You promised me, you would change
But you stayed in the same lane
Keep telling me that you aren’t stubborn
But you looked the other way and I gave you the patience you didn’t earn
Telling me I’m crazy, I have mood-swing, on my period
Well you shouldn’t challenge me in this moment when I’m serious
Don’t make any excuses for yourself when you started
I couldn’t stand your presence as if you were departed
Departed in my heart, when you made me feel sad
The anger was fighting inside of me, I’m a maniac, MAD
Why do I always have to receive your ********
When you are the one who’s in the wrong, this ain’t it
May 3, 2019
May 3, 2019 at 8:01 AM UTC
Thruthfully I have never wanted to put as much effort in someone
It wasn't until I met you that my life begun
You have the kindest heart, and you share it with me
I've known you only shortly, but for me it feels like an eternity
I laid on your chest while your arms were wrapped around me, the heartfelt love you show
I have never felt so safe in my life, never wanted to let you go
In what way do I deserve someone like you?
My heart keeps beating, for you it only grew
An emotional, passionate and loving soul
Is what you proved to me
You twisted my heart and set me free
Every time I look into your eyes I melt
When you caress my cheeks, I get soft and warm
No one makes me giggle and cry the way you do
Because of the way that I love you
Nov 30, 2016
Nov 30, 2016 at 6:09 AM UTC
Strangers
Why do you tell me that we're gonna make it
Tell me that our relationship is sacred
Always suspected that you faked it
Friends
Every word you said seemed so magical
As if I was the princess and you the prince, so delusional
What was I thinking - should've been rational
Lovers
The fairytale never existed, only in my mind
How could someone like you make me so tremendously blind
The fairytale might not have a happy ending
But at least I got experience from the time I was spending
Strangers
May 5, 2016
May 5, 2016 at 8:12 AM UTC
If I don't cry, maybe I won't feel it.
If I hold back the tears, maybe the pain will go away.
If I hold my face into my knees...
Maybe I'll forget about you and me.
Maybe if my skin rips apart I'll forget that your lips are works of art.
If the water turns red and I slip beneath...
Maybe I'll forget about you in my sheets.
Maybe if I burn the photos..
Erase every memory of you there is..
I'll stop hearing your voice inside my head.
Maybe if I think it was a dream all along..
I'll stop singing your name in every song.
Maybe if I screamed out loud...
"I HATE YOU SO MUCH!"
It would be true.
Maybe one day...
I'll forget I was ever in love with you.
May 5, 2016
May 5, 2016 at 7:51 AM UTC
Everyone looks right through me.
Every day they notice me.
But no one really sees me.
They touch me gently when I'm warm.
I'm a breath of fresh air.
They open me up with delight
When I promise a good day.
But when the sky turns grey,
They all turn away...
They can't handle the truth of my cold insides,
And so, they shut me closed.
I'm so easy to see through.
You think you can see right into the world.
But once you've noticed my cracks and smudges,
The outside never really looks the same...
Does it?
May 5, 2016
May 5, 2016 at 7:49 AM UTC
There's a million ways to love a soul.
And I'm done holding back, just so you know.
Because I love so many people in this day to day life.
I can't hold it back, just to be someone's wife.
There's the way I love you.
I want to have our home.
I want to go on adventures.
Never leave you alone.
Make silly faces.
Caress your hair.
Make goofy videos.
Cuddle our pets.
Maybe a baby...
Fancy that.
There's the way I love you.
Always messages a few a times a year.
Happy birthday. Merry Christmas.
How are you my dear?
How is the wife? How are the babies?
I found your letter.
Man, we were crazy.
There's the way I love you.
You taught me so much.
A better way to think.
A better way to touch.
How important it is to value myself.
And how to let go.
That's why I love you so.
And there's the way I love you.
The unapologetic ways.
In which you take my hand
But make everyone the same.
The way you say,
"I just want to see you"
And even though it's temporary,
You make time seem brand new.
There are too many ways to love a person.
How you can be so sure what is real?
Which one is forever?
Which one would should we feel?
But I wouldn't be me, with out all of this painful action.
I want a world that's not afraid to love.
May 4, 2016
May 4, 2016 at 1:37 PM UTC
It's like i'm superman and you're my kryptonite
But it's like we both don't know how to end this fight...
My life without you is pointless wich means i can give it any meaning i want...
I won't lose my faith in god, but i don't believe in jesus
I gave you my heart, i just didn't expect to get it back in pieces
See my biggest mistake wasn't falling for you, it was thinking that you could fall for me too
I'm not afraid of losing her
Cause she was never mine
I don't know how to prove it to her
That i'll love her till the end of time
I'm not afraid to tell her i love her
Cause i really believe she knows
But every word she says to me
Feels like she's throwing stones
It's already too late cause the friendship is over
And it breaks my heart
I just could never find a way to show her
How i really feel about her
How i really do love her
It's pathetic that i'm writing this
My heart is David and she's Goliath
It's stupid that i'm fighting this
Cause i just can't win
That's the way it is
And that's the way it's always been
Too tired to hold on
Too in love to let go
Too tired of being strong
Too proud to let it show
Mar 29, 2016
Mar 29, 2016 at 7:11 PM UTC
You turn the water on.
You pour in the neglected bubble bath liquid, you pour in a lot.
You are expecting much from this bottle as you empty it of its contents. You step into the tub and lay down.
Then you see; your toes stick out of the water, the water gets cold too fast, there are no toys to distract you from the awkward silence between you and the bubbles you were expecting to ease your pain, to set your mind free.
You curse the bubbles, stand up and pull the drain, not bothering to watch the soapy water swirl into nothingness.
You turn the shower on and rinse off.
You get out and wrap a towel around you and put on your sinful clothes.
You walk away from the bathroom.
It’s then that you realize your skin is baby soft, the bubbles had done something for you after all.
You forgot to thank them before you pulled that plug, sending them to their doom.
It wasn't their fault.
You are the one that grew, that left them in the back of your cupboard. You're ashamed for only about a minute before you return to your daily routine, only to get ***** once again.
Mar 29, 2016
Mar 29, 2016 at 6:40 PM UTC
My first love, I had thought she has came from heaven above, but it wasn't true..
For she had lied to me.....for she had blinded me with this false hope that I could be happy with another person, these feelings churning in my stomach, left my thoughts tossing and turning in my head, meaningless fights, sleepless nights....for all had come to an end with two words..."we're done"
Mar 29, 2016
Mar 29, 2016 at 6:37 PM UTC