Lately it's seemed
like nothing could go right.
First: work, my dogs health, paying bills,
all leading up to the big fight.
My mothers divorce,
my brother depression,
the holiday season
when I miss my dad most.
My own depression and anxiety.
It was a lot to take in.
But the turning point
was the Storm
that occured 2 nights ago.
The storm, itself, wasn't bad,
I find peace within myself
when weather gets like that.
But walking outside,
The next morning,
to my car- to see
my front yard tree
Laying on the ground,
Perfectly horizontally.
Dead.
So many things rushed to my mind.
I have to move it,
I'll need help.
I'll have to cut it apart
To take it to the dump.
I'm tired,
I'm stressed
now I have this...
I was positive this was my breaking point.
This is where I would cry,
and doubt,
and possibly stop trying...
But the first thing to come
out of my mouth:
Laughter,
A smirk,
A deep breath.
And then I walked forward,
Embracing it.
Life happens, it *****
But I refuse to let it take away my happiness.
One step at a time,
I'll get through this.
And I'll keep being happy,
No matter what gets in my way.
Nov 4, 2018
Nov 4, 2018 at 8:49 PM UTC