Tarasite_79 - Hello Poetry

I'm dramatic I'm an addict I'm anxious I'm wasting I've had it I'm depressed I'm a mess I'm alone In my head Just confess I'm a loss Or just lost No compuss No plan At my cost I'm no light I just fight Then I cry And I hate you I'm not right I'm in pain, sear my vein Befor I bleed out. It's the game. I'm ok. You're blind. Happy. Depressed. I'm just fine.

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Nov 9, 2019

Nov 9, 2019 at 7:09 PM UTC

Tarasite_79

*Value*

I'm dramatic I'm an addict I'm anxious I'm wasting I've had it I'm depressed I'm a mess I'm alone In my head Just confess I'm a loss Or just lost No compuss No plan At my cost I'm no light I just fight Then I cry And I hate you I'm not right I'm in pain, sear my vein Befor I bleed out. It's the game. I'm ok. You're blind. Happy. Depressed. I'm just fine.

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I'm not letting you in. I'm not telling you why. What you need from me- I can not provide. I'll tell you the story- that you need to hear. To save you from the real me- that you'll grow to fear. I'm not letting you in. I'll tell you a lie. You'll feel so heroic- that you made it inside. I try to warn you- like thorns on a bush. From the darkness inside- deep down at the roots. A poison that slowly flows through your veins- changing the structure of your functioning brain. I'm not letting you in. But you've succeeded inside. Despite all my efforts- Your heart will cry.

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Nov 4, 2019

Nov 4, 2019 at 2:50 PM UTC

Tarasite_79

Welcome

I'm not letting you in. I'm not telling you why. What you need from me- I can not provide. I'll tell you the story- that you need to hear. To save you from the real me- that you'll grow to fear. I'm not letting you in. I'll tell you a lie. You'll feel so heroic- that you made it inside. I try to warn you- like thorns on a bush. From the darkness inside- deep down at the roots. A poison that slowly flows through your veins- changing the structure of your functioning brain. I'm not letting you in. But you've succeeded inside. Despite all my efforts- Your heart will cry.

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I think about you all the time, I dream about you all the time, I miss you all the time, I remember all the time, You torture me all the time, I regret you all the time, I'm sorry all the time, But don't forgive me- I'll change my mind.

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Nov 2, 2019

Nov 2, 2019 at 5:14 PM UTC

Tarasite_79

Loathing Love

I think about you all the time, I dream about you all the time, I miss you all the time, I remember all the time, You torture me all the time, I regret you all the time, I'm sorry all the time, But don't forgive me- I'll change my mind.

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With all the options there are to follow- I choose the one thats hardest to swallow. The vast unknown, and the grief for my life- are the only things that keep me alive. My empathy, my love, I don't share with myself- I'm empty inside, its for everyone else. Why am I here? Why will I die? Why do I fear the after this life? I wish I felt the divine love And was blissfully blessed from the heavens above I would like to believe, would it make life better? To fly ignorantly through this shitstorm of weather? An anthropomorphic tale of love & fear. A false positive truth towards our existence here. No signs from God No devils to fear Just my heart to my loved ones Right now. Right here. The doom that I carry is only for me, it slouches my shoulders and cuts at my feet. But I keep on walking, with my eyes on the ground. Afraid to look up, for I will be let down.

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Aug 20, 2019

Aug 20, 2019 at 7:13 PM UTC

Tarasite_79

Ambivalent Truths

With all the options there are to follow- I choose the one thats hardest to swallow. The vast unknown, and the grief for my life- are the only things that keep me alive. My empathy, my love, I don't share with myself- I'm empty inside, its for everyone else. Why am I here? Why will I die? Why do I fear the after this life? I wish I felt the divine love And was blissfully blessed from the heavens above I would like to believe, would it make life better? To fly ignorantly through this shitstorm of weather? An anthropomorphic tale of love & fear. A false positive truth towards our existence here. No signs from God No devils to fear Just my heart to my loved ones Right now. Right here. The doom that I carry is only for me, it slouches my shoulders and cuts at my feet. But I keep on walking, with my eyes on the ground. Afraid to look up, for I will be let down.

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