"Dear God,
Why am I alive?
And why is it that I hate myself so,
So, much?
And my mom,
Does she even love me?"
Poor little girl,
Stuck trying to figure out,
An answer she'll never get.
Little girl,
With so much attitude,
But she hates it.
"I can't get rid of my attitude,
No matter how hard I try."
The tough girl,
With so much pride,
Can cry more tears than a baby would,
For a whole year,
She could cry more in a minute.
Silently screaming, crying, laughing,
.
At how pitiful she is.
How her every thought was,
"Why am I here?
What would life be like, if I was never born?"
And in every thought,
Tears would come gushing out,
Along with the sharp pain she felt, deep in her heart.
The little girl with daddy issues, and very unstable bond with her mom, she waits silently for her rose red beating heart to come
To a full complete stop .
Nov 28, 2017
Nov 28, 2017 at 8:07 PM UTC
My body is heavy,
with weights tied to my feet
slowly sinking in the bottomless sea.
Every now and then,
I dream a dream,
where the weights on my feet weighed none.
And I can feel unfathomable entity on my back.
In an instant, I'm in the sky.
Flying so high that the sea where I was drowning was
far off the limits my naked eye can see-
However
.
.
.
The sky is embracing me.
Making me forget the pain of being pinned down by weights,
and being brought down in the bottomless sea.
The sky which is limitless, is holding my body as the air is brushing the hair on my cheeks to the back of my beet red ear.
My face,
I can feel warmth flowing down my rose red cheeks.
Praying to god that this dream never ends,
nor will I ever have to go back to the body which is sinking in the bottomless sea.
Nov 7, 2017
Nov 7, 2017 at 11:44 AM UTC
It's been fourteen years since the fire in my eyes started to ignite.
Everyday is a different battles that I have to fight.
Words are the guns that would **** me if used right.
'Lil ol me would never put up a fight.
So of a sand bag taking punches,
Every punch being taken rips the bag , letting presious sand flow out.
Being a new solider in war where veterans surround and judge your every move,
will constantly break you down.
Pushed around for not knowing better.
To be used until your no longer useful.
Sooner or later the fire burning in my eyes, will die out.
My will is what keeps it alive, but once it runs out
You'll never hear a sound escape from my mouth.
Oct 24, 2017
Oct 24, 2017 at 4:37 PM UTC
My love for you
It's hideous
You are an angel from above
I'm the devil from below
You never would've notice me
And probably never should
But you see I'm as greedy as the devil
I will want more than given
You who are the light
Is bright for me in the dark
I wish for you to love me
And be able to be your equal
But I should have never crossed your path
I dirtied the light
Something like me should've never touched
You screamed to my face yelling
Go away
Maybe if I died will that soothe your pain?
I should grant your wish
Maybe then you will think of me more
I just hope you know that I love you
And that I'm a disgrace
I took your wings and bounded you
I know for a fact that it will heal
You beautiful wings will once again appear
Don't worry I'm nothing compared to you
My death will be nothing but a lullaby to you
I wish you good luck with life and all
I love you so much that I will fall for your part
You can fly once again that's all that matters
I would give my life to see yours fly higher
I love you so much and that does not matter
As long as you succeed in life is all that matters
So I bid you goodbye forever
Now I will forever be nothing but a forgotten memory.
Oct 19, 2017
Oct 19, 2017 at 6:39 PM UTC
I love dancing with the summer breeze.
It makes me feel free.
Every step I take,
Is like flying through skies on a sunny day.
also the sand loves to ****** my feet.
They never seem to want to leave.
The sun hugs me constantly,
While surrounding me with warmth.
Jul 10, 2017
Jul 10, 2017 at 12:48 PM UTC
I can't resist you,
So how could I forget you?
I'm a devoted women
and I'm saving myself for you.
I feel so good even ecstasy can't compare when I met you.
I can't take this wait, so please
hurry up and come fetch me.
Jul 4, 2017
Jul 4, 2017 at 12:03 PM UTC
An enteral melody,
Putting many to sleep.
Those who hear it never wake up.
A melody so lovely,
It will put all your stress to rest.
The melody is so beautiful,
most people rush to hear it.
It can be heard anywhere, anytime, no matter
what your statuse in life.
A melody so graceful,
It puts you to an enteral sleep.
Jul 4, 2017
Jul 4, 2017 at 11:43 AM UTC
Born into life,
I automatically become a soldier.
I'm foreced to fight both everyone including myself.
No one wanted join this fight,
But we must continue what we started.
Although it means going to hell,
We still fight in wars when all it could take
Is a peaceful treaty to untie the whole world.
Jul 4, 2017
Jul 4, 2017 at 11:38 AM UTC
"We" are aging.
"We" are slowly losing everything
That we hold dear to us.
"We" love people who "We" cannot reach.
"We" make the wrong choices,
But "We" don't stop taking
The wrong path.
Sooner or later "We" will regret the
choices "We" made.
"We" never pay attention to what's really important.
"We" will soon pay the price of the debt "We"
Need to repay.
Jul 4, 2017
Jul 4, 2017 at 11:33 AM UTC
Piano music all through the air,
Like a cool summer breeze from the ocean shore.
In front of your eyes is a girl,
She dances gracefully and silently.
Joining in,
You grab her hand.
Dancing through,
The feeling is unimaginable.
You feel like you're flying with her,
Soaring through the sky.
She leaves you speechless.
Like magician she vanishes in thin air.
In your heart,
You're secretly begging for more.
Jul 4, 2017
Jul 4, 2017 at 11:27 AM UTC