I am
Neurotic in love
Never grew out of it
Someday, I hope for something better
Better than
Comparing
Lurking
Stalking
Any woman who seems to have caught the eye of who I’m sleeping with
And taking it as evidence that I am not, nor could I ever be
Someone’s first choice
Jul 13, 2021
Jul 13, 2021 at 1:08 PM UTC
They say time makes things easier but that simply isn't true,
I still can't fall asleep on my own without you.
I relate to Sylvia Plath often through many things she has said,
Especially "I think I made you up inside my head."
I dream mostly about kissing your lips or holding your hand,
As these thoughts bring more peace than toes in sand.
I could spend hours writing but there wouldn't be any point,
I'd still face the night alone, replacing you with a joint.
Being high makes the loneliness easier to bear,
But instead of gripping a lighter I'd rather it be your hair.
A puff of smoke drifts openly toward the moon,
While I close my eyes and hope to see you soon
Jan 13, 2016
Jan 13, 2016 at 11:14 AM UTC
No matter what I think about,
I can't get you out of my head.
You are the only one that I want...
No one else turns me on.
No one else is as handsome, smart, or perfect as you are...
Do I want you back?
A: Yes
Dec 3, 2015
Dec 3, 2015 at 1:19 PM UTC
you don't know what you're missing, until you've lost it.
I want my soulmate back.
But there's no way he would want me back now.
I am:
Damaged
Goods.
Even though the two of them were the biggest regrets of my life,
They will also become his.
And I do not want that.
This is not poetic, but it **** sure is real.
I've ****** him over, with two others
Both of which aren't even half the man he is
-literally-
A.J.B is my soulmate,
But am I his?
Dec 3, 2015
Dec 3, 2015 at 1:12 PM UTC
I used to hang on every word you'd give me
Now, I look at my phone and roll my eyes when I see your name,
Isn't that a shame?
You're so **** annoying.
Tricked myself and everyone else that I actually had feelings for you.
Ha.
Dec 3, 2015
Dec 3, 2015 at 11:51 AM UTC
I can't get A.J.B of my head,
No matter what I've said.
Soulmates?
Definitely...
I can't even get wet for someone else.
Nor do I want to be intimate
Ever
Again.
Dec 3, 2015
Dec 3, 2015 at 11:48 AM UTC
this world, this life
our only known, guaranteed shot at consciousness
should be spent by everyone,
extravagantly
and it deeply hurts me
like ten thousand knives into my optimism
that people are still waking up every day
wishing they could die.
i can't think of many things sadder than that.
Nov 23, 2015
Nov 23, 2015 at 10:16 AM UTC
No matter how sick, tired, sad,
or unhappy you are,
there’s one thing
you can still be grateful for
and that’s the fact that you’re still here.
Nov 23, 2015
Nov 23, 2015 at 10:10 AM UTC
Hating yourself
is not beautiful
Hating your father, your mother
is not beautiful
Hating ex (girl) (boy) friends
is not beautiful
Nov 19, 2015
Nov 19, 2015 at 1:34 PM UTC