I forgave you that chilly October night, the moon peeping through my window as I write this with a small song in my heart.
I’d awaited for the day those words would slip through my lips like silk, “I forgive you.” That cavity in my heart has been filled and it didn’t come with rules or an insurance bill.
I forgave you for me, I honestly forgive you enough to count every droplet that makes up the sea, every grain of sand, enough to find twelve needles in a hundred haystacks— I forgive you.
The hurt
The shame
The longing
The tears
The fears and whatever was left in between i forgive you not with my heart but just as I loved you, with my soul.
I forgave you, and I wish you Godspeed.
WordsFromTheSoul// [....]
Oct 7, 2020
Oct 7, 2020 at 1:03 AM UTC
Sometimes I’ll find myself yearning for you out of the blue, my heart will cry out this certain feeling I cannot explain. In that split second I’ll think of nothing but you & the short time we shared in each other’s lives, though it always feels like I’ve known you a life time.
All the goals we shared, laughs & smiles but just as quick as I enter and feel that euphoria that tugging in my chest feels of pain. After all I can’t think of the good without a little of the bad when it comes to you, where there were goals there was disrespect, where there was laughter there was tears & where there was smiles left soon left faded frowns.
And how could I forget where there was me there was others—many more than I could ever, I would never. I would never make you feel the way you made me feel and it’s something because not once did you ever have to part your lips to tell me I wasn’t enough—in fact I believe I was exactly that and a little too much..
I cared too much
I talked too much
I laughed too much
I smiled too much
I saw too much in you
I saw too much in “us” to ever notice I wasn’t enough for you nor for me.
And that’s okay because I no longer want to be.
WordsFromTheSoul // I hope she is everything you need since I couldn’t be.
Sep 30, 2020
Sep 30, 2020 at 1:09 AM UTC