I think we both knew
That it was going to end
Before it began
White lights flashing
Hold on through the night
Another reason to survive
Keep her company
Lie beside her
Whisper sweet nothings
My first gulp of fresh air
Is met with a smile
Eager to find peace
I found comfort
In the feeling of being wanted
Enough to choose to live
And so you keep me company
Lie beside me...
Whisper sweet nothings
Truth spurns
Hardest when your heart is wounded
One less reason to live
& I still find comfort
In the feeling of being wanted
Just not from you
Sep 22, 2020
Sep 22, 2020 at 4:16 PM UTC
A breath in between sips
Of sweet morning air
As the sun cascades down branches
And drapes upon glistening flowers
Fresh with morning dew
Deer prance across
wheat rumbling in the wind
He doesn’t smile often
But a heart of content
Reflected in a crystal blue
Sep 19, 2020
Sep 19, 2020 at 11:33 PM UTC
what is the correct response
when a world has been ripped away
how do you feel
when there is nothing to love
Sep 12, 2019
Sep 12, 2019 at 11:48 AM UTC
there's a fist clasped
around my heart
and I could feel my heart
beating rapidly
against my ribcage
the words leaked out
in between my teeth
and my tongue
shoveled them out
onto your heart
but what you did to him
and to her
to them
and the spewing boiling words
did to me
I've been seared
long enough
we've been fighting
more than
long enough
as the words spill
flooding around us
I float away
you streaming after me
tears brink at the bank
you shove
everything
I ever gave you
and tell me
not to lose them
and I walk away
knowing
that I just broke
both our hearts
broken
but tightness
in my chest
didn't dissipate
nor did the tears
evaporate
I lost
what you gave me
but I still have
the pain wrapped up
in my heart
and with time
I will begin to weave
it back together
but for now
it will stay broken
May 10, 2019
May 10, 2019 at 5:11 PM UTC
crawl
into my flesh
and sink
into my bones
I want to know
the truth
am I beautiful?
...not yet
I kneel before you
and I bow my head
I reach for the dangling treasure
in the back of my throat
I reach and reach and reach
until
there is blood coating
my fingers
but am I beautiful?
not yet
clammy fingers
grasp an ice cold glass
burning my fingers
but satiating the beast
to be hungry
is to betray you
numb everything
with ice
am I beautiful?
not yet
I can feel you now
etched into my skin
and I feel so paper thin
light as a feather
I look at the bodies
you put before me
and I all I see are
ribs
and
collarbones
and
spines
they are sharp
and my belly heats up
because they are
Beautiful.
and someday
I will look like them
but
not yet
Apr 29, 2019
Apr 29, 2019 at 2:59 PM UTC
Little girls grow up
with their mamas
and they love them
for the rest of their lives
little girls
all grown up
will someday lose
their mamas
but mama
I'm not all grown up
so why
do I have to lose you?
Apr 29, 2019
Apr 29, 2019 at 11:39 AM UTC
Revolving around you
I come back
And I leave
On my knees I come crawling
The floor creaking
Groaning
Pleading
Don't stay
Leave space
My chest is empty
My heart so alive
I left with you
Don't leave me alone
The four walls sit
Blank as me
Don't forget
Words echoing loudly
You
Loved
Me
Apr 26, 2019
Apr 26, 2019 at 2:55 PM UTC
A
Dull Ache
In my heart
Is a constant reminder
Of you
I thought
That it would eventually
Fade
But the memories of you
Embrace pain closely
And every day
It gets harder to
Say goodbye
And it hurts
To think about
Meeting someone
New
Because
You were the
Only One
for me
My standards
Are as high as
Our spirits were
When we were together
I miss seeing your face
Every day
Every hour
Every minute
Now I stare at photos
Trying to spot
Any difference
From since I last saw you
I am terrified
You are becoming a stranger
And once you're just another blank face
My world will crumble
Nights
And days
Of you
Holding me together
Listening
Crying
Listening
Hugging
And I don't think
I ever
thanked you
Enough
...
Thank you
Apr 26, 2019
Apr 26, 2019 at 2:50 PM UTC
L
e
a
k
i
n
g
I n t o
my ears
s
p
i
l
l
i
n
g
O u t
My lips
These
Words
Words words
Words words words
Words words
Words
That
h
u
r
t
Me
Because they
h
u
r
t
You
And
t
e
a
r
s
f
a
l
l
l
Fasterfasterfaster
Than I fell
For you
These
D E M O N S
In your
Heart heart
Heart heart heart heart
Heart heart heart heart heart
Heart heart heart heart heart
Heart heart heart heart heart
Heart heart heart heart
Heart heart heart
Heart heart
Heart
Are
SqUeEzIng
My
l
u
o
s
And i think
i love him i love him i love him i love him
but
how
can
He
love love love love love
someone else
When
He
C A N T
Even
Love love love love
h
i
m
s
e
l
f
?
Apr 26, 2019
Apr 26, 2019 at 2:47 PM UTC