for a while I've been confused
Im not into guys
But that would mean im gay
Which im not
I thought maybe bi
But then I saw I video
Explaining one thing
There's another one
One I'd never heard of
Asexuality
Its perfect
The only one that fits me
I dont have to be confused anymore
Im not attracted to anyone
To this you may say
'You havent found the one'
To that I say
Bs ive found him
I just don't want romance
But there's one thing
One more thing I dont understand
This can't be against God
Can it?
Im not attracted to girls
But its still a form of it
And as I grow
My parents talk more of
How one day
I'll think im ready
And to be smart about it
But I know that's not true
I've always thought
I'm a late bloomer
But now I know
I'm not alone!
I have a whole 1% on my side
Yay...
Jun 29, 2019
Jun 29, 2019 at 12:09 PM UTC
I'm shaking
My head hurts
My heart is pounding
And im scared
I'm so lightheaded
I feel dizzy
Am I dieing?
It feels so scary
When I stand up
Everything turns black
Why is this happening?
Do YOU know?
I feel like I'm dieing
What's going on
Update: I passed out a couple minutes ago... Im really scared
Jun 13, 2019
Jun 13, 2019 at 10:57 AM UTC
Gabrielle Pennington
You're my very bestest friend
One day you got me a toy fox
Kevin is the name he got
Gabrielle Pennington
Your the greatest type of friend
One day i got you a toy goat
The cutest goat to own a boat
Gabrielle Pennington
I dont deserve such a friend
Apr 19, 2019
Apr 19, 2019 at 12:58 AM UTC
"Is she doing okay?"
A friend looked down at me
I pretended not to hear, just go away
And leave me be
"Yeah, she's probably fine."
That's how he replied
My mind refuses to align
Why couldn't you have tried?
Feb 20, 2019
Feb 20, 2019 at 9:10 PM UTC
Music
It drowns out the world
Music
It drowns out my life
Music
It drowns out my sadness
Music
Just close my eyes
Music
Turn up the volume
Music
Forget life
Music
Forget my struggles
Music
In a empty world
Music
With nothing but the rhythm
Music
Then I open my eyes
Music
and remember
Music
I have to eat
Music
I have to clean
Music
I have to leave my safe place
Music
I have to turn off the music
Empty
Feb 19, 2019
Feb 19, 2019 at 10:20 PM UTC
Sorry this isnt a poem
I had a dream where I went through with it, I killed myself and the last thing I did before dieing was write a poem saying goodbye and I had specifically mentioned invisible, arrowbird fallenangel and especially wolf, and how you guys felt like friends to me and youre all so nice, now that I look at it I could have just said all my followers but I guess dream me didnt want to think of you as followers but as individual people who listen to me and help me, sorry about posting on a poetry site and it not even being a poem, but I just wanted to thank you
Feb 17, 2019
Feb 17, 2019 at 6:30 PM UTC
I see scary things
Demons and shadows everywhere
Some have wings
Way scarier then a bear
am I crazy?
What's wrong with me
Sharp teeth and darkness is what I see
They're all crystal clear
They seem so real
But they cant be
No one else can see them
How can this be
Whats wrong with me
Can anyone answer
I'm scared
I cant sleep
I feel like this thing Thats not real
Could **** me
I never turn off the lights
Maybe if i ignore it
It'll go away
How can I ignore something
thats so terrifying
Feb 16, 2019
Feb 16, 2019 at 10:32 PM UTC
If I can't hear you
I'll laugh
Since I'm afraid to ask for clarity
If you offend me
I'll laugh
It's just a joke of course...
If you insult me
I'll laugh
My self-confidence cannot be lowered!
If I'm humiliated
I'll laugh
Punishment and anguish will come soon
If you notice the cuts
I'll laugh
"It was just my dog, LOL."
If I'm ready to die
I'll laugh
I don't want you to know
If I cause harm
I'll laugh
It'll make me sound innocent :)
If you see my fear
I'll laugh
To simply strengthen the illusion
Feb 14, 2019
Feb 14, 2019 at 10:05 PM UTC
why
I cant remember what happiness is
Why
If I could have one wish
Why
It'd be happiness
Why
Hidden behind my mask
There's a tear in my eye
I wish someone would ask
Why
I want the courage to say
IM NOT OK
Feb 12, 2019
Feb 12, 2019 at 11:35 PM UTC