I can't think straight, can't focus.
All I think, dream, breathe, is you.
I think about us enough for you too,
that's probably why you don't.
It's amazing how miserable I was with you.
Even more amazing how miserable I am without you.
I'm torn between never wanting to see your face,
and never wanting to see anything else but that.
Apr 23, 2018
Apr 23, 2018 at 2:01 PM UTC
when the sun's out it's still dark
when the moon is up it's natural.
i feel normal.
tried so many things to make it light again
but all it does is cause storms.
Jun 19, 2016
Jun 19, 2016 at 8:01 AM UTC
nothing more, so much less.
the 18th year, to the date
is approaching.
I cannot bear the thought of myself
as anything more than a being.
I have accomplished nothing,
and lack the desire to do.
the 18th year and I am still
nothing.
Jan 19, 2015
Jan 19, 2015 at 9:48 PM UTC
I thought I was better
because they sent me away.
But everything is just a number
that makes me ugly.
the binge purge cycle, how cliché,
but I just want to be beautiful.
anorexia is overused, trending.
it's eating away at my sanity,
morality.
I just want to be pretty.
Jun 3, 2014
Jun 3, 2014 at 9:52 PM UTC
Could you maybe leave me alone for a minute?
Because my thoughts are hazy and hopeful.
You're a constant downer that keeps me grounded,
but no thanks.
Jan 2, 2014
Jan 2, 2014 at 8:58 PM UTC
Sometimes tears well up in my eyes,
because I'm sad.
I lie often,
because that's what people do.
Jan 2, 2014
Jan 2, 2014 at 8:57 PM UTC
"Hey remember that phase you went through."
What phase? I'm still living through it.
I can't find light even on the sunniest of days.
Do you mean remember when I wanted to die?
How could I remember when it never left,
when it's not a memory?
Oct 11, 2013
Oct 11, 2013 at 9:46 PM UTC
How dare you.
I've waited so long for you,
then you swoop in and take my breath away,
then leave without a trace.
And as I'm gasping for air,
you're nowhere to be found.
I just needed you for a moment,
but I don't think you realize what you do.
And here I am trying to keep my
******* head together,
and trying to be what you want
and need.
And where are you?
You're everywhere but here,
not thinking of me,
not needing me.
Oct 9, 2013
Oct 9, 2013 at 4:25 PM UTC
"Hello!" She started cheerfully
as she listened to the static on the other line.
A quiet conversation was carried out
between herself and an unfamiliar emptiness.
After she hung up, she smiled to herself
and began to tear at her skin with frail fingers.
"Hello?" She called into the rain,
her blood poured down with the storm.
The thunder shook and rocked her,
while she pulled her hair out.
Tossing it to the damp ground,
she smiled to herself.
Jul 19, 2013
Jul 19, 2013 at 10:09 PM UTC
I don't know much about anything.
But I do know that you looked beautiful
standing there, confused, and lost.
And everything about you was perfection
as tears streamed down your cheeks.
I know that I didn't feel any kind of regret
when I kissed your damp lips
and felt a smile.
I don't know much about anything at all.
Your body being wrapped up in mine was something
that I do know was right.
Jul 18, 2013
Jul 18, 2013 at 1:45 AM UTC