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untold horrors
Innumerable errors
Front of no worries
Inside of painful flurries
Fighting down the guilt
The pain
The fear
The anger
The hate
Of actions
Of the past
Present
Full of resent
Never being good enough
For self standards
3 times
3 full restarts
3 times failed
Sadness
Not being able to be
What is needed
Knowing those laid to rest
Would be ashamed
And Enflamed
Being a self
That is despicable
Unreadable
Disagreeable
Unchanging
Lacking the will
To change
And fulfill
All that is wanted
Knowing that self
Is broken
Jun 18, 2015
Jun 18, 2015 at 6:53 AM UTC
We have no choice in our birth
Or the time we are brought into this earth
Henceforth tis only by a want
A choice not to be flaunt
It's a fight that will only put on delay
The day when we kiss this world away
Destined for a date unfathomable
But to some the beauty is discoverable
Each soul lives by self a self goal
Wonderful wants tucked into a unique skull
To some the end is a terrible fear
Others becon it near
"Love thy neighbor"
They may be poor
Or
Shut you out with the slam of a door
But, if you love you can do no more
We will all face the hooded reaper
It can end in a gentle whisper
Or a terrible fight of terror
For many including i
We don't wish to die
But there are those who suffer
Whose choice to live is to worse than the other
We all wish to save eachother
And yet must discover
Dieing is a salvation
To a burdened soul without any hope of a collection
Of their deserved happy memories
Denied to them since infancies
As awful truths as these
Death is no disease
I love you
And no matter what may be
That is true
Jan 30, 2015
Jan 30, 2015 at 10:52 PM UTC
habbits don't all show through daily
Like a nail biter
Or the drug addict fighter
Unlike the masterbater
Some are shown over time
Like mine
all the betrayals
All the heartbreaks
All the times I sent a (:
When I knew.. It would lead her on
Or all the times
Hopes were built up
When they should have never been
Or thinkin more of me and I
Than of her and they
My habit is to be me
Which is awful as any person can be
Jan 9, 2015
Jan 9, 2015 at 12:52 AM UTC
Its clear to all
And now I
That I destroy all
And
ought die
Jan 9, 2015
Jan 9, 2015 at 12:31 AM UTC
Mastering emotions
Sounds astounding
No sudden tears
Or embarrassing blush
But
It becomes a drug
Secretly
Becoming easier each time
Only when feelings are few and life loses its joys
Is the mistaking known
Of the drug and addiction
Of the crime
And no emotion comes with the revelation
No more a human
A robot with flesh
May 11, 2014
May 11, 2014 at 11:59 PM UTC
A truly painful
Decision, how can you stay
Part of my life yet?
May 11, 2014
May 11, 2014 at 11:41 PM UTC
This desk is my island,
This pen; my sailboat,
My mind is the captain,
Exploring the world,
But,
I can never get far enough,
To know myself,
There’s too many miles,
Words can’t cover them all,
I barely know who I am,
Or even what I want,
Or if what I do; will mean a thing.
Though at times,
I am alone,
Others; I am not
I am my own worst enemy,
And my own best friend,
I could sail forever on this pen,
To a sea; misshapen and insecure,
To try and be sure,
Of an answer which may not,
Even be there.
But of this; I swear,
Whatever ship carries me,
To wherever you may be,
Whatever treasures,
I have to bare,
However adorned,
With all my scars and tears:
It’s all for you,
I reveal my insides,
I sift through the oceans,
And clear the skies,
I sail for you; my dear,
Until my last pen dies.
Apr 8, 2014
Apr 8, 2014 at 7:49 PM UTC
I'm familiar
With anger and it's control
But this rage is new
Apr 7, 2014
Apr 7, 2014 at 12:13 AM UTC
Nothing left to feel
its been cried, raged, drank, Screamed out.
what feeling is this?
Apr 6, 2014
Apr 6, 2014 at 9:00 PM UTC
Time
Doomed from the beginning
for we live by a thing that defines change
powerless against its incomprehendable hold
only allowed foggy memories of the once was
Tis neither cruel nor merciful
time is simply changing
Apr 5, 2014
Apr 5, 2014 at 11:24 PM UTC