The illusion of
Desire to meet
One of a kind
Human experience
But lacking
In every sense
Of the words
Caught up
In semantics
That we forgot
The emotions
Writing drivel
Putting us in a state
Of disproportionate sadness
Annihilating any thought
Provoking thoughts
For a burst of euphoria
Begging to know
Which way the wind will blow
But wrecked sails
Left us stranded
Dying of thirst
In the midst of blue wide oceans
Too tired to think of anything else
But the depths of squandered
Youth that were plundered
By unmotivated people
Who just used us
And burst at the seams
From the ideals taught
An artist a lawyer a scientist
While everything slipped
Through fingers like water
Or sand in an hourglass
Writing in hopes
That it finds you well
A glimpse into the tattered mind
That was left behind
A silly reminder
That once there was talent
Or whatever you want to call it
Now disproportionately depressed
We had a bright future
Squandered by litigation
Trying to define
What we never knew
As if definition gave us meaning
Because they never knew
Now you know what the real thing is
Maybe you’ll reconsider false accusations
But instead you’ll join some club
That will stroke your ego
I’m not impressed
May 13
May 13, 2026 at 11:51 AM UTC
I dreamt of you last night
And said all I needed to say
You asked me why I come back
I answered coy fully that I still love you
And you asked me what is it really?
And I paused and thought and thought
And as the text message bubble appeared
From your side
Because
You are all I know
You are home
You are safety
You are all I ever wanted to know
The bubble disappeared
And reappeared
What does that even mean you said?
That doesn’t mean anything you said
That’s all in you’re head you said
I paused you sent me a picture of us
I think it was Paris France
We were smiling
In that world
I got to enjoy some time with you
The bubble reappeared
You need to let us go you said
It’s time you said
I clung to the phone
As if clinging to dear life
Okay I said
Goodbye I said
As I stared at our smiles
In a picture that I had never seen
Then I think I blew myself in the head
As I woke up
I could see the message bubble appear
Who knows what it said
I started to count sheep
And wait for the next time we meet
Apr 21
Apr 21, 2026 at 9:15 AM UTC
Love at first sight
Was it real?
Twin flames
I remember
The Greek mythology
Humans were originally created
With four arms, four legs
And a head with two faces
Fearing their power
Zeus split them into two separate parts
Condemning them to spend their lives
In search of their other halves
Was that real?
Is that what happened to us?
Or was it stories like these
That drove us mad
Into a frenzy
Beseeched by desires
Trying to find what words
That Could only theorize
But never recreate
An idea with no way to fruition
Only dream like states
And dream scapes
Where we touched
But could never be
A dreams deceit
That I never wanted to know
Forbidden love
Unrequited love
Star crossed lovers
We were all of that
Prayed that my soul could take
The hurricane winds ahead
And not be torn to bits
But it was too late
We were in the eye of the storm
Before we even realized it was too late
To do a **** thing
And once we did
The soul could not bend
We were torn asunder
But **** you still looked so pretty
With your hands around my throat
And as I try to not look back
Your name pulls me back
For ever and always
I’ll never let go
Apr 21
Apr 21, 2026 at 9:14 AM UTC
Dreams devolve
We age and grow up
Nothing that we wanted
Did we get
Desires left unchecked
Spent all our time
Wondering about nothing
Excessive pinning
For a soul
That was never meant to be with us
Though I try to move on
I linger still
Contriving over and over
That which never existed
Looking for a faint wisp
Of that flame once felt
But nothing ever adds up
Longing for a tell tale
But eyes dart away
Quickly abandoning
Nauseant dreams
That only serve
To make us ill
And still we falter
Searching for meaning
In what lost meaning long ago
An image
A word
A verse
A memory
A passage from a book
A movie
Always brings you to mind
But you’re getting hard to find
As I drown on painful
Existential thoughts
That I’m not worth a ****
Apr 1
Apr 1, 2026 at 6:34 AM UTC
Lingering sentiments
Pesky memories
That arise from ashes
A twisted phoenix
Waiting for me
To burn and mutilate me
While screeching her name
Reminding me of what I lost
And at every crossroad
Her ghost
Beckons me to her *****
Chastising me for leaving
But never offering remorse
Celestial star hanging from heaven
Lucid dreams unraveling
Soft elusive creature
I only wanted to love you
Through carnal episodes
Because that’s all I knew
Never meant to break
Or hurt you
But when you left
Took everything from me
My innocence
And my peace of mind
I killed myself again and again
Just to be with you
Until there was nothing left
But memories that evaporate
Then come down on rainy days
When you appear through
The cracks in my mind and heart
Flooding me with ice cold water
To the point that I can’t breathe
Because everything I had wanted
Died the day that you left
And now I pick up the pieces
Wondering which ones are worth keeping
Because I see no worth in me
After the words you said to me
And all that I have shouts at me
That it would have been better
Had it been you
Mar 28
Mar 28, 2026 at 4:22 AM UTC
I am terrorized by my mind
Day and night
Images of longing lust
Fill me up until I runneth over
With desire
Insatiable want
A night with a woman
That I saw through the screen
Desirable, impeccable beauty
Forbidden fruit hanging
From the limb of a tree
Driving me mad
With turbulent thoughts
Withdrawn from societies eyes
In a room by myself
What if I could be with her?
Would I be happy then?
Only an imagined scenario
That runs wild at night
With unrequited thoughts
Misery loves company
And I’ve been loving myself
For far too long
Temptress incapable of love
It would only be the same
On the other side
Nothing is greener
Just shades of gray
While screaming
“Don’t know why I came here”
As if I never meant to stay
Mar 24
Mar 24, 2026 at 3:34 PM UTC
Don’t get a big head
When you’re given praise
Especially when she gives it
To everyone else
Just a quota
That changed our notion
Of what true love really is
It wasn’t the scene in the movie
Or a kiss in the rain
Not even the beautiful words in a book
It was just an accepting embrace
That took me by surprise
Until everything I believed
Crumbled to the ground
Dissolving my soul into nothing
Until I was lost in the void
Trying to rebuild myself
Into everything she ever wanted
Mar 18
Mar 18, 2026 at 10:35 PM UTC
Weary traveler
On a forlorn road
What are you searching for?
Heaven ain’t happening
And you’re still living in denial
Futile search for meaning
When nothing means nothing
But still trying to make amends
Trying to spin straw into Golden Fleece
Living in your own gilded age
Deranged youthful innocence
Enamored with jealousy
But it has never worked
In the aftermath of longing
There is nothing left to say
But good morning
How’s your day been
Living in a glamorous
Secluded glass house
Made from your sullen parts
Unequivocally unequivocal
Just another lost soul
Prospering on misery
Took another deep breath out of spite
Hoping to heal your glass jaw
Bound to lose again and again
Romantic exacerbator
That did nothing but make empty promises
Filling their heads with romantic plights
That you had no intention of fighting for
But they were pretty pictures
Painted by prettier words that you heard
Spoken somewhere languidly
Under the midnight auburn skies
Mar 13
Mar 13, 2026 at 8:36 AM UTC
How often is lust
Mistaken for love
Lost in jeweled eyes
Wanting to seize the day
But too tired to breathe
Acting like a fool
In search of a
Wondrous place
But crashing out
Into disastrous
Situations
Been mincing words
To dilute the bitterness
But it only made it worse
A hard pill to swallow
But I swallowed it whole
And took some more
Drove down the road
Found her between
Pacific coast highway
And Studebaker
But that was the end
Fantastical fantasy
Fatally adjourned
The antidote
For the venom
That had been had
A nuance of words
Solicited illicitly
That which
Should never have been
Had been told
And what unfolded
Was not destiny
But erroneous choices
With unforetold consequences
That made us ashamed
For all that had been lost
Mar 4
Mar 4, 2026 at 11:01 PM UTC
Wear a ring pop
For what it’s worth
Casting fishnets
Onto vacant streets
And coming up empty
Eyes grow dimmer
Each year with every tear
Existence is bleaker
Just like her demeanor
I want to go to sleep
But I see her face
In every dream
Twisted and frail
Not at all like I remember her
Hesitation led to disaster
Memories buried in time
She never could persuade me
That nothing lasts forever
I got lucky
And it made me mean
Outlasting every consequence
Until I believed myself indomitable
But I said something wrong
And it all came crashing down
You were right and I was wrong
I can say that now
That I’m realistically optimistic
Feb 28
Feb 28, 2026 at 6:51 AM UTC