I think we both knew
That it was going to end
Before it began
White lights flashing
Hold on through the night
Another reason to survive
Keep her company
Lie beside her
Whisper sweet nothings
My first gulp of fresh air
Is met with a smile
Eager to find peace
I found comfort
In the feeling of being wanted
Enough to choose to live
And so you keep me company
Lie beside me...
Whisper sweet nothings
Truth spurns
Hardest when your heart is wounded
One less reason to live
& I still find comfort
In the feeling of being wanted
Just not from you
Sep 22, 2020
Sep 22, 2020 at 4:16 PM UTC
A breath in between sips
Of sweet morning air
As the sun cascades down branches
And drapes upon glistening flowers
Fresh with morning dew
Deer prance across
wheat rumbling in the wind
He doesn’t smile often
But a heart of content
Reflected in a crystal blue
Sep 19, 2020
Sep 19, 2020 at 11:33 PM UTC
what is the correct response
when a world has been ripped away
how do you feel
when there is nothing to love
Sep 12, 2019
Sep 12, 2019 at 11:48 AM UTC
there's a fist clasped
around my heart
and I could feel my heart
beating rapidly
against my ribcage
the words leaked out
in between my teeth
and my tongue
shoveled them out
onto your heart
but what you did to him
and to her
to them
and the spewing boiling words
did to me
I've been seared
long enough
we've been fighting
more than
long enough
as the words spill
flooding around us
I float away
you streaming after me
tears brink at the bank
you shove
everything
I ever gave you
and tell me
not to lose them
and I walk away
knowing
that I just broke
both our hearts
broken
but tightness
in my chest
didn't dissipate
nor did the tears
evaporate
I lost
what you gave me
but I still have
the pain wrapped up
in my heart
and with time
I will begin to weave
it back together
but for now
it will stay broken
May 10, 2019
May 10, 2019 at 5:11 PM UTC
crawl
into my flesh
and sink
into my bones
I want to know
the truth
am I beautiful?
...not yet
I kneel before you
and I bow my head
I reach for the dangling treasure
in the back of my throat
I reach and reach and reach
until
there is blood coating
my fingers
but am I beautiful?
not yet
clammy fingers
grasp an ice cold glass
burning my fingers
but satiating the beast
to be hungry
is to betray you
numb everything
with ice
am I beautiful?
not yet
I can feel you now
etched into my skin
and I feel so paper thin
light as a feather
I look at the bodies
you put before me
and I all I see are
ribs
and
collarbones
and
spines
they are sharp
and my belly heats up
because they are
Beautiful.
and someday
I will look like them
but
not yet
Apr 29, 2019
Apr 29, 2019 at 2:59 PM UTC
Little girls grow up
with their mamas
and they love them
for the rest of their lives
little girls
all grown up
will someday lose
their mamas
but mama
I'm not all grown up
so why
do I have to lose you?
Apr 29, 2019
Apr 29, 2019 at 11:39 AM UTC
i like my body when it is with your
body. It is so quite new a thing.
Muscles better and nerves more.
i like your body. i like what it does,
i like its hows. i like to feel the spine
of your body and its bones,and the trembling
-firm-smooth ness and which i will
again and again and again
kiss, i like kissing this and that of you,
i like, slowly stroking the,shocking fuzz
of your electric furr,and what-is-it comes
over parting flesh….And eyes big love-crumbs,
and possibly i like the thrill
of under me you so quite new
Apr 26, 2019
Apr 26, 2019 at 2:56 PM UTC
Revolving around you
I come back
And I leave
On my knees I come crawling
The floor creaking
Groaning
Pleading
Don't stay
Leave space
My chest is empty
My heart so alive
I left with you
Don't leave me alone
The four walls sit
Blank as me
Don't forget
Words echoing loudly
You
Loved
Me
Apr 26, 2019
Apr 26, 2019 at 2:55 PM UTC