Forgive me for this is the height of my selfishness, but I do not believe you.
I know of my fear, the high walls I have constructed out of will and anxiety.
Fortifications and towers of this mental stone, unending and reinforced.
You are a foreigner to these hilled lands, your weapons of words all falter and fail.
The gates won’t open to no crocodile tears; and once I’m gone, there shall be no lands left to conquer.
Feb 16
Feb 16, 2026 at 12:30 AM UTC
All I ever wanted, was to hold it.
It’s burning embrace I accept
ripping my body apart,
My mind hold strong
This is what I want.
It’s heat grows strong, my arms tire.
Must I abandon my dream
leave what I know to be true, a
husk of what I am, could be.
For now hold up my facade.
My face in shadow
I must accept what is true.
What I was is no more
my body torn, my skin burned.
Wax tears drip on my darkened
marble floor.
Feb 18, 2023
Feb 18, 2023 at 6:35 PM UTC
I could have done better,
No I should have done better.
Your beautiful lies play mean
tricks on my gullible mind.
Once more, I’ll believe you.
How pathetic am I?
A shell of expectation,
A wish on a dead star.
I’m sorry that I led you on
Into the darkness even I dared not enter.
Pay no mind for tomorrow.
The sun won’t rise for me anymore
A final selfish apology, this time I mean it.
Once more, please believe me.
Feb 12, 2023
Feb 12, 2023 at 4:27 PM UTC
I am fine, what does that mean?
Do you think twice about me?
Does your heart flutter to my voice?
Do you get lost in my eyes?
Does your mind trip at my sight?
Do you question what I say?
Do my actions scare you?
No?
That’s what I’m fine means.
Nov 6, 2022
Nov 6, 2022 at 8:35 PM UTC
Order had returned, the bright tyranny faded
into dark freedom, the day had ended.
No more shall the heat force sweat,
Nor shall the light demand blindness.
The cool breeze whispered pleasantries,
Welcome back my love, I hope all is well.
For my hollow arms grew cold without you,
And my holy wails grew emptier, no more
no longer. We are united again, in darkness.
Oct 22, 2022
Oct 22, 2022 at 9:02 PM UTC
How do I apologise to you?
What should, could I do.
When did you last shed a tear?
Darling, honey, sweet dear
Do not pout,
The sun is setting if you look out.
Oct 3, 2022
Oct 3, 2022 at 8:33 PM UTC
A brilliant blue sea,
Sits idly, happy as can be.
It’s crystal view,
Sparkles as if brand new,
The cool calm water,
Hides a truth you knew.
The murky green ocean,
Resting a malicious devotion.
A shrouded blanket,
Covering it’s true intent,
For storms are brewing,
Which you couldn’t predict.
The grey clouds mirror the grey sea.
Their sadness shared as one,
Their hatred crashes together.
The land below bends to it’s will,
A painful joy of endless thrill.
Black waves crash upon the sea wall,
The oceans wrath revealed to all.
A dark bile brewed in ocean deep,
It’s hidden price, one too steep.
The coast now wrapped tight,
Trapped under the water’s blight.
Oct 1, 2022
Oct 1, 2022 at 5:45 AM UTC
A brilliant blue sea,
Sits idly, happy as can be.
It’s crystal view,
Sparkles as if brand new,
The cool calm water,
Hides a truth you knew.
The murky green ocean,
Resting a malicious devotion.
A shrouded blanket,
Covering it’s true intent,
For storms are brewing,
Which you couldn’t predict.
Sep 12, 2022
Sep 12, 2022 at 7:22 PM UTC
I stand above on this cliff,
Before me, a legion of colour.
As they march continuously, endlessly.
I demand them to stop, to become stiff,
Their colours, to fade in my land of grey.
For I can’t rest till they’re all grey.
My cries fall on Death’s ears.
Their power impossible to the light.
And the colours continue forward.
Jun 19, 2022
Jun 19, 2022 at 8:44 AM UTC
I want the sun to set,
The end of the day, the cold grip met.
Not for the moonlight,
But the sun heat, I’m too weak.
I want the warmth, of a cold night.
May 20, 2022
May 20, 2022 at 10:18 PM UTC