Spinning and swirling
round n' round I go
crumbling to the floor as my walls begin to break
my stomach churns as ***** threatens to rise
hot tears come pouring down
my head feels like a hurricane
why am I like this?
why am I so broken?
old monsters are returning
pushing away the new ones
bringing back the ****** daggers that once stabbed at my skin
walls break inside my head
the air is thick and suffocating
nothing will stand still
nothing will let me breath
I'm overheating again
my body turning to fire
I can't breath
I'm tired of trying
I just want to lay here and rot away
let my world crumble
let my mind fall apart
let me turn to dust
help me stop...
Jul 28, 2020
Jul 28, 2020 at 1:50 PM UTC
Come find me
come search for my soul
I'm drowning in this sea of sorrows
numb from the cold
I feel nothing anymore
rainbows mean nothing to me
my life is a blur
I'm crumbling in the sea
Only you can find me
you have the key
throw me a life vest
and save me from the sea
May 18, 2017
May 18, 2017 at 2:01 AM UTC
hot tears run down pink cheeks
take a hammer to my head and a nail gun to my heart
make this headache go away
take away my pain
my reflection stares back at me through blurry eyes
confidence gone, it's as if my beauty has drained away
tears and a pink nose
no matter what, more and more tears come
I hate being in this depressed place
home,town and state
How can you ask me to stay with you
of course you'll find a way
and of course I'll find a way to stay
even if all I wish is to put a gun to my head
bang.bang.bang.
like 1,2,3 let me end my pain
on the next hour, I'll find a way
my throbbing temples wont let me forget
this everlasting pain
Feb 1, 2011
Feb 1, 2011 at 6:31 PM UTC
cold as ice
similar to his eyes
so shiny and bright
like a new toy it catches my eyes
chained to the wall
my wrists have heartbeats
his hungry eyes watch me
eager to devour the fear that wont show
as I hear the slice of the knife
followed by screams that chill him not me
why am I the one chained?
piercing screams don't bother me
Jan 18, 2011
Jan 18, 2011 at 5:03 PM UTC
Life doesn't always hand you lemons
like snowballs they can be thrown at your legs
Down on your knees you'll go,
because lemons are much harder than snowballs you know.
Crippling you for however long,
this harsh act forces you to crawl.
Don't expect a wheelchair, there wont be one for you.
We all crawled at one point or another
a past lesson; a past stepping stone on how to walk
if you can remember,which I doubt you can
crawling was much easier then.
Back then you weren't use to standing on your feet.
But for whatever reason life decided to chunk a lemon your way
knock you down in the middle of the road,
then run off like some silly little girl, all the while laughing of course
Life chose you.
You with your habit of bad luck and terrible morning breath...
Keep your head up when you start crawl, if not you'll miss the ladder.
As one of life's wonderful attempts to keep you down
just keep going, keep moving forward and when you see that ladder...
don't climb it.
Use it to stand back up
then hunt down a brand new lemon squeezer,
cause I can guarantee life 'misplaced' your last one...
on purpose of course.
Dec 28, 2010
Dec 28, 2010 at 6:49 PM UTC
As the sun sets
sinking down
only to rise on the opposite side
forming someones light
setting the stage for the stars
I realize..
I don't need you approval
you've shot me down for the last time
If nothing I show you is right
that doesn't mean its wrong
my work is still wonderful
I am still beautiful
after the scars you've left in my wing
like the sun I'll rise again
facing the arrow of judgment that is your words
no matter how much they sting or burn
I'll forever spread my wings
to rise constantly with the sun.
Dec 28, 2010
Dec 28, 2010 at 5:28 PM UTC
Mom..mom..mom...
mom!
no response....not even a head tilt
dont fool yourself kid
save your breath
she'll hear the whiskey before she hears you
don't give me that look
and don't even start to ask why
at least she's cook'n dinner
and so far have'n a good time
just let her be
go to your room and play
if you need anything I'm here
close your eyes and open your ears
listen to my words deep inside your mind.
Dec 28, 2010
Dec 28, 2010 at 5:10 PM UTC
Terrified of my fate
Here I go down this broken road
Step after Step
So far so good
It always starts out that way
Sooner or later they find the real you
Like staring into those dreaded mirrors
multiply x5
Up close may look nice
Far away might look good
Middle ground always seems awkward
The worst of you always seem to show
If it's meant to be it will
Unflattering words to the ear
I don't really enjoy this broken road
Pieces of my heart mixed with the dirt
The things I do for you
Everyone puts their heart on the line
Especially when you see what you want
So here is mine.
Nov 29, 2010
Nov 29, 2010 at 6:33 PM UTC
a depressed moon
paired with sad stars
they fall like tears
misunderstood icy wind
he's not cold hearted
just can't comfort like the sun
but my lips are blue
my toes freezing cold
because of the wind
I can't even feel my nose
but I love the way he brushes against my arms
sends chills down my spin
and send tears down my eyes
like falling stars
Nov 18, 2010
Nov 18, 2010 at 10:30 PM UTC
This is my resolution
sick of this cage you've put me in
never even saw the bars till now
cold iron bars
I find my dusty soapbox
it's stained with blood and tears
with shaky knees I stand
the view is different up here
you seem so small and I so tall
will you listen to me now?
my head rises with hope and courage
I hold the key to my cage.
My resolution set me free.
Nov 14, 2010
Nov 14, 2010 at 1:11 PM UTC