Winterwolf - Hello Poetry

Alone in the silence and alone in the pain The words that I think and the thoughts I long to say Everything is gone but yet it's still the same How I need you here but knowing you didn't stay But I think that I'm used to it now, the way people never stay How I can love someone deeply, yet they still walk away But thanks to you, I don't recognize myself in the mirror like i used to I feel so empty and cold, and my light and joy have gone too But that's the thing about trust, that's the thing about love Once you lose both, you will never be the same

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Mar 31, 2025

Mar 31, 2025 at 3:19 AM UTC

Winterwolf

Alone again, alone like always

Alone in the silence and alone in the pain The words that I think and the thoughts I long to say Everything is gone but yet it's still the same How I need you here but knowing you didn't stay But I think that I'm used to it now, the way people never stay How I can love someone deeply, yet they still walk away But thanks to you, I don't recognize myself in the mirror like i used to I feel so empty and cold, and my light and joy have gone too But that's the thing about trust, that's the thing about love Once you lose both, you will never be the same

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The day starts like any other day. I wake up and am ready for another boring yet stressful day at work. But when I walk to the road, get in my car and start it, I see the passenger door open. And Death sits down and closes the door. And as he closes it, he turns to me and says, “No need to start the car, it’s time to go.” It takes me a minute to process that after all this time Death is finally here and that he wants me. A little shaken I turn to face him, and through tears I tell him, “I’ve waited for you for so long. Every night I have longed for you but you never came. Why did you wait so long? I tried everything, I gave everything for you, but you never showed. Why-” I stop as my voice starts to break. And that's when I feel death's warm arms around me and to my surprise I feel his tears stinging my face. “I was there all of those nights. Every night that you cried and called out to me I was there. I longed to embrace you, to welcome you home, but that I could not do. For every time that I tried to get near to you, the angels would attack me and cast me away. But I am here now. I am here for you and I will never leave you. Please come with me, and please, do not look back.” Death pulls back as he slowly reaches for my hand. And without a second thought, I reach for it. Since then and for eternity, I am Death’s and Death is mine.

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Mar 5, 2025

Mar 5, 2025 at 4:28 AM UTC

Winterwolf

The Day I Meet Death

The day starts like any other day. I wake up and am ready for another boring yet stressful day at work. But when I walk to the road, get in my car and start it, I see the passenger door open. And Death sits down and closes the door. And as he closes it, he turns to me and says, “No need to start the car, it’s time to go.” It takes me a minute to process that after all this time Death is finally here and that he wants me. A little shaken I turn to face him, and through tears I tell him, “I’ve waited for you for so long. Every night I have longed for you but you never came. Why did you wait so long? I tried everything, I gave everything for you, but you never showed. Why-” I stop as my voice starts to break. And that's when I feel death's warm arms around me and to my surprise I feel his tears stinging my face. “I was there all of those nights. Every night that you cried and called out to me I was there. I longed to embrace you, to welcome you home, but that I could not do. For every time that I tried to get near to you, the angels would attack me and cast me away. But I am here now. I am here for you and I will never leave you. Please come with me, and please, do not look back.” Death pulls back as he slowly reaches for my hand. And without a second thought, I reach for it. Since then and for eternity, I am Death’s and Death is mine.

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I want to hold you To feel your gentle embrace As you tell me I can make it that I can win this race But yet you aren't here and maybe you'll never be And I can no longer ask If you would come comfort me

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Mar 5, 2025

Mar 5, 2025 at 4:21 AM UTC

Winterwolf

I wish you were here

I want to hold you To feel your gentle embrace As you tell me I can make it that I can win this race But yet you aren't here and maybe you'll never be And I can no longer ask If you would come comfort me

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It knocks a little louder every night And every night my heart longs to answer But I know that I must win this fight And ignore all its tactics But deep down inside I know That it will accept me as I am But I know that if i do go I will never come back to that spot So from this moment forward until I die There is one thing that I have to do The one thing that I have to decide Is will I answer the door tonight

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Mar 5, 2025

Mar 5, 2025 at 4:14 AM UTC

Winterwolf

Death is at my Door

It knocks a little louder every night And every night my heart longs to answer But I know that I must win this fight And ignore all its tactics But deep down inside I know That it will accept me as I am But I know that if i do go I will never come back to that spot So from this moment forward until I die There is one thing that I have to do The one thing that I have to decide Is will I answer the door tonight

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I sit here and I think about what happened. The pain that I felt. The betrayal that flowed through my skin. Anger started to bubble, it started to burn until I became a living fire. The fire was unstoppable because I knew that I could overcome the world. The strength of this fire sparked my inner energy. It let me become someone that I had to always shove down deep inside the walls woven in my skin. The walls that took me a long time to build. Each day would go by and with it the energy and the time to build those fire proof walls. I built those walls because I knew that I would need them someday. I knew that I needed to be stronger than the fire I would build. I had to experiment time after time and each time I did the fire burned too much. Then finally I did not care about the fire that burned within. I did not care that it ripped through my veins and filled up the rest of myself. It melted the walls and broke down all of my nerves until they were in submission not to feel anything. Not to feel pain, but only the fire that burned within, the fire that burned them.

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Mar 5, 2025

Mar 5, 2025 at 4:09 AM UTC

Winterwolf

Anger Is a Burning Fire

I sit here and I think about what happened. The pain that I felt. The betrayal that flowed through my skin. Anger started to bubble, it started to burn until I became a living fire. The fire was unstoppable because I knew that I could overcome the world. The strength of this fire sparked my inner energy. It let me become someone that I had to always shove down deep inside the walls woven in my skin. The walls that took me a long time to build. Each day would go by and with it the energy and the time to build those fire proof walls. I built those walls because I knew that I would need them someday. I knew that I needed to be stronger than the fire I would build. I had to experiment time after time and each time I did the fire burned too much. Then finally I did not care about the fire that burned within. I did not care that it ripped through my veins and filled up the rest of myself. It melted the walls and broke down all of my nerves until they were in submission not to feel anything. Not to feel pain, but only the fire that burned within, the fire that burned them.

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The things in my mind are starting to break me down once again. And I do not know how much longer I can keep trying to fight them. Because every day that I try to fight then they keep getting stronger and I keep getting weaker. They are binding me to the wall, and breaking me apart. And I am tired of trying to break the chains that they have put on me. They are impossible to break, and they have always been. I don't even know why I ever tried to fight them. I don't know why I didn't give up a long time ago. That would be better than believing that they will break. It would have been better than to waste my strength to break something that is impossible to break. Because they are cutting off my circulation and it's getting really hard to move. Because they are cutting me every time I try to take them off. And I am losing blood and I feel so weak that I cannot even stand. I can barely even breathe. And now I am stuck on the floor crying and breaking into pieces. And the thing is there is no one that can help me break free. Because once they do, I am a lost cause. The damage and the pain will be too much for me to bear. The blood that I have lost will be too much. And I don't even know if I could ever move on. Because the strength that I once had, the resilience I grew, is all gone. So if someone ever helped me they would have to watch me die anyways.And I cannot have them watch that. Can’t have them watch the light slowly fade and see the haunted look in my eyes as the things that happened slowly consume me. They would have to watch the hope leave my face and the look upon my red bloodshot eyes from all the nights of fighting. All the nights of being up so late trying to keep breathing and not to give up. And they would have me watch me take my last breath. And I have a feeling that they would blame themselves. Though I was a lost cause ever since I turned 12. I have long been defeated. I just had to hold on a little longer. I had to give you hope that you could break free. Because I know that you can. So I wish you luck and the life that I will never get to live. Have the smile that it took me a while to fake, have the breath that I no longer have, and see the bright future that I longed for. So live your life because it is precious. It is worth it, and I wish that I could have joined you and watched you grow and flourish. But it is far too late. If only I could turn back time and not let the chains get a hold of me. Not let the pain trap me. But wishes are useless. As I have learned this time after time. I've wished on so many stars but to no avail. I cried out to God, but he didn't answer. I asked Death to take me, but he never came, I asked to be loved, but even love despised me. So I am sitting here in the empty cold silence as my mind gets quieter, until I can no longer hear the blood thumping in my ears. Until I can no longer see you, until my vision gets blurry and everything disappears for the last time. But live on, move on, forget me. I was never meant to be here. I was never meant to be given the breath in my lungs, the blood in my veins, and the smile on my lips. Carry on as if you had never heard about me. As if I was never in your life. That is the only thing that I ask of you. Because we all know that is the best thing that you can do. It is the only thing you should do. Because the more you hold onto the what ifs, the worse off you'll be. Until you end up like me. Where the only way that you could ever be free is to let go and say goodbye. And that is a place that you never want to be at. Because the pain will eat you alive, the doubts and the wishing will make you so weak that you won't be able to fight back. And your mind can't think clearly anymore. Your mind will be so confused and blurry that you won't be able to find your way out. And then pretty soon there will be no way to get out.

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Mar 5, 2025

Mar 5, 2025 at 4:07 AM UTC

Winterwolf

Hold On Just A Little Longer

The things in my mind are starting to break me down once again. And I do not know how much longer I can keep trying to fight them. Because every day that I try to fight then they keep getting stronger and I keep getting weaker. They are binding me to the wall, and breaking me apart. And I am tired of trying to break the chains that they have put on me. They are impossible to break, and they have always been. I don't even know why I ever tried to fight them. I don't know why I didn't give up a long time ago. That would be better than believing that they will break. It would have been better than to waste my strength to break something that is impossible to break. Because they are cutting off my circulation and it's getting really hard to move. Because they are cutting me every time I try to take them off. And I am losing blood and I feel so weak that I cannot even stand. I can barely even breathe. And now I am stuck on the floor crying and breaking into pieces. And the thing is there is no one that can help me break free. Because once they do, I am a lost cause. The damage and the pain will be too much for me to bear. The blood that I have lost will be too much. And I don't even know if I could ever move on. Because the strength that I once had, the resilience I grew, is all gone. So if someone ever helped me they would have to watch me die anyways.And I cannot have them watch that. Can’t have them watch the light slowly fade and see the haunted look in my eyes as the things that happened slowly consume me. They would have to watch the hope leave my face and the look upon my red bloodshot eyes from all the nights of fighting. All the nights of being up so late trying to keep breathing and not to give up. And they would have me watch me take my last breath. And I have a feeling that they would blame themselves. Though I was a lost cause ever since I turned 12. I have long been defeated. I just had to hold on a little longer. I had to give you hope that you could break free. Because I know that you can. So I wish you luck and the life that I will never get to live. Have the smile that it took me a while to fake, have the breath that I no longer have, and see the bright future that I longed for. So live your life because it is precious. It is worth it, and I wish that I could have joined you and watched you grow and flourish. But it is far too late. If only I could turn back time and not let the chains get a hold of me. Not let the pain trap me. But wishes are useless. As I have learned this time after time. I've wished on so many stars but to no avail. I cried out to God, but he didn't answer. I asked Death to take me, but he never came, I asked to be loved, but even love despised me. So I am sitting here in the empty cold silence as my mind gets quieter, until I can no longer hear the blood thumping in my ears. Until I can no longer see you, until my vision gets blurry and everything disappears for the last time. But live on, move on, forget me. I was never meant to be here. I was never meant to be given the breath in my lungs, the blood in my veins, and the smile on my lips. Carry on as if you had never heard about me. As if I was never in your life. That is the only thing that I ask of you. Because we all know that is the best thing that you can do. It is the only thing you should do. Because the more you hold onto the what ifs, the worse off you'll be. Until you end up like me. Where the only way that you could ever be free is to let go and say goodbye. And that is a place that you never want to be at. Because the pain will eat you alive, the doubts and the wishing will make you so weak that you won't be able to fight back. And your mind can't think clearly anymore. Your mind will be so confused and blurry that you won't be able to find your way out. And then pretty soon there will be no way to get out.

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Its like everywhere that I look, I can see the faint outline of death herself And every time I see her, She looks welcoming but lonely. I get the feeling that I am meant to give her company, Like we were made for each other. But every time she stretches her arm out toward me I go to grasp it and hold on But she fades before I can hold her hand Before I can touch it And there I am back in the endless chaos of my life

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Dec 26, 2024

Dec 26, 2024 at 12:56 PM UTC

Winterwolf

Would She Want Me

Its like everywhere that I look, I can see the faint outline of death herself And every time I see her, She looks welcoming but lonely. I get the feeling that I am meant to give her company, Like we were made for each other. But every time she stretches her arm out toward me I go to grasp it and hold on But she fades before I can hold her hand Before I can touch it And there I am back in the endless chaos of my life

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Every night they get louder Telling me everything I’ve done wrong I can't stop them, though I’ve tried I’ve tried to ignore them Tried to silence them But they keep getting worse The first few nights my mind took control It would only bring up the memories And a few put downs But then it kept getting worse It got just a little worse I would cry for hours into the night But now… It’s declining rapidly I can’t stop shaking I can’t stop crying The memories are getting worse The things they’ve said What they’ve done The people that have left And the thoughts that I am thinking I can’t stop them anymore “Just think, “ they start “Just a few seconds too late “ you forget to break in time.” Or they say ,” you have them upstairs “Don’t you? “Just a few wouldn’t hurt” But sometimes it’s worse “Don't watch the light. “It doesn't matter what color it is, just go” They are getting harder to ignore I can’t do this every night I can’t sleep The thoughts, they are too much I can’t stop ******* shaking My stomach is so tense I just long for peace I long for the sweet embrace of death For I know she’ll welcome me And pull me into a warm but cold embrace And I’ll never be alone again I'll be safe I'll be home

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Dec 26, 2024

Dec 26, 2024 at 12:54 PM UTC

Winterwolf

I Long To be Home

Every night they get louder Telling me everything I’ve done wrong I can't stop them, though I’ve tried I’ve tried to ignore them Tried to silence them But they keep getting worse The first few nights my mind took control It would only bring up the memories And a few put downs But then it kept getting worse It got just a little worse I would cry for hours into the night But now… It’s declining rapidly I can’t stop shaking I can’t stop crying The memories are getting worse The things they’ve said What they’ve done The people that have left And the thoughts that I am thinking I can’t stop them anymore “Just think, “ they start “Just a few seconds too late “ you forget to break in time.” Or they say ,” you have them upstairs “Don’t you? “Just a few wouldn’t hurt” But sometimes it’s worse “Don't watch the light. “It doesn't matter what color it is, just go” They are getting harder to ignore I can’t do this every night I can’t sleep The thoughts, they are too much I can’t stop ******* shaking My stomach is so tense I just long for peace I long for the sweet embrace of death For I know she’ll welcome me And pull me into a warm but cold embrace And I’ll never be alone again I'll be safe I'll be home

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Their voices surround me from everywhere It feels like they are calling to me “We’ll help you.” they swear Please just listen to us and you will see Their voices are so gentle and soft The touch soft and soothing Its is like the sun melting the frost So warm like fire that I had been refusing In an instant I opened up and let them in Then a fire started to burn inside me And I started to feel evil rising from within And that's when my eyes started to see I saw the creatures for who they really were And the vileness that they hid And everything in me began to stir And in an instant I slid And I was gone

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Sep 5, 2024

Sep 5, 2024 at 7:38 PM UTC

Winterwolf

They buried me

Their voices surround me from everywhere It feels like they are calling to me “We’ll help you.” they swear Please just listen to us and you will see Their voices are so gentle and soft The touch soft and soothing Its is like the sun melting the frost So warm like fire that I had been refusing In an instant I opened up and let them in Then a fire started to burn inside me And I started to feel evil rising from within And that's when my eyes started to see I saw the creatures for who they really were And the vileness that they hid And everything in me began to stir And in an instant I slid And I was gone

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The laughter that comes From my mouth seems strange The smile that shows on My mouth seems staged My thoughts are locked Inside a dimension So deep that is is So rarely mentioned The people that see The words of this book Pretend to have compassion But never a second look If you wonder if these words From every line Really comes from my heart Or they are just lies Why do I respond with the Same exact word When I say that I am Always good The things you think about me Seem remarkably true But really the truth Is hidden without a clue

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Sep 5, 2024

Sep 5, 2024 at 10:30 AM UTC

Winterwolf

The Truth

The laughter that comes From my mouth seems strange The smile that shows on My mouth seems staged My thoughts are locked Inside a dimension So deep that is is So rarely mentioned The people that see The words of this book Pretend to have compassion But never a second look If you wonder if these words From every line Really comes from my heart Or they are just lies Why do I respond with the Same exact word When I say that I am Always good The things you think about me Seem remarkably true But really the truth Is hidden without a clue

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