VeraAnneWolf
F/Between Ink Stained Pages
Half awake but still dreaming—the zombie found her pen again. / Most of my poems are lyrics, I wish that you could hear the music. / [All the poems on this page are my sole property and should not be copied or used without my express consent.]
***
I know this pain
Kiss me again
We’ve died a thousand times before
Don’t let it be in vain.
The fires burn
The sky bleeds black
I’ve said a thousand hurtful things
I wish I could take back.
I’ll wait for you
Beneath death’s river.
Come find me love
Come make me shiver.
I only lived while dreaming
I only died while still awake.
I’m done with paying
For my heart’s mistake.
So give me hell
I’ll burn it down.
They took everything from me
I’ll take the crown.
To hell with gods, karma and fate.
I’m still here standing,
it’s not too late.
I know this voice
He calls my name
I lived a thousand times before
To play this game.
My armors light
This blade feels true
I’ll slay a thousand different worlds
To reclaim you.
©vera_anne_wolf
Apr 6, 2019
Apr 6, 2019 at 11:15 AM UTC
If I could collect every negative thought you ever had about me.
I would blow them away like a dandelion wish.
Apr 5, 2019
Apr 5, 2019 at 12:18 PM UTC
***
My life is stitched together
by the battles I can’t win.
I tear myself to pieces
Just so I can still fit in.
Their all holding candles
while I light this twig on fire.
I swear it smells like roses
but their calling me a liar.
It doesn’t make sense, anymore.
Tell me to please you, tell me how?
I can’t do this anymore
Cause I’m losing myself now.
And when you've stripped me bare
Of every piece that once was true.
Can I be happy? How can I be happy?
Living my life now as you...
I’m following the markers
On the floor, my feet step in.
The strings keep me perfected
As their pull against my skin.
I'm trying not to feel, not to think,
And not to dream.
If I cry, the makeup’s ruined
And my corset bursts a seam.
But am I even breathing?
Am I living? Am I dead?
And who is the person
That’s is living in my head?
And when you've stripped me bare
Of every piece that once was true.
Can I be happy? How can I be happy?
Living my life now as you...
©vera_anne_wolf
Apr 5, 2019
Apr 5, 2019 at 12:04 PM UTC
Beside a full size bed,
full of destiny and dream,
a corpse dressed up
to fit among
the living, softly sleeps.
Carving sAl(i)vAtiOn in black
marker on the walls,
recounting upset memories,
I stick the landing.
I didn't plan to stay
In this depressive state,
but I'm fully equipped.
Adaptable to necessity,
without trying to fit.
I may be sad, reclusive,
virulent at my worst --
When will you
come to terms with this curse?
When will you learn
it's best
you be
who you
need?
When will you
fall in love with this curse?
When will you learn,
there's plenty room
for the misfit?
Apr 4, 2019
Apr 4, 2019 at 9:47 PM UTC
***
Chasing my last breath
I wait here in the dark
To unleash the creature
You trapped inside my heart.
Echoes and memories
Fall from my bleeding eyes
I’m stronger than this pain
My words are only lies.
Never was a moment
That stole my frozen heart.
I saw you in a moment
And it was just the start.
Kingdoms have fallen
Before my very breath
But you woke the boy that
I thought I could forget.
Though Angels have faltered
To walk these very steps
I followed my heart
Into its darkest depths.
And you were there waiting
Your eyes of Amethyst fire.
I lost in that moment
You trapped me with desire.
Now Never has broken
The promise that I gave.
I hold you broken
Forever still a slave.
Kingdoms will crumble
Before I let you go
The light in your eyes fade
and that is when I know.
Chasing my last breath
I wait here in the dark
To unleash the creature
You trapped inside my heart.
Torment and anguish
Fall from my bleeding eyes.
I say that I’ll forgive them
My words are only lies.
©vera_anne_wolf
Apr 4, 2019
Apr 4, 2019 at 5:16 PM UTC
***
We’re all in the same Hell now...
The swindlers, the believers,
The cowards, and the leaders.
We’re all in the same Hell now...
Welcome to reality,
Welcome to reality.
It’s nothing personal
You were born mortal.
Heaven watches from the skies
But Hell waits beneath the lies.
What are you going to do?
When you stand and face
The life you chose.
What excuse will you impose?
The devils are laughing
as they welcome you.
They once believed that
they were special too.
(But)
We’re all in the same Hell now...
The ****** the healers,
The judges, and the killers.
We’re all in the same Hell now....
Welcome to reality,
Welcome to reality.
What are you doing with your life?
What are you doing with your life?
Flash back to Sixteen years
Did you relish in their tears?
What’s waiting for you when you die?
What’s waiting for you when you die?
Rich or poor, we don’t care,
The weight on sin will find you here.
Did you really think that
Doing some good things
Would hide all the stains
On your grubby little hands?
(Ha!)
We’re all in the same Hell now...
The victims, the abusers,
The winners, and the losers.
We’re all in the same Hell now...
Welcome to reality,
Welcome to reality.
Wake up! Your not dead.
Get up from your bed.
We’re still waiting,
We’re still laughing,
We’re still watching you.
©vera_anne_wolf
Apr 4, 2019
Apr 4, 2019 at 12:22 PM UTC
...
Mark me with your teachings
In the dark place of my mind.
Hallowed by the seasons
Only hatred you will find.
You burned me for your pleasure
Melted flesh from off my bones.
Only to find that I’m immortal
And there’s no way left to atone.
’Cause the Devil’s got a hold of me
I’m a wicked thing can’t you see.
Let’s not talk about conspiracy
You’ve been playing wicked games on me.
You paint me as a demon
A wayward child of the night.
Just to silence the true reason
I have fallen to this plight.
You paid highly for the pleasure
Of consuming flesh and sin.
Now you’re poisoned by the toxins
That have nurtured deep within.
‘Cause the Devil’s got a hold of me
I’m a wicked thing can’t you see.
Let’s not talk about conspiracy
You’ve been playing wicked games on me.
Hush now sweet one
Don’t you cry
If a witch should look you
In the eye...
©vera_anne_wolf
Apr 3, 2019
Apr 3, 2019 at 5:14 PM UTC
***
Told you what I was making
You said I must be faking.
Why must we speak
With razors on our teeth.
Thought that I could be flying
You said I should stop trying
Weigh me down
With all your misery.
We never get along
Yet somehow we fit.
I tried to shake you off
You must admit.
Don’t challenge me now
I’m done with it.
If this is a game
then we should quit.
Told you that I was breaking
You said I must be faking.
Why must we speak
With razors on our teeth.
Thought that I could be dying
You said I wasn’t trying.
Let me drown
In all my misery.
©vera_anne_wolf
Apr 3, 2019
Apr 3, 2019 at 2:13 PM UTC
...
Shame falls like petals
Onto your pillow again…
Writhing in anger
Need fills you up from within…
There’s no one to take the blame now
You stumbled your way here somehow.
But Queens rise from ashes
With scars on their hearts.
The fear in you scratches
Doubt tears you apart.
So you put on your armor
Like a diamond Seraphim.
You know they can’t break you…
You were already broken.
Grief comes like a shadow
Filling your footsteps with pain…
Why would they betray you?
They knew you were destined to win…
There’s no one to take your hand now
You tripped at the threshold somehow.
But Queens rise from ashes
When the world falls apart.
Your innocence smashes
Against their frozen hearts.
So you put on your armor
Like a diamond Seraphim.
You know they can’t break you…
You wish they could break through!
But no one can save you…when
You’re already broken.
©vera_anne_wolf
Apr 3, 2019
Apr 3, 2019 at 10:16 AM UTC
***
My mind is a typewriter
Stringing letters into words,
Words into thoughts,
Thoughts into actions.
Until the day
you took a hammer
Shattered the keys
And left my mind
A Broken pile
A Chaotic mess
Unable to recover.
While you moved on easily
With all my reassurances
That I would be just fine.
Somehow—
despite the cracked
and missing letters—
You believed
every
broken
word.
©vera_anne_wolf
Apr 2, 2019
Apr 2, 2019 at 9:11 PM UTC