My lungs are squeezing,
My mind is wheezing,
The world is whirling,
My heart is throbbing.
Their eyes are watching.
The outside is a different picture:
My breathing seems normal.
My smile is strong,
And no one sees,
That I'm fine.
Nov 9, 2015
Nov 9, 2015 at 9:06 PM UTC
I want to feel that sweet kiss
of the blade upon my wrist.
I want to hear that sweet whisper
of my breath going hiss.
I want to see that sweet dance
of the scarlet lines gone amiss.
I want to taste that sweet embrace
of my guilt going tisk, tisk, tisk.
Oct 19, 2015
Oct 19, 2015 at 6:44 AM UTC
I am a trained assassin
One you can't see
I bring forth happiness
So you can feel pain free
I am a trained assassin
One you shouldn't fear
I slay the monsters in the night
So you won't shed a tear
I am a trained assassin
One you know well
I love you dear, oh so much
It's for you, my heart swells
Jul 27, 2015
Jul 27, 2015 at 11:32 PM UTC
The heart of the beast is pounding, pounding, pounding
Your legs are pumping, pumping, pumping
Its growl deep and head low
Watching you, its pray
Ready to pounce at any moment
But then, whoosh, it's gone
Into nothing, thin air, emptiness
You keep going because you're scared, unaware
The edge greets you
Instincts take over and you stop
The silence is deafening
Where did it go?
How are you alive?
It only took a moment to realize that the beast is inside
And in that moment, you deside
To fight the thing with yellow eyes
Aloud you say "Come out to play."
The sword is somehow there
You grab it and fight
For love, for life, for fear
The final blow is brought down
So is a crown
You slayed the beast that ruled your thoughts
Now it's your turn
Show them who's boss
Jul 27, 2015
Jul 27, 2015 at 9:13 PM UTC
I just dont know anymore
The shaky breaths I take
With every step I make
The motivation lost
This emptiness inside me
Prevents me from smiling
Jun 29, 2015
Jun 29, 2015 at 10:58 PM UTC
You saved me as I was slipping
From the dark embrace that came once again.
You gave me a reason
Not to see the scarlet lines.
You wiped away the secret tears
That were dripping down my face.
You saved me as I gave up,
Slowly not caring about anything.
You helped me see the light
When I was lost in the dark.
You asked if I was okay.
I said I was fine.
I finally didn't have to lie.
Thank You
Apr 5, 2015
Apr 5, 2015 at 11:14 PM UTC
This girl writes stories
Online, on paper, and on her skin,
She has secrets on her lips.
She claims to be made of tin.
Giving others tips on how to stay alive
They don't know she wants to die.
Nov 25, 2014
Nov 25, 2014 at 11:36 PM UTC
That's all I ever do.
Run from emotions
Run from people
Run from problems
Run from the unknown
Run from life.
It's time for me to stop running from all of these things.
They will never stop.
If they break me I will pick up the pieces and try again, until I win.
It's time for the tables to turn
Nov 21, 2014
Nov 21, 2014 at 8:23 PM UTC
When he asked her
What made her do it,
what pushed her
to such a dark place
The well of excuses
she had used a thousand
dried up from her lips
ground to a halt
“It was the only way to feel good,
an addiction I couldn't help
I needed to do something.”
But nothing she said could fix her mistakes
Under his loving eyes
she squirmed in her nightgown
thin fabric hiding the
scars of a not so distant past
“I don’t understand, why would you
hurt yourself so much?” His words hit her
and her guilt bubbled up
black anger and black words.
“It’s not a big deal.
It’s over. I’ll never do it again.
Keep out of my business.” And the
conversation closed.
But demons are not so easily slayed
and fears, the all consuming
darkness, not so easily
assuaged.
Three weeks he was gone,
not to be back till the sixth
and yet on the fifth late in the night he came
three white roses in hand
ruby red lines painted
her thighs, guilty tears
painted her forced smile
Bad timing or good?
She knew he would yell
He couldn’t understand, wouldn’t understand
blame he had yet to lay
hands clinched for rejection
But he pulled her close
suit soaking up the red
absorbing her pain
clinging to her desperately
“I don’t want to lose you.”
voice raw with love
“I don’t understand, so
help me too”
It was enough for her.
The wall she hand built with such bitter care
shattered, she shook
crying past temptations away
hours wanned, he treated
her wounds, wound up with her on
white sheets, tangled together,
holding her as she spoak
Baring her soul to her swain
she talked until her voice was raw
until the stars faded, and her
burden was lighter than she had thought possible
And after that night
two become closer, every jagged edge
known by the other. They lived for each other
breathed for another
Another time, she could pull herself out of bed
she could open her eyes
and wonder, with that elusive curiosity,
what the day would show her
And the darkness of that endless night
could not push through
the twining of their limbs
and the knotting of their souls
Nov 17, 2014
Nov 17, 2014 at 12:56 AM UTC
Sometimes i hear voices in my head. They tell me I'm stupid, worthless, annoying. They whisper cruel things in the night. Filling my head with all of these awful thoughts.That I'm fat,ugly,unwanted. Most of the time it happens at the end of the day. When i go over the events of that day in my mind. You see these "voices" are just one voice. Mine. I tell my self these things because sometimes i think they're true. I over think everything. Analyzing my every flaw. I do this when I'm alone. My mind is a dangerous place to be alone in and it scares me.
Oct 2, 2014
Oct 2, 2014 at 7:18 PM UTC