Sharing my feelings and my perspective of your behaviours I try,
But all you respond is, "you built it up in your head to cry".
Jan 14, 2025
Jan 14, 2025 at 2:16 PM UTC
Craving for that quick fix, the euphoric yet momentary feeling of being loved,
Mustering up enough empathy, love and kindness to give, even though I am starved,
Walking down dark alleys, searching in all the wrong places,
Quick taste of the sample has me blurring out all the bad memories and faces,
Until, I am yet again brutally mugged,
Robbed by people often disguised as friends and family the minute I’m sufficiently drugged,
I wallow in pain and self-pity,
Over and over, it’s the same story,
Falling from a new height to an even newer low,
There’s heartbreak wherever I go.
Mar 16, 2022
Mar 16, 2022 at 5:51 AM UTC
And in my head, when I'm gone,
I'm the only one to mourn
Dec 19, 2021
Dec 19, 2021 at 3:35 AM UTC
A web intricately designed to accept this warped reality,
Demanding what I deserve, I've now lost the ability,
Trapped in a labyrinth of fake promises and smiles,
Ever so often, a new can of worms I am handed from familiar aisles,
Yet I am made to believe it is all in my mind,
I desperately need to leave this life behind
Dec 19, 2021
Dec 19, 2021 at 3:31 AM UTC
My death
Would be my last attempt to get your attention
Dec 25, 2020
Dec 25, 2020 at 9:38 PM UTC
It was not me you wanted to be with initially,
To give up on your fantasy.
I wasn't her and she wasn't me,
Over and over, different faces, same story.
Mar 28, 2020
Mar 28, 2020 at 3:11 PM UTC
How is that you were able to nonchalantly walk ahead while I walked back and now sit in the middle of the six years of space we created?
If you had only waited..
Dec 16, 2019
Dec 16, 2019 at 7:05 AM UTC
Slipping through time endlessly,
Come closer, get a better look at me,
Maybe this is as happy as I'll ever be,
Or just maybe I'll wake up from this life if I close my eyes and count to three.
Aug 23, 2019
Aug 23, 2019 at 3:42 PM UTC
As I sit here shielded from the rain,
My mouth laced with the cigarette and the coffee I just had,
Wounded and in pain,
Suddenly, the sun shines amidst it all telling me it can't be that bad,
Oh but love! It is!
Jun 12, 2019
Jun 12, 2019 at 4:05 AM UTC
Rip out my heart,
Carve out my brain,
I just want to stop feeling or thinking ever again.
Jun 3, 2019
Jun 3, 2019 at 4:33 PM UTC