Does your family still talk about me?
Are your walls the color you talked about with me so long ago?
I guess friends do come and go
And with the irregularities in thought process that have come to light I suppose it’s no surprise you sought out people with better expressed feelings, sympathy.
You could say I left myself in the dirt
Chasing the only friend whose feelings seemed real to me
Oct 29, 2021
Oct 29, 2021 at 10:23 AM UTC
If he sees me sad
Maybe he’ll put away the things that have come between us
Angry
At the people whose feelings are supposedly easily expressed
For not caring
Angry
That the short hour of time I’ve created out of sleep for love has become so sour
Angry
That you can’t just put our differences aside and give me the only thing I’ve ever wanted from you since the beginning
Oct 29, 2021
Oct 29, 2021 at 10:06 AM UTC
Dark and empty
Where everything outside is muffled
Those are the places I reside now
A lightly treaded staircase
Inside the box of tin and 4 wheels that takes me everywhere I don’t want to be
Any available corner of a room
Loneliness and hunger
Hoping the more I leave people alone,
The more okay with me they might be
If my stomach is as empty as I am
The happy things might return
Oct 29, 2021
Oct 29, 2021 at 10:02 AM UTC
I imagine it's like tightrope walking
But on drugs
I dont know which way to lean
Where I am
Why I'm trying so hard to stay balanced
Where I'll land if I fall off the rope
I make my moves carefully
But my mind is spinning
I am preparing myself for what my mind seems to believe is inevitable
The fall
The end
I want to keep walking
The farther I go the better I feel
If only I could keep my balance in this altered state of mind i refuse to define
Aug 13, 2020
Aug 13, 2020 at 11:22 PM UTC
It's like a dream
Walking outside to find you sitting on the ledge of a ditch
Watching traffic
You always seem to find the perfect balance of speaking but still letting things be unspoken
And though they say I'm far from home
The drive has never seemed so short
Jul 19, 2020
Jul 19, 2020 at 12:55 PM UTC
I wish I could ask you to stay
That youd never leave
But I'd hate the thought that you could want to leave but feel trapped by my desperation
Your love seems so unconditional when it comes to me
But as time goes on I feel as if even your love for me is fading
I wonder terribly often that maybe I am becoming a worse person
And that you greatly dislike the changes you see in me
Jun 18, 2020
Jun 18, 2020 at 12:14 AM UTC
Sometimes
My bonds with people seem like wells
Wells that I am constantly running dry
And anymore it seems as if I am in a desert
I'm sorry
If I come to drink from the wells of friendship too often
I wish I could be more like rain
Jun 17, 2020
Jun 17, 2020 at 6:22 PM UTC
Everything is boring
And my dreams have never been so out of reach
I have no desire to return home without the touch and embrace of another
If only we could both stay here
Until my dreams were caught
I want to ask you so many things
If only youd take me seriously and answer my questions
I should take what I can get
Jokes and glances
But I've always wanted more
And I dont think that will change anytime soon
Jun 7, 2020
Jun 7, 2020 at 9:56 PM UTC
Apologizing
For needless things
Things I've been told are okay to do
Sorry
For saying no
Forgive me for expecting things from someone residing below the floor
May 28, 2020
May 28, 2020 at 8:31 PM UTC
For the better half of an hour
Some 24 hours ago
You sounded like you had a conscience
Like you could understand the deeper meanings of sadness, anger, and guilt
Talking philosophy
As if maybe there was a chance at happiness for us
May 20, 2020
May 20, 2020 at 2:07 PM UTC