**and
i don't know
if this is me
just overreacting,
but
the only reason it scares me
when the wind causes my bedroom door to slam shut,
is because
i'm deeply afraid
that
i'll get used to the sound of people leaving.**
Dec 1, 2015
Dec 1, 2015 at 2:52 PM UTC
When a hollow feeling fills my body
And I'm getting stuck in my head again
Unwanted emotions show their ugly heads
And cries for help are about to spill from my lips
I just poison my lungs some more
Take another zip
Swallow another pill
And I'm fine
Dec 1, 2015
Dec 1, 2015 at 2:52 PM UTC
You make my heart throb
my hands tremble
eyes sting
and
anger rise
You thought this was a poem for my love?
You are half right
May 24, 2015
May 24, 2015 at 6:39 PM UTC
Mama mama i dont know what is going on
You left me on the street
Someone found me
Someone passed me on
Someone cared for me
Someone gave me to a big house
Mama mama there are others like me here
But I don't now where they're from
I dont know who they are
I dont know if they have names
I don't why I'm here
Mama mama some strange looking people are here
They gave me a name
They gave me food
They gave me clothes
Mama mama they come to take me away
Away from this city
Away from this counter
Away from you
Mama mama where are you?
Why did you leave me?
Why am I without you?
Mama mama, I feel so alone
I have no real mother,
To call as my own.
May 23, 2015
May 23, 2015 at 10:25 PM UTC
Hello father,
Hello mother,
Do you know how I feel?
Hello brother,
Do you still care for me?
Hello best friend,
Hello old friend,
Do you still want to be with me?
Hello boy,
Hello special one,
Do you still remember me?
May 23, 2015
May 23, 2015 at 10:08 PM UTC
You will not see the smile turning upside down/You will see just a smile waver at the corners of my mouth
You will not hear my screams of despair/You will only hear a fake laugh
You will not see my fist slammed into a wall in anger/You will see a small gesture. A wave, nod or shrug
You will not hear my begs and pleas for explanation/You will hear nothing
You will not see my tears filled with pain and fear/You will see tired eyes looking for rest
Apr 27, 2015
Apr 27, 2015 at 6:56 PM UTC
How dare you do this to me?
Reopening the wound on my heart
That you had made there and
That I had to mend on my own
How dare you give me these careless words?
That make me feel so conflicted
That make me ache
That make me loose my sanity
How dare you force this door open?
When I thought I locked it down?
How dare you do this to me?
When I thought I was over you.
Apr 27, 2015
Apr 27, 2015 at 5:47 PM UTC
To think that I'd look at my phone
And hope to hear from you
To have a conversation
That brings a smile on my face
To think that this was once reality
What a rose colored memory
Apr 7, 2015
Apr 7, 2015 at 3:18 PM UTC
I'm not cut out for loneliness
For abandonment
Or for emptiness
I'm not cut out for lies
For betrayal
Or for back stabbing
I'm not cut out for love
For the brightness
Or for social interaction
I am cut out for being left alone
Being lied to
And being a social outcast
Apr 7, 2015
Apr 7, 2015 at 3:07 PM UTC
So tired
So sad
Feeling it all slip away from my grasp
Dull eyes
Fake smile
Hoping that this emptiness will either disappear or consume me
Poisoned lungs
Trembling hands
Fearing for the time bomb to go off
Hopefully heart
Naive dreams
Waiting for the light at the end of the road
Apr 7, 2015
Apr 7, 2015 at 2:56 PM UTC