in the dark depths
of despair i thought
of joining you
aching with grief
as if struck too
i was lost in the
loss of you
but pain doesn't heal
hurt and more death
can't bring us to life
so i carry you inside
because as long
as i love you
you're alive
May 10, 2022
May 10, 2022 at 10:10 AM UTC
stop throwing stones of judgement when we are all made of glass
Sep 25, 2018
Sep 25, 2018 at 2:16 PM UTC
I woke up suddenly at 3am
Disoriented and dizzy
Not sure if from a dream
or nightmare
My eyes scanned the
dark
Trying to reassure myself
of the here and now
My breathing shallow
My body trembling and
covered in a cold sweat
Overcome with the urge to
talk to you like I
use to
A thrumming need to have you
close pulsed beneath
my chilled skin
I sighed and
adjusted for comfort
Tucked NotBob back under my
head
Closed my eyes and calm
breathed myself back
to sleep
Mar 4, 2018
Mar 4, 2018 at 9:44 AM UTC
I have a light inside of me
that occasionally is eclipsed
by a darkness that also
lives inside of me.
Jan 22, 2018
Jan 22, 2018 at 2:59 PM UTC
How quickly a day
becomes a week
becomes a month
becomes a year
And a stranger
becomes a friend
becomes a lover
becomes a ghost
Sep 10, 2017
Sep 10, 2017 at 7:19 PM UTC
How did we ever live
apart from each
other?
Were we even
really
living?
Jul 28, 2017
Jul 28, 2017 at 7:45 PM UTC
There are times I miss
you so much
I wish I remembered where
I placed your memory
Which box
in which dark corner
holds the sound of
your voice
Where did I bury
your smile
and the feeling of your
eyes saying I’m
beautiful
I scattered the ashes of
your burnt words
and on occasion regret
that I didn’t keep
a special three to
visit during my
lonely sleepless
nights
There are times I miss
you so much
I almost go searching
for you
Jul 28, 2017
Jul 28, 2017 at 12:51 PM UTC
Flowers remind me of death
My father clutching a pathetic
handful of convenience
store bouquet flowers
Jack and desperation in
his voice
begging my mother-
the woman he beat and
walked out on to
raise three traumatized children
alone-
to take him back
Alcohol convincing him
that she was the true love of
his life
His sun bronzed hands
grasping at hope long
since murdered
brought flowers to the funeral
of their relationship
Flowers remind me of death
Your smile and laugh
silenced too soon
Your whole amazing being
shoved into a box
Entombed six feet below
my world’s surface
Overly sweet petals
prettily masking the
decay in my heart
caused by losing you
Flowers in all their beauty
remind me of death
Jul 25, 2017
Jul 25, 2017 at 4:30 PM UTC
The internet is slow
and people keep
disconnecting
Bubbles of self importance
Removed from humanity
The world crumbles
and there’s concern
over a mistakenly made
overpriced coffee
First world problems
focused on the
wrong crisis
Jul 13, 2017
Jul 13, 2017 at 8:53 PM UTC
I wear this costume you
provide
And recite the script you
wrote.
I shove myself aside
to live in the shadows of
this person you created.
I live this lie daily.
With no breaks in character.
Have I pleased you yet?
Are you satisfied with
my performance?
Now that I've changed myself
for your enjoyment,
do you love me?
Because I'm *******
dying.
Jul 12, 2017
Jul 12, 2017 at 10:15 AM UTC