Don’t remind me that I’m not alone
It’s killing me knowing that if I left
It will hurt you badly my dear
It’s killing me slowly
Knowing you will not handle it my dear
Please hate me
Release me from this loving burden
Set me free from this life that I’m not able to live
Please stop
Stop trying to make me happy
Stop forcing me to pretend that you did
I can’t be
I’m not okay
You aren’t too
My heart aches for you
For your potential
I don’t know how I can thank you enough
I’m ashamed
For wanting to take my own life
I feel heavier every step I take
Knowing you would be the one
I break
Nov 25, 2020
Nov 25, 2020 at 9:11 PM UTC
They ask me
“What were you for halloween?”
I was in disguise
Trying to hide the pain
Misogyny all around me
I wished peace can rain
On the uneducated
And the weak minded
Wisdom, I wished they gain
A great burden is upon my heart
With my pink eyes and burning tears
I wished freedom is reign
You said it’s the ancestors fault
I said ‘I don’t like to blame’
But I begged my universe
To change the game
To make it equal
Peaceful
Faithful
And sane
Please let the change happen
As it should be
Please
Let it change
Nov 4, 2020
Nov 4, 2020 at 9:22 PM UTC
Sweetness,
I hold your hips
Your eyes dilate
Alluringly
Like an eclipse
Sweetness,
Let’s saunter
Let’s dance to an apocalypse
Apocalyptic
Same as my heart is
Sweetness,
Let’s share the sins
Rain n’ bows
Soft skins
Sep 27, 2020
Sep 27, 2020 at 12:12 PM UTC
I ask myself
Why we are all the same
The universe feels simulated
Like an advanced video game
Lost in being
What should I gain?
Is this real?
Am I sane?
“End it, Deem. You’ll find out” Said the thoughts inside my brain
I’m no curious
But very anxious
It drives me insane
Till I ***** all of my ambitions
And praying
Those intuitions
Fade
Once again
Sep 25, 2020
Sep 25, 2020 at 12:55 AM UTC
Obnoxious people
Loud voices
My head is numb
With lots of choices
I zone out
Hearing white noises
Should I leave now?
Or forever?
Jul 21, 2020
Jul 21, 2020 at 8:05 PM UTC
Oh the day I celebrate your funeral
Or the day you celebrate mine
I’ll be the one who laughs
When others whine
Your words
Weakened me
More than my spine
Oh father, to see you dead
I’ll surely
Shine
Jul 20, 2020
Jul 20, 2020 at 5:59 PM UTC
I can only feel
Cold as clay
I can only see
In black and gray
My thoughts are like a hallway
A melancholic, dark way
So don’t tell me to stay
Don’t force me
To disobey
Jul 20, 2020
Jul 20, 2020 at 5:58 PM UTC