Shortly, all of this will pass away
The smiles
The tears
The laughter
The desire
The distance
And the overwhelming loneliness.
Splitting echos will come apart and fall away into a peace;
In pieces of a shattered hour glass
We move like the hands on a broken clock
Sweeping sands forever futher away
Running on in this dissaray
Empty hands pulsate in obstructed synchrony.
Laboured misery,
We're in such good company
Even so, we must be moving on
And we'll settle and we'll rest and we'll wake
Newborn.
Shortly, all of this will pass away.
Jan 8
Jan 8, 2026 at 4:50 PM UTC
How can we bleed this heart without reason
The bullets are lodged and we keep on squeezing
A pain that knows no rhyme or reason
Solitary without a season
Emptiness, we keep on feeding
Suffocating and never healing
Until our eyes turn bloodshot red
Chocking out what should be dead
Killing myself inside of my own head
Relief, I'm waiting beneath bloodshed
But how do I believe when I'm so misled
I'll draw in our very last breath and try to reconcile this wound in myself
At the heart of the rapture
Deliverence will not be captured
And we won't live to expire
Not by blade nor flame nor fire
If I called it love I wouldn't be a liar
Conceal your secrets and bury desire
I see you now out of your shell-
You are the devil who brought me this hell
Aug 12, 2023
Aug 12, 2023 at 5:19 PM UTC
Wake up from a dream I can't even fathom
Crawl out from the crucible and into the chasm;
to fulfill a need
This is how I learn to believe
I cannot forget what I've seen or flee from the shadows inside of me
I inhabit a collective consciousness
A metamorphosis
Means to break away from this chain so I can go up against the grain
Signal the change throughout my own veins,
Encephalon
I forever abstain
From an oppressive condition, a universe that's a ******* work of fiction
Still, I sit deaf and numb to listen
While the mind is lost on this world's affliction.
In this void of innocence
I abide and find
Eden,
Created only for the blind.
Truth is dark like my coffee
I sip in silence and breath in black
Wake up to this dream
Insomniac
May 20, 2023
May 20, 2023 at 1:22 PM UTC
I was born from the roots of a worn out tree
She knew not what she was so blind as not to see
Bole grew bare all but stripped of dignity
She never stopped paying for what should have been free
Love
You were unknown and exiled
And now you sleep peacefully, unreconciled
And I don't shed tears
If I did they'd cascade down on her
And bring back a life that was cut away
Hacked down till there was no more than a stump to sit on
Rest your drunken bones old man
Here, where the woman who bore hardship still stands
I think of it now and I feel fire
Sadness quenches it to shame but I'm still on a pyre
Endlessly
Shame again for feeling shame and pain and nothing
For you
Son of soil,
Who sowed many seeds
We will never forget your misdeeds
You watched your children bloom and wither
And what the **** did you ever give her?
A place to rest her weary head, a ******* man to baptize her bed
A life is nothing but a small wonder
Now it's all burried six feet under
Feb 22, 2023
Feb 22, 2023 at 9:55 AM UTC
A world in a whisper
We take the moon from the sky
Tell ourselves we'll miss her and swallow our own lies
Occupying this artificial light
Burning holes into our vacant minds
Painting each other blind
We live to satisfy our own ignorence
A rising compliance to turn a blind eye
For the love of silence
-We are a living breathing fable in violence
And who am I to be living a storm for so long
I'm only human, I may be wrong
But I'm not.
Feb 21, 2023
Feb 21, 2023 at 7:12 AM UTC
We are the killing field where good and evil desecrate
Blackening each shoulder into the ground in flames that linger to tear us down
Resolution will never be found
Because we are consciousness and this abyss is living dead
Suffocating on and on in memories and mistakes that never cease. Engaged to regret.
Living.
Deceased.
And where do we go when we can't let go.
A limbo;
A lie in disguise. A mistaken refuge of the mind.
"Come here and be at ease" desolate, without judgment for the curse of our own anxieties
"Just be"
Cut up, revive and replay every wrong that you've never done to yourself and the world around you.
Here in the cage of the rational soul
I still know,
Heaven is a place inside of me where I am freed from the chains of my mind, body and whole.
I am my own.
This fight will never be home.
Jan 21, 2023
Jan 21, 2023 at 10:54 AM UTC
Sin
You beat the sun light right out of me,
endlessly
The sorrow your love bares falls on me,
beautifully
And I love you
Stars will shun the skies above me
Outside of your eyes
In moments you love me
Carelessly, cut me
Mirror, you are but a broken glass
I know not of recovery
I know now
Woe,
You love me
Nov 23, 2021
Nov 23, 2021 at 6:54 AM UTC
You're a castle in the air
But I cannot live with you in there
In my heart
In my mind
Comforting a self made misery
To hate you
Because I love you
Because I let you
Make me feel so alone
Like a night sky void and empty
I felt all my stars surrender and burn out for you
And I still grieve each one
Every night
In every tear
Twisting the knife with you here
I hate you
Because I love you
Because I let you
Make me lose sight of myself
If I could dream
I'd dream you were dead
And turn these lyrical bullets into led
Load up the gun
And point it to your head
Bang bang
- But you're never dead
May 11, 2021
May 11, 2021 at 8:11 PM UTC
History dictates,
and ego is born.
Emaciated, it creates the false self as means of safe passage through a storm.
Like a wounded animal seeking shelter, it hides.
Vicious, and untouched. Safe.
This is dystopia.
Never weakened by the external, unphased by the internal.
It grows stronger.
For ego has no choice but to protect what gives it life when no one else will.
In consequence, giving birth to a savagely misconceived identity.
The false self is conceived.
At what cost though, the innocent of youth could never impart the price such of self preservation brought forth by the absences of love.
And the false self will accept it no more, owning the fact that it would sink to its very core, unmasking itself as a fragile thing.
A prisoner of war.
A mind that paied that cost, a heart that pumps pain into being.
An unhappy exsistance that eventually becomes animalistic.
No progression, only movement to regress in moments of weakness.
This is created not born. At the hands of man who came before and failed so on many counts.
Do we accept to never grow because of a historically sorry soul. isn't that history repeating itself?
There is always choice to break the false self,
Over power it.
We, as living breathing beings are bigger. We always were...
Because we are real.
Somewhere
Feb 9, 2021
Feb 9, 2021 at 1:20 PM UTC
Bethink of times I hurt for you
I weeped for you
Because it made a difference that I loved you
For to love it's to hurt and now
I don't cry
I don't hurt and I don't love, not the way I did before
Tragic to me
Because no one will ever have that part of me
It's inside of you forever
Tangled up with your own bluebird
And they're keeping each other warm while you lock them up
Caged and beaten like what we had
But you keep them close
Because you know
They make you come alive and when I come back around, you can't control that because
You want to be alive
My saddest story, my endless poem
Beautiful in animation
Ceasessly blind to nature's creation
But oh, you see it
You know what you are
That's why you hide yourself
You hurt me because you were sad and afraid
And now you're just sad and afraid inside of yourself
By yourself
And you will be this forever
Where ever you are, whoever you're with
You're alone
But I am still here and I can still make someones sun beam
You keep those birds
Abuse the hell out of them and yourself until the end of time
I still have my heart in all the rain and shine
A wise person might say, forgiveness could be be divine
But they never played your game
I'll always miss you because
I have a heart
More than anything, you have my deepest sympathies
You're so sad it makes me want to hurt for you
To cry for you
But I don't cry
I don't hurt and I don't feel for you...
Not the way I used to
Nov 24, 2020
Nov 24, 2020 at 4:23 PM UTC