I wake up in bed
but I'm still in a dream.
Trying to excape,
what I just can't face.
I'm trapped in my head,
where everything is not what it seems.
It feels so real these words take shape.
Not sure what to make,
of this one-two mistake.
Trying to erase,
the times I couldn't be brave.
When I couldn't save,
the me I couldn't become.
When I was just too young.
I couldn't understand.
Why.
It was already too late.
Oct 28, 2021
Oct 28, 2021 at 10:37 PM UTC
As I look into the mirror
I see a world that wasn't meant to be.
A place in which I can't understand.
Fingers without hands,
a one man band
and a mountain of sand.
A world not so bland.
Time just stops,
a door unlocks.
Hopscotch in the rain,
with water flowing down the drain.
Anything but mundane.
A walk in the park
without light in the dark.
A world with no unease
where no one disagrees
but no one sees.
Oct 18, 2021
Oct 18, 2021 at 2:00 AM UTC
In front of me is a wall.
I know not how tall it is.
Nor can I see or feel it.
Yet I can sense its presence.
It follows me everywhere I go always one step in front of me.
It has been there ever since the day I was born.
I just didn't realize until I did.
It is the main cause of all my pain, suffering and lack of motivation.
It is seemingly unbreakable.
Sep 7, 2021
Sep 7, 2021 at 8:04 PM UTC
I don't remember
many memories of comfort,
or maybe I'm just biased
since I forget how it is,
the time it ends
It's exhausting.
Jun 18, 2021
Jun 18, 2021 at 6:28 AM UTC
Love will forever be my greatest distraction.
Jun 18, 2021
Jun 18, 2021 at 5:02 AM UTC
If I had to describe life in three words.
Pain and distractions.
Jun 18, 2021
Jun 18, 2021 at 5:01 AM UTC
Sometimes I wish I
could run away from my mind.
I might not be fine.
Any longer, don't
think I can get stronger.
I can't find my shine.
Jun 7, 2021
Jun 7, 2021 at 5:38 AM UTC
The one who once smiled.
Now no longer, only frowns. Asking
me why he can't be.
Jun 3, 2021
Jun 3, 2021 at 3:12 AM UTC
Deep down in the cave.
On the walls displayed
was a message engraved.
Of the people betrayed.
Many were enslaved.
Looks of dismay.
They needed a way.
To see a world that wasn't so gray.
May 14, 2021
May 14, 2021 at 3:50 AM UTC
I'm laughing at myself.
The pain I was dealt.
From the board, the rod and the belt.
The time I spent in the dark.
Cast away far apart.
In my mind blurred.
Many times unheard.
The hours I wasted.
The ways I debated.
The words I couldn't convey.
The days that washed away.
Knowing there's no I'm okay.
I'm waiting every day.
Just to say.
Maybe today.
May 12, 2021
May 12, 2021 at 2:46 AM UTC