize, empathize
Think outside the box
Slowly start to realize
overcome negative thoughts
Easier said than done
When the signs are misconstrued
I don't know what I've become
Or if I'm losing you
Dec 30, 2020
Dec 30, 2020 at 8:01 PM UTC
Trying to maintain sanity
Struggling to find clarity
Diving into the unknown
To sit beside you on your throne
Finding comfort in the peace you bring
Silencing chaotic sounds within
I fear my mind is not alright
It's filled with impending doom and fright
I want to be the best for you
Yet be the best for myself too
I love the fact that you are mine
And hate that I am borderline
Oct 20, 2020
Oct 20, 2020 at 3:29 PM UTC
Where does it all go?
The confidence that briefly existed within me disappears at the blink of an eye.
All the compliments thrown my way fly right past me.
I cant catch them; I dont want them! I dont believe them.
I see what I see & unfortunately it's not what you see
because, well,
you dont know me.
You see what you want to see --
the superficiality;
the sexuality;
not the tragedy
not the guilt
or all of the pain that exists inside me.
If only I could take all of your idealizations of me
& turn them into reality.
Then maybe the confidence would never leave me.
Aug 20, 2019
Aug 20, 2019 at 9:41 AM UTC