Echoes of pain in my heart seeing myself lagging behind all
Time paused, mind couldn’t resist, compared, taunted, made me rot like i should never exist
Brain not working, patience not left, all i did was just scroll to disconnect
Started praying may night never end as that was the only time my mind would rest
Inner thoughts, self sabotage was all i did; i could have fought but , i didn’t
Jan 20
Jan 20, 2026 at 11:40 PM UTC
Never knew childhood was the only fun,
as an adult the only dream is just to run.
The kid was cherished, loved, full of pride,
now hated for small things they tried.
It was always games, laughter, moments so light,
never knew they’d turn to duties, failures, taunts that bite.
That innocence once pure and free,
is now dismissed as naivety.
Mistakes were never counted back then,
now even a slight inconvenience is never forgiven.
The kid once scared of getting hurt,
now craves to be nonexistent.
Jan 16
Jan 16, 2026 at 1:28 PM UTC
Trying , trying and trying ,
All i ended up with was crying .
I gave up many times,
But always had belief in mine.
Won't deny that i wasted time,
But did you see me even trying?
Always compared me despite seeing the efforts of mine,
What was affecting me never seemed to cross their mind.
Marks for society killed my thrive ,
I tried my best but they never got satisfied.
I wanted to prove , but they never gave me a chance to shine,
All i ended up with was trying and crying
Jan 16
Jan 16, 2026 at 8:40 AM UTC
I once believed that life was fun,
then questioned if it had begun.
I learned too late what people see
not souls, but scored ability.
Individuality lost its name,
intelligence became the frame.
No one asked what lived inside,
they only measured what I tried.
They chase success, the wealth, the fame,
to me it feels a hollow game.
One exam decides who’s crowned,
who’s loved, and who is left unbound.
I thought I’d always be the one,
the chosen, loved, the never done.
But life came down, stripped my disguise,
taught me to stop seeking their eyes.
My heart went numb, I wore a mask,
played the role society asked.
They thought I felt no joy or pain,
just silent, cold, emotionally plain.
My self-esteem fell piece by piece,
survival became my only peace.
One careless word I dared to say
made them judge my worth that day.
All I wished for was one clear sign
that my existence wasn’t a lie.
I carried pain that wasn’t mine
strange how it became my life.
Jan 15
Jan 15, 2026 at 3:25 AM UTC
