Eject me into space so I jet past Earth's Moon
Past Mars, Jupiter and Saturn
Past Uranus, Neptune and Pluto
Till I leave your Solar System and escape its Gravity
I am hurtling through space, through Galaxies burning fire and ice
Past Nebulas nursing your Stars into unfathomable life
I have felt the ripping of a Black Hole against my very being
I have seen seen Civilisations bloom and burn all at once
I have passed the edge of space into the unknown void that exists beyond your comprehension
And I have stared into the eyes of time itself and torn myself apart piece by piece till I am nothing more than what I started as
Nothing
So
I open my parachute and I stop
I am still and I float without reason or control
But I am still and I have stopped
I can breath
I have seen the greatest wonders of the Universe in the blink of an eye
Experienced the greatest fear and terror no-one has ever or could ever know
Known all there is to know and thought all there is to think and forgotten nothing
But I still missed you along the way
And I think of you now here in my room
Feb 9, 2022
Feb 9, 2022 at 8:58 PM UTC
When did the clouds last shower
And when did the sun last beam
When did the bee last soar
And when did the fox last strut
Time is a second, a minute and an hour
Time is a day, a month and a year
Time is a death, a birth and all that's inbetween
But time is a mystery when you are not near.
Oct 28, 2021
Oct 28, 2021 at 10:02 PM UTC
Been sad for a month now
And I don't really talk much anymore
A loud kid gone quiet
Blending in the crowd
Everything is a snarky comment
Everything is a jab in my side
Everything is a loss of me
I spend my nights alone
Hang-up those calls
Ignore those messages
I remove myself from the world
Lost in my own thoughts
To only fall harder for this loneliness I started in
I think it's my fear grabbing ahold of me
The fear of losing
The fear of failing
The fear of needing
The fear of letting go
And hurting
Hurting her
Hurting me
Hurting them
And losing myself some more
Jul 1, 2021
Jul 1, 2021 at 3:17 AM UTC
You left me too long ago
It doesn't hurt anymore
Well, maybe a little
But I hated you for it
All of it
I hated what you did and
I hated what you didn't do
I hated what you said and
I hated what you didn't say
I hated what you became and
I hated what you couldn't become
I hated it all
And I hate what you did to me
How you'd smile at me with those dimpled cheeks
How you'd look up at me with that love in your eyes
How you'd hold me when I needed holding
And how'd you kiss me when I needed kissing
I hate all of what you did
And loved every part of it
I just needed something to hate
Or I'd love you forever
Jul 1, 2021
Jul 1, 2021 at 3:16 AM UTC
You dropped out of view
Just over that low, low skyline
Where the roads travel further than my eyes can comprehend
Between rigid cliffs, where the tree does bloom
And the water bungees with snapped cords
Where the deer stride and the hare watches
Quietly for passing to come
Jun 26, 2021
Jun 26, 2021 at 6:37 AM UTC
Lost on the road that takes me home
Zebras pass me by though I still feel alone
Caught in a loop that goes round and round
Caught in a jail to which I'm bound
Eyes closed and right foot down
Hands stay steady but ready to drown
The night light beams on me like headlights
And then I'm home to continue lonely nights
Jun 25, 2021
Jun 25, 2021 at 9:42 AM UTC
I am dead
There is no pain
No sorrow
No nothing
Just me
My thoughts are what keep me company now,
Keep me warm
Not the flesh that once held me
But
They now fade away
With the gift that is life
Feb 5, 2021
Feb 5, 2021 at 4:04 PM UTC
Was I too friendly?
Seemed more like a brother?
Was I just your guy best friend?
Flirt but you didn't mean it
Just fun and games
A laugh back-and-forth
How was he different?
What did he do I didn't?
Was it his hair? His eyes? His smile?
His heart that you wanted?
I guess mine was too grey for you.
Jan 19, 2021
Jan 19, 2021 at 5:21 PM UTC
Only the silence of myself
Is what I do not hear
The noise of the sea
Lays at home in my head
I do not speak
For my thoughts would turn to words
And my words would be silent
For my mind is drowning
I wish for a comfort other than my own
And I hate to see it leave
The feeling of being held
Of holding someone
Is an intoxication of someone else's doing
So when I'm found
Hold me
Not too tight
And neither too soft
As I may burst
Or sink
Like the hull of my boat
Dec 5, 2020
Dec 5, 2020 at 5:36 PM UTC
As I lay sleeping soundly
The noise of you singing
It makes my dreams just dance away
I hear you whisper softly
Words I don't hear too often
You only take my breathe away
The burning moonlight pierces
Your veil of burning promises
Slowly takes your life away
And so your everlasting
Ever singing spinning
The moon takes it all away
Dec 4, 2020
Dec 4, 2020 at 12:43 PM UTC