Oh how unexpected
And unprepared I turned out to be
Never did I imagine me,
My mothers “wild child”
The life of every party
To be graced with your tiny presence
But then so happened
You
I called you string-bean
In one week I was ready to change
My life
My financial choices
My habits
To make space for you
Though I may never hear your voice
Your tiny heart beat was enough
To stop my own
And as time may pass
I’ll forever look at your pictures and remember
I too had once been someone’s mother
Jun 4, 2023
Jun 4, 2023 at 3:58 AM UTC
Oh
How I cried
When I believed that time
Had stopped
For you
Now
These tears that graze
My face
Is for time
Wasted
May 4, 2023
May 4, 2023 at 7:45 PM UTC
Warm nights like this
Remind me of when I would watch you
Sit on the porch
And look at the sky
As she beckoned for your worries
To join her
I can see your sunken shoulders
As you sat there,
Setting your alarm to wake up
And cook us breakfast
Before we went to school
And you to work
Scrolling
Scrolling
6:00 am set
If you went to bed now
you would probably get 5 hours
You scratch your head
That started to pepper out years ago,
Yeah, its time for a cut
But little Charlie needs shoes and
Terry graduates this year
And don’t forget
soon it will be Mary’s quince
Maybe next month you mumble
I can smell you light your Newport
While you look back at the sky
And you know
To this day I could never tell
If it was the stars reflecting in your eyes
Or Tears
That reflected in your eyes.
Apr 3, 2023
Apr 3, 2023 at 10:22 PM UTC
It's so hard
To Forget
When you have
Yet to Forgive
And it's so hard
To Forgive
When you have
Yet to Forget.
Dec 12, 2021
Dec 12, 2021 at 10:54 PM UTC
I just need a break
A long break from everything
I am going through
I just want to breathe
and forget all my worries
and feel the fresh air
I just want to spend
Some time watching the blue sky
Some time with myself.
Nov 29, 2021
Nov 29, 2021 at 11:26 AM UTC
And as I looked into his eyes
I no longer could see my reflection
For his gaze held the silhouette
of Another
Aug 2, 2021
Aug 2, 2021 at 7:41 PM UTC
I think
That there is a child
Within me
Every time
I lay to rest
I hear her screams
Not to be forgotten
Not to be left behind
Although
No one hears her
But me
I guess no one listened hard enough
Dec 13, 2020
Dec 13, 2020 at 9:24 PM UTC
I have a love
Of whom I cannot call out too
How many times
Has my heart whispered
I love you
As you embraced me
I have said it in every language possible
Beyond English
So i can fight this urge of uttering
The words
You do not wish to hear
Despite your cold demeanor
And pushing me away
I love you
And yet
I cannot say it
For it is you whom I love
Nov 20, 2020
Nov 20, 2020 at 1:10 PM UTC
You got me right where you want
Me
The palm of your hand
But I’m ready to leave
You’re a boy
Not a man
And waiting for you to change
Is like counting grains of sand
You never fought for me
Because you’re a boy
Not a man
You never realize what you had
Until I let go of your hand
Your actions I begged for
To late for I realize
You’re a boy
Not a man
Oct 27, 2020
Oct 27, 2020 at 11:21 AM UTC
I can remember
Your smile
And yet worn eyes
As you burried yourself
In religion
And work
No mother nor rest
In sight
And as i continue
To live in this life
And wake up in the middle of
The night
I think I understand
How you went astray
Dad,
I really miss you
Oct 24, 2020
Oct 24, 2020 at 4:26 AM UTC