In pews where hymns rose high like sacred walls,
Young Michael grew, his tender spirit warm.
Beside him stood dear Graham through it all,
A boy whose storm-lit eyes became his storm.
Soft whispers turned to nights of quiet grace,
A sleepover, their fingers intertwined.
Beneath the sheets, in shadow’s fragile space,
Their lips confessed what words could never find.
Then thunder split the stillness of that room,
A father’s rage, a faith turned sharp and loud.
Old scripture roared of sin, of fire, of doom,
As love lay trembling, naked and unbowed.
Be fixed or lose this home, this name.
God does not bless the love that you defend.
A camp to cleanse, to treat the shame,
Or exile to a cold, forsaken end.
At sixteen, soft and afraid of being cast,
He chose the path that broke him from within.
Where cruel words fell like stones too hard, too fast,
And taught his heart that love itself was sin.
Long nights of hollow prayers and borrowed lies,
Where self was stripped and hope was torn apart.
Till one bleak dawn beneath unyielding skies,
He fled to save the fragments of his heart.
In Sam’s embrace, in a borrowed room of a friend,
He found a fragile peace he thought was gone.
No sin in love that did not need to bend,
Just truth that asked to simply carry on.
But word returned, and with it came the cut,
A father’s love withdrawn beneath God’s name.
While kneeling still in church, devout and shut,
He prayed yet never eased his own son’s pain.
Now Michael walks beneath the quiet night,
Still longing just to live, to be and breathe.
Not wrong nor broken only seeking light,
In love that does not wound, nor make him grieve.
Apr 4
Apr 4, 2026 at 3:12 AM UTC
Two skins I wear, one bound in fear's tight hold,
Good son by day, in suits so stiff and cold.
Polite and poised, no slip in what I say,
Wed to the mask, lost in its gray array.
Family's eyes pierce, gods and kin press near,
Each glance a risk, each word laced thick with fear.
Lest hearts I love crack under hidden strain,
I guard the lie through joy masked as mundane.
But night breaks free, gay apps glow with fevered beat,
Late texts unleash laughs day won't let me meet.
Raunchy throbs wake, raw and unconfined,
***** aches claw free from chains that bind.
Lust breathes alive in shadows deep and sweet,
True hunger spills where daytime fears retreat.
The fire floods veins, wild pulse I can't deny,
Craving the dark where real desires fly.
It guts me deep, this watch on breath and glance,
Hiding the spark that sets my soul to dance.
Split worlds exhaust, a knife 'twixt cage and fire,
Yet talk draws near what raw hearts most desire.
One tender hope that the fractured parts align,
No shroud remains, just me, alive, divine.
Mar 22
Mar 22, 2026 at 1:03 PM UTC
In the dark of the night he slithered in,
With whispered kisses and borrowed skin.
Soft were the hands that pulled me neer
Love was the mask he chose to wear.
But under the warmth a shadow stirred,
A serpent silent, without a word.
In tall night grass his hunger lay,
Watching the lamb that lost its way.
An untouched body beneath his gaze,
A child still wrapped in innocent days.
He walked my skin like stolen ground,
While somewhere deep my heart would pound.
My innocence broke without a sound,
Like shattered glass upon the ground.
Helpless was I, too small to fight,
A trembling soul inside the night.
His whispers coiled like venoms breath,
Laced with threats that tasted of death.
Speak and your world will fall apart,
So silence buried a bleeding heart.
Used like a toy at his command,
A puppet pulled by a cruel hand.
The years moved on, the wounds grew numb,
Yet shadows linger where dreams should come.
Even now in the quiet night,
In cold sweat I wake from phantom fright.
I ask the dark what I did wrong
Why I was chosen all along.
Why was it me and nobody else?
Was I too gentle, too much myself?
A wounded child beneath that spell,
Still blaming the boy who never could tell.
Mar 15
Mar 15, 2026 at 2:44 AM UTC
Born and brought up in a religious like cult
Pious and virtuous, in God we exult
Learning the scriptures and singing the praise
Following the good book, that's how we were raised
A man and a woman is called “the right” for creation
Everything else is condemned as abomination
Through the lineages, that’s how it’s been honored
My thoughts feel so sinful, I feel so cornered
Like the weight of the cross upon my shoulders
The guilt plays on, and bitterness smolders
It’s not like I chose the feelings I feel
When I see a man who to me does appeal
It suffocates my soul, and I don’t feel whole
This “unforgivable sin” takes its toll
The secrets we live, with a lingering misgive
Balancing it all, trying simply to live
Deep in my heart, I know it’s not wrong
But who will tell them, when blind faith is so strong
I was made by God, just like them above
So do not condemn my nature to love
One day I will tell them the truth that I feel
In hope they’ll understand, and together we’ll heal
Don’t see me as outcast, I’m human like you
So judge me with kindness, in all that you do
Mar 14
Mar 14, 2026 at 1:22 PM UTC
At the downtown café
On that bright sunny day
Was my first date with a guy
I felt so unsure, I felt so shy
What should I say, how should I greet
I could feel cold sweat, flooding my feet
So I kept rehearsing, all in my head
Cause messing it up, was my biggest dread
I kept checking my hair and tiding my clothes
Then he suddenly appeared, and I almost froze
I fumbled and mumbled and shook his hand
Not how I wanted it, not how I planned
A nervous wreck, I slumped in my chair
All I could do was just blush and stare
He knew my discomfort and put me at ease
Told me to relax and do as I please
I shook of the nerves, and we chatted about
I could feel a connection; there wasn’t a doubt
The coffee was warm and so was the feeling
As we laughed and learned, a friendship was sealing
He was funny and smart and very clever
How I wished the chat would last forever
Finally, the time came, for us to part
I got up and hugged him straight from the heart
We promised to meet and repeat our date
I walked out the café, elated and great
That dear friends was my first date with a guy
I’m no more unsure, I’m no more shy.
Mar 12
Mar 12, 2026 at 12:21 PM UTC
Hand in hand, yet worlds apart,
Love beats loud within our heart.
Yet on these streets, we walk unseen,
A love unspoken, caught between.
The cafes glow with hearts so red,
For those whose love is freely said.
But when we reach to touch, to show,
A glance, a sneer, reminds us “no”.
Their fingers lace without a care,
Their kisses steal the open air.
But ours must hide behind closed doors,
Love whispered through the muffled floors.
Why must our hearts be caged this way,
Why can’t we love in light of day.
Is love not love, as true, as deep,
A promise real, a bond to keep.
Yet still we love, despite the stares,
Despite the hush, despite the glares.
For love will rise, unchained, unbowed,
One day we’ll kiss among the crowd.
And when that dawn of change appears,
No love will hide, no love will fear.
Till then, my love, through dark we stay,
Yet hearts still shine on Valentine’s Day.
Mar 11
Mar 11, 2026 at 12:19 PM UTC
You walked into my world
And a new story unfurled
You were always on my mind
In your love I was blind
Did whatever you’d say
Even your bills I would pay
Yet You’d treat me like a dog
But I was addicted to you like grog
I wouldn’t say a word
Cause you were my love bird
But then when you were done
You crushed my heart and run
And I kept wondering why
Oh! I just wanted to die
I had been such a fool
Let you use me like a tool
But now that I’m in my senses
I’ve built around me some fences
Hard way to learn a lesson
In disguise It was blessin
Now that I’m out of this fen
I’ll never fall in love again
Terence S
Sep 5, 2020
Sep 5, 2020 at 1:18 PM UTC
When the wrinkles on my face begin to show
And my hair attains a slivery glow
I want to be holding your hand
I want to be your man
I want to grow old with you
When I look into your eyes
I will see our paradise
And when I hold you in my arms
I know I’ll always fell your charm
I want to grow old with you
You will always be my glow
And though the lust may begin to slow
I just want you to always know
My love for you will only grow
I want to grow old with you
I always want to be by your side
Walking with you with so much pride
All through the twilight years
Through all the joys and tears
I want to grow old with you
Terence S
Sep 5, 2020
Sep 5, 2020 at 1:12 PM UTC
When the lights are down and I’m feeling low
I look to you and ride the flow
Your my rock my constant companion
When everything seems lost and I feel abandon
So into your hands I put my trust
But, being human it begins to rust
And when things still don’t go my way
I turn all bitter and walk away
But no matter, how far I ever go
You are my refugee, everything I owe
And I don’t know why, but I always come back
Even though, strong faith I lack
Yet your always there to make things right
Your are my strength that helps me fight
And in your own way I’m rewarded the best
Even though I may not fully understand my quest.
Aug 17, 2020
Aug 17, 2020 at 1:11 PM UTC
The music plays
The spirits flows
There’s laughter and joy
I’m smiling and coy
Grease painted faces
Discussing their races
I am so lost
The feelings like frost
I’m not like them
I can never be
Behind their mascara
Broken faces I see
Each ones trying to state
Their better than the other
Though there's a warmth in the room
There's coldness inside
I don’t fit in here
I don’t have a story to lie
As the music plays
I walk into the night
Aug 17, 2020
Aug 17, 2020 at 1:02 PM UTC