I’ve made a *** of coffee
And filled a cup for everyone.
I pour the last drops for you
But my cup remains dry.
You tell me, you prefer tea.
I’ve made a cup of tea
And place the sugar bowl beside it.
You tell me, you prefer honey
But you’ll drink it anyway.
Since then,
I’ve kept tea in the cupboard
And honey by the sugar
Just in case you’d come around.
And I can’t remember if I, myself,
Preferred coffee or tea.
Jun 5, 2018
Jun 5, 2018 at 5:44 AM UTC
Four years sacrificed to you
Why did I stay so long?
Love really does make the heart blind, deaf and mute too
So you cannot see when it is all wrong.
May 30, 2018
May 30, 2018 at 7:30 PM UTC
people change everyday
so i vow to fall in love with you
every time the sun rises
s.s
Apr 11, 2018
Apr 11, 2018 at 3:31 PM UTC
I'm kind of stuck
At least... I think I am
Somewhere between telling everyone I know to **** off
And "just please come hold me friend"
Some place in between an uneasy heart and hectic mind
"I'm depressed"
Can't I just say it without having to explain why?
Sometimes I don't even know which reason to choose
Short replies
"You seem like you don't want to talk"
You're right, but I also want to reach out
I want out
I want to let go of everything
And capture it all in my arms
like a fire fly in the palm of restless hands,
Just let me hold on to your light
Atleast, just for tonight
Because I'm feeling stuck.
Apr 11, 2018
Apr 11, 2018 at 3:30 PM UTC
Hello,
I hope you’re doing well
I thought about you the other day,
and I hope you haven’t forgotten how much I adore you.
I miss the way you speak;
sounds of sweet melodies play when words press through your lips.
The way you called my name resonates in the chamber that holds my soul.
You meant so much to me
but I’m glad that you’re no longer a part of my life.
A life without you would be more bearable
than carrying the burden of the memories we made.
I pray for you everyday
that you feel love for someone the way I felt love for you.
All I’ve ever wanted was to see you happy.
I started drinking more when we went our separate ways.
I couldn’t handle my emotions,
I didn’t want to stay sober enough to try.
I often look at pictures we took together,
it never took to many tries to get the perfect one.
My arm around your waist, flashes of love in your eyes.
We were so beautiful.
Every time I think about you it physically hurts.
I want so badly for you to feel it too,
that way you could know how loving you left me in ruins.
I feel so foolish,
my heart isn’t equipped to forget the person it felt for most.
But I fear I was never of much importance to you.
You left your fingerprints on my heart.
Sometimes I still feel you pulling at my heart strings.
No matter what you’ll always be a part of me.
You did something for me that others have tried and failed.
You set my soul on fire.
Apr 11, 2018
Apr 11, 2018 at 3:28 PM UTC
T*he more it hurts
The more I smile
because the smile has the power
To make it useless*.
Apr 11, 2018
Apr 11, 2018 at 3:25 PM UTC
You ripped it
my pretty little heart -
but that's okay because
now I can pin it
to a wall
and scream
This Is Art.
Mar 24, 2018
Mar 24, 2018 at 3:25 PM UTC
I’ve told you this before...
but i think of you a lot.
it’s not really intentional,
its just that
everything reminds of you.
when i see a flower-
i think of how good you look in the color pink.
when i think of economics, or politics, i think of you-
because i know how interested you are in those subjects.
when i stare at people for long enough-
their faces start to morph into yours.
and thats why i don’t like to go out anymore.
because everywhere i go,
i see you.
i see you in the scribbles in my journals,
and in the cracks on the sidewalks,
i see you when i press a button in an elevator,
and when I’m filling out a form to sign up for the sats?
don’t ask me why,
because i don’t know...
i just know that it happens.
i know that i know things about you that no one else does.
and you know things about me that no one else does.
you know things about me i wouldn’t want anyone else to know.
i trust you like that.
i think of you as a safe house,
a place where i know that things will be good
eventually.
at least-
i like to hope so.
Mar 13, 2018
Mar 13, 2018 at 8:12 AM UTC
i didn’t leave you because i didn’t love you anymore,
i left you because i didn’t think i was good enough to take any more of your time.
i left you because i felt like a burden to you.
something that was holding you back instead of pushing you forward.
at first, you disagreed with me.
you told me that you were only you when you were with me,
you told me that i was all you had.
baby,
don’t you realize?
i left you because i knew you could be better without me.
now, you have started to realize that that is true.
notice all of the things you can achieve without me in your life?
it’s beautiful, really.
beautiful in the way that everyday that passes the only thing i have on my mind is regret.
the fact that i gave you up kills me, because
i know now
i have grown
and i know now
that you have too
to me it makes sense that we try again,
because it is almost like we are completely different people now!
but you don’t see it that way...
you see it like you don’t want to get hurt by me again,
which i understand,
i don’t want to have the power to hurt you like i used to.
i don’t need that power anymore;
because i know me,
and you know you,
so how about we just allow ourselves to know each other all over again?
wouldn’t that be fun, baby?
but you don’t want that
you like the way your life is without me,
which i understand,
but i just want to be held again...
not by just anyone, but by you.
only you.
only you have been on my mind these past few months,
i am sick to my stomach from how much i miss you
but i guess i deserve it,
i am the one who pulled the trigger, after all...
which is to say, i am the one who let the balloon go
and i guess i’ve learned now that once it starts floating
it won’t want to come down again.
Mar 13, 2018
Mar 13, 2018 at 8:07 AM UTC