Sqwishy - Hello Poetry

Being a mother, Was one of the most precious Gifts i could have ever asked for. Being a mother, Is a promise to the little humans That you bring into the world that You will always be here to protect them. Being a mother, Was romanticized so much That i am now at a lose. No one ever said, It would be this hard This exhausting This draining. No one ever said, That your children are The reason you get up in the morning But also the reason you dont want too. No one ever said, That when you can't handle it anymore Because they have just destroyed your Mental well being, and all you do is cry and beg for them to act right and not keep destroying everything. You have to keep going.

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Oct 27, 2023

Oct 27, 2023 at 11:30 AM UTC

Sqwishy

Mother.

Being a mother, Was one of the most precious Gifts i could have ever asked for. Being a mother, Is a promise to the little humans That you bring into the world that You will always be here to protect them. Being a mother, Was romanticized so much That i am now at a lose. No one ever said, It would be this hard This exhausting This draining. No one ever said, That your children are The reason you get up in the morning But also the reason you dont want too. No one ever said, That when you can't handle it anymore Because they have just destroyed your Mental well being, and all you do is cry and beg for them to act right and not keep destroying everything. You have to keep going.

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There's 2 sides to every coin I'v found both sides . . . I'v been here before But never like this This time its warm Genuine, and safe . . . This time it isn't laced With barbed wire Barbed wire that cuts oh so Deep . . . This side fits perfectly against The other How do I keep from loosing My self control . . . It almost breaks my heart But you're so beautiful and kind There isn't anything my stupid self Could convince me to tread in those Forbidden water's . . .

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Oct 25, 2023

Oct 25, 2023 at 7:33 PM UTC

Sqwishy

2 Sides

There's 2 sides to every coin I'v found both sides . . . I'v been here before But never like this This time its warm Genuine, and safe . . . This time it isn't laced With barbed wire Barbed wire that cuts oh so Deep . . . This side fits perfectly against The other How do I keep from loosing My self control . . . It almost breaks my heart But you're so beautiful and kind There isn't anything my stupid self Could convince me to tread in those Forbidden water's . . .

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*I told you that i didnt feel the same as you I told you that my feelings werent as tortured as yours I told you that i wasnt as broken as you I Lied My mind often wonders to you, my mind flows like a stream into a river straight to where you are on the very banks of my sanity I told you that my heart didnt ache, ache like yours I told you that i didnt hurt like you I Lied Im suspended in deepest parts of that river, drowning, drowning. I Lied*

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Aug 11, 2023

Aug 11, 2023 at 6:08 PM UTC

Sqwishy

I lied

*I told you that i didnt feel the same as you I told you that my feelings werent as tortured as yours I told you that i wasnt as broken as you I Lied My mind often wonders to you, my mind flows like a stream into a river straight to where you are on the very banks of my sanity I told you that my heart didnt ache, ache like yours I told you that i didnt hurt like you I Lied Im suspended in deepest parts of that river, drowning, drowning. I Lied*

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Why.? are you a temptation in the back of my mind when my world is so silent Why.? do i want to reach out and have you fill the deafening silence Why.? am i willing to risk my soul and get burned Why.? do you have this hold over me How.? do i break this chain you have wrapped around my neck suffocating me.

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Jul 10, 2023

Jul 10, 2023 at 7:47 AM UTC

Sqwishy

Temptation

Why.? are you a temptation in the back of my mind when my world is so silent Why.? do i want to reach out and have you fill the deafening silence Why.? am i willing to risk my soul and get burned Why.? do you have this hold over me How.? do i break this chain you have wrapped around my neck suffocating me.

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You gave me all the pretty words that I needed to hear, But they weren't from you from which I wanted to hear. I fell into your carefully laid trap, I fell into the routine - The routine that I needed Those god **** words that I craved from the very bottom of my soul, You took advantage of my vulnerable mind, And twisted it to what you wanted. Who was I to believe that you had changed, You led me to make some bad decisions, that in the moment I didnt regret, But now, now I do. You were nothing but a pretty face that fed me Lies, Lies that never had any truth behind them. You gave me all the pretty words that I needed to hear, But they weren't from you from which I wanted to hear.

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Jul 5, 2023

Jul 5, 2023 at 10:13 AM UTC

Sqwishy

Pretty Words, Bad Decisions

You gave me all the pretty words that I needed to hear, But they weren't from you from which I wanted to hear. I fell into your carefully laid trap, I fell into the routine - The routine that I needed Those god **** words that I craved from the very bottom of my soul, You took advantage of my vulnerable mind, And twisted it to what you wanted. Who was I to believe that you had changed, You led me to make some bad decisions, that in the moment I didnt regret, But now, now I do. You were nothing but a pretty face that fed me Lies, Lies that never had any truth behind them. You gave me all the pretty words that I needed to hear, But they weren't from you from which I wanted to hear.

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When we lay together Our fingers touch the sky All my fears melt away My senses are flooded with your Scent, your soft skin again mine Your beautiful blue eyes staring into mine. When we lay together Everything falls away and it's just you and I Our bodies intertwined Entrapped in one another. When we lay together I can almost forget what you've done The heart break you've caused me The utter pain in my heart from you betraying me. When we lay together, your beautiful blue eyes captivate me When we lay together, our fingers touch the sky.

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Nov 23, 2019

Nov 23, 2019 at 2:13 PM UTC

Sqwishy

Untitled #3

When we lay together Our fingers touch the sky All my fears melt away My senses are flooded with your Scent, your soft skin again mine Your beautiful blue eyes staring into mine. When we lay together Everything falls away and it's just you and I Our bodies intertwined Entrapped in one another. When we lay together I can almost forget what you've done The heart break you've caused me The utter pain in my heart from you betraying me. When we lay together, your beautiful blue eyes captivate me When we lay together, our fingers touch the sky.

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*You took everything from me, You took my happyiness, My pride, My loyalty, My hopes, My dreams. You took everything from me, My trust, My love, My self esteem. You took everything from me, I will never be able to trust you again, I will never be able to believe anything you say again. I will never be able to have what we once had. You. Took. Everything. From. Me. ..... You left me broken and alone, Lying on the floor like a forgotten doll. A discarded toy. A discarded Wife. ...... You left me here alone with this thoughts that torture me every night when I alone and you can't find the words to say to console the fire within me. You left me here alone to battle these demons that you created, these demons that you bred with your lies and your fake promises. ..... You took it all from me.* ~Summer.

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Oct 30, 2019

Oct 30, 2019 at 11:56 PM UTC

Sqwishy

Untitled #2

*You took everything from me, You took my happyiness, My pride, My loyalty, My hopes, My dreams. You took everything from me, My trust, My love, My self esteem. You took everything from me, I will never be able to trust you again, I will never be able to believe anything you say again. I will never be able to have what we once had. You. Took. Everything. From. Me. ..... You left me broken and alone, Lying on the floor like a forgotten doll. A discarded toy. A discarded Wife. ...... You left me here alone with this thoughts that torture me every night when I alone and you can't find the words to say to console the fire within me. You left me here alone to battle these demons that you created, these demons that you bred with your lies and your fake promises. ..... You took it all from me.* ~Summer.

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*My mind is at a resting place , But Im still struggling with the demons inside, My mind becomes a war zone, Conflicted and confused, I'm ohkey and then suddenly I'm not, Something's can't be what they once where, Something's can't be undone, My mind is war zone, Struggling with the demons within, My mind won't set me free, No, Not tonight.* ~ Summer.

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Oct 23, 2019

Oct 23, 2019 at 6:48 PM UTC

Sqwishy

Untitled #1

*My mind is at a resting place , But Im still struggling with the demons inside, My mind becomes a war zone, Conflicted and confused, I'm ohkey and then suddenly I'm not, Something's can't be what they once where, Something's can't be undone, My mind is war zone, Struggling with the demons within, My mind won't set me free, No, Not tonight.* ~ Summer.

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