It's the fear of someone else loving you more than I could that drives me insane.
Sep 3, 2016
Sep 3, 2016 at 10:59 AM UTC
Here lies all our memories,
my thoughts,
my words,
and
my pieces
I rest my heavy heart
which you seem to no longer care for
I lay my thoughts
that never gets rid of you
I drizzle the tears
shed because of you, my darling dear
Let it flow until the soil would bloom a flower to which I may admire one day
Awaiting, I am for the realization that this is for the best
that you no longer cherish me as yours
But tonight, of all nights, I would let myself curl up once more and for the final time
wearing your shirt
telling my pillow our stories
of how I wish it could have
and what it should have been
And yet, I will just cry
After all, I'm just a part of your past
Intended to stay in the past
So here I bury my pieces that loves you whole
as well as the words I never got to say to you
Farewell, my love
Apr 30, 2016
Apr 30, 2016 at 12:32 PM UTC
You told me that you're mine and mine alone
And I fell asleep hoping to get to see you even if it is just in dreams
The dream started with them
then you appeared
So lean, my only
there was a shift
*You didn't see me,
You didn't notice that I exist*
You were there, but I felt I wasn't
You were happy and I watch you go
You held her hand as if she was precious
As if she was to be taken away if you didn't
You never did that with me,
Not even in person, not even in dreams
So can you see why I woke with ragged breaths and rapid heart beat
My nightmares was once strange and vivid
And now, all of them are about losing you
what did you do to me?
Apr 30, 2016
Apr 30, 2016 at 12:31 PM UTC
I wanted to see your eyes,
the eyes that once shone like diamonds in the sun at the sight of me.
The ones I looked at and saw something more,
something beyond.
When I did,
In your eyes,
I found the answer as to why.
It broke a part of me,
Silently but oh so terribly
my hope,
my love,
my stars and moon
I could never finish my thoughts
But for you I would
I loved you with all
my heart,
my might,
my strength.
With body and soul,
with great modesty and devotion.
In a moment my heart broke to more fractions than it already is,
I lost you
Yet I still wonder if I really did have you to begin with
You have that part of me
I'm not sure I could get back
I'm drowning
And you're no longer there to anchor me to safety
Apr 30, 2016
Apr 30, 2016 at 12:31 PM UTC
i have to tell you
the thought of losing you
makes my stomach turn
my fingers tremble
and my chest ache with waves
of pain
because i've never wanted
anyone more
in my entire life
and it scares me that you have me
right in the palm of your hand
promise me you'll stay
unlike the others
promise me
you won't change your mind
promise me
that your promises
won't be bent
by passing time
that i am more than just a passing fancy
that you'd get bored of then leave
once someone with a prettier face
comes around knocking at your door
because you're starting to feel
like home
and nothing terrifies me more.
Jun 24, 2015
Jun 24, 2015 at 9:33 PM UTC
*Another time, another place
Different names, different face
I knew it was you for your soul was linked to mine
Right then I realized how fate will always work–putting us both in each other's lives
I've watched myself die and be reborn
I've seen you live and be free
But every time our eyes will meet
No need of words but a deal is made
Sworn to be together no matter what
But even though we know we were;
Fate did not let it be
for it only destined us to cross paths but never stay and see*
May 23, 2015
May 23, 2015 at 1:02 PM UTC
I gave you my heart
completely and willingly
At that time I did not care
I thought that you can have it break it
by all means, take it
You did not steal this heart
For a while you kept it safe and secure
But more days passed
Weeks, months, years
You did not care as much anymore
dropping the heart on the cold hard ground
Crying, screaming, pain
You did not steal it
You shattered it and left
May 23, 2015
May 23, 2015 at 12:58 PM UTC
They say we are just a bunch of people who eat lunch together,nothing more
And i don't know
Maybe sometimes we are
But then again maybe we aren't
Mar 13, 2015
Mar 13, 2015 at 10:28 AM UTC
***We are like fire ignited from forest wood
something consistent but has a limit
after a while we will burn out
we will fade
and all that will remain are ashes
destruction is all we have left
marks with memories of something great
but with that fire
I do not regret
because loving you
was something great***
Feb 26, 2015
Feb 26, 2015 at 1:53 AM UTC
I want to know how you've been
I want to know what you're doing
If you're having fun, if you're happy
I don't know, I just want to know
Like the way I wanted to know you from the beginning
I care the way no one else would for you
I love you more than anyone can else except for your mom
I wanted you
I may seem cold but I don't mean to be
How can I pull you closer every time you push me away when you won't let me
I love you and I think it's best to set you free
You were never really mine
But we both know you once were
And now, I have to hope– just hope that you're happy
Hope that you're safe
And that you haven't forgotten about me
Dec 26, 2014
Dec 26, 2014 at 7:44 PM UTC